A well thought out evening
A luxury lavender soak
I lay back and inhale
relaxed and happy

I get dressed
silky stockings of course
revealing dress
black pointy heels

I do this for me
This is who I am
I embrace all things
silky and ****

My favorite cozy spot
A cider and pizza ordered
I sit back and take in this moment
I reflect...

"Perfect" Ed Sheeran
a slice of pizza
and tears
sipping my liquid comfort

Asking for the bill
I am sobbing
you are not here
I am alone

The one who used to call me
his perfect love
has left me all alone
dinner for one was not part of the plan.

Come lie with me
hold me close . . .
don't explore

Be still
Shut out all sounds
of the world;
close your eyes

. . .Inhale
Exhale. . .

Feel my warmth
my love . . .

Touch my face;
******* lips

Our tongues dance
to the sound of Debussy;
our hands wander . . .

Our souls meet;
you are inside
Don’t leave, yet --
don't stop;
don't move

. . .Inhale
Exhale. . .

We wake
to the sound of Debussy;
you never left . . .
or even moved

love is beautiful
between perky pyramids
avoiding the heart

The beauty in
a journey traveled,
often reflecting
our pain
our loss,
but it is in these
moments we reflect
The beauty in pain

a sunflower smile
on this windy sunny day
with hope of some rain

Emotions scrambled
A labyrinth of unknown
Feelings
Roadblocks

Running
Stalling
Screaming
Feeling

­Running into
Nowhere
The world
Is just too big

Screaming
Shouting
Should I go
Should I stay

Do I even know the answers
… anyway?

Afternoon naps
Blossoms in Spring
Cuddles on the couch
Drives into the countryside (I’ll navigate)
Exploring your body
Forgiving you for being silly
Giving you a love note
Having you by my side
Impressing you with my salsa dance (yeah)
Just holding you
Kissing in the rain (let’s get wet)
Loving you
Morning kisses
Needing more kisses
Oh, you are amazing, AF
Picnics in the park
Q & A’s
Reading poetry together
Sushi platter for two
Tickling your feet
Unlimited conversations with you
Van Gogh paintings
Walking hand in hand
****** midnights with you
Yes, kiss me
Zzzzzzzz’s… sweet dreams my love

I think of you
in the morn'
afternoon naps
empty cuddles

You are here
with me always
even when you're not
I feel your arms

Do you think of me too?
It simply does not matter!

In my loneliest hour
love, kissed my cold cheek
hope, held my trembling hand
peace, embraced my broken soul

hold me close
as I dream of our forever
I wish to feel love again
I dream of you
I wish for you to dream of me, my love

Sing your beautiful
lullaby to me
drizzled with your
silver drops

I cry with you
we dance
the dance
of aching souls

Our story began
with your tender words
and ended
with your pretty lies

As I turn the pages
of my story
long ago and today
and perhaps, a little longer

I dream of sunflowers
and summer picnics
by the lake
fresh jasmine scents holding me

The peace of dandelions
dancing in the wind
of hope
and love

I dream of pretty drinks
celebrating each moment
chamomile tea and fresh mint
soothing my slumber

Thoughts of you
melt my heart
set my soul on fire
your soft lips on mine

your scent of woody under tones
lingers through my darkest night
your breath against my skin
the soft touch of your hands

the taste of your lips
you are my wine
you are my drug
that feed my needs all day long

It's been years
we hardly talk
it's easier that way
but we remember, every second of the day

Incredible pain
Constant misery
loneliness
our hearts breaking

a million shattered pieces
that could never
be glued back together
we were just not meant to be

In our hearts
we kiss
we touch
we love, till forever

Liquid pleasures
often, the company
lonely poets keep
when they cannot sleep
while they... weep

I woke up
to the glorious sound of the first rains
the unmistakable scent
of petals dancing

The wind a little calmer
resting in awe
blossoms smiling,
grateful, to be kissed with natures love

A feeling
A spark
A fire
Blazing in the dark

Screaming your name
In the lonely midnight hour
Nothing will ever be the same
Our souls searching in vain

As the day bleeds
Into night
I lose sight
Of all my needs

I never talk to strangers
it scares me to get close to the unknown
but, then I remember
how we met ...

We share hurt
unbearable pain
our truths are not always pretty
but we have each other

We get excited about the little detail
and absorb aches in the aftermath
of hope ... lost
often we believe love is not ours to have

But we are friends
and we love each other
no matter what
to infinity and beyond, my friend, my Werner.

I have loved you for years
but our love has been a rollercoaster ride
a battlefield of our souls fighting
our hearts breaking over and over

We both prefer our solace
it hurts less
than for us to be together and
fighting over a love that will remain
                                                              ... a battlefield

Breaking into a pause mid-breath
your words cut into my memories
before dancing with the rain
across the path in a mirror reflection

Tears cascading down my face
crashing into my heart
my dreams are bound
by only a memory of your touch

Our souls
Searching through
Beautiful scattered
Shiny stars

Find me
And I'll find you
For once,
Look past the clouds

Tell me all the
things you will
never say
out loud

Whisper your secrets
into the deepest
part of my soul
I'll keep them safe

Unspoken chemistry
Infinite attention
Unconditional trust
from my soul to yours

Your emerald eyes

a window to your beautiful soul

your sensitivity to mankind

zero tolerance for the unkind

Writing about you

is harder than any poem I have ever written

you are

the purest soul

You amaze me

every single moment

your commitment

to your dreams

I am blessed

to be in your presence

even more blessed

to be your mommy,

                     I love you

                                      ... unconditionally

When I looked into

your beautiful bright eyes

for the very

first time

I knew love

Unconditionally,

Consistently,

Everlasting

Years of the joy of watching you

grow into the

amazing man

brave and strong

I look at you

in absolute awe

You are amazing

and your mommy loves you,

                                              ... unconditionally

We have many choices
my biggest was
to love you in person
or in memory

Painful memories
flooding in
when I least expect it
suffocating all reason to breathe

My soul craves
your absence
my heart aches
with my lips

but, I still choose
to love you
... only
in memory

There was a
reason why
our souls
collided

We may
... never ...
know all the why's

Does it matter?
I think not!

Show me
all the parts of you
that's not so pretty
your story, your truth

Allow me to share in
all your beautiful scars
even those,
... hidden

I allowed you in to
break down my walls
letting a little love in
... slowly

You were scared, too
kept me at arms length, often
patiently, we waited for
our precious times

You broke through
my decade of silence
you knew my fears
you knew my heart

Showing me
my strength
my courage
I believed in myself again

I finally had to let you go
no fairy-tale ending for us
I needed to heal my soul
...all over again

I fell in love with you
when I knew it was hopeless
you needed me, and I
just couldn't be there for you

We do only have
one greatest love
I wasn't yours
You weren't mine

Beautiful lyrical words

drawing a cunning belief

of everlasting

adoration

Utter deceit

painful, heart wrenching agony

evoking more emotion

perhaps, pain is our

                                    ... elusive love affair

Breathing on your skin
your body my canvas
with every brush of
my rosy lips,
the sound of
my voice,
a melody of my
... love
a never ending
... passion
for you ...

You ***** your
negative,
disgusting,
... words
oh, the deafening
sound of
absolute bliss

Heart piercing violin
dull sounds of a piano
vibrating your voice
through my soul
an impulse not
mistaken to be
the drums of my heart
... running

Today,
I write about you,
antique words just pour out of me
I think of you
and my romantic heart holds love

I still feel your passionate kisses
trailing my body
your arms around me
embracing, our beautiful connection.

A plum blossom greets
infinite beauty in morn'
while birds sit and wait

Piercing through
my ever insistent darkness
an orchestra of emotions
reaching out
... reaching in

Playfully,
my dorment butterflies
awaken
by the touch of
your lips on mine

Memories of a

long time ago ... fading slowly

I say goodbye to the sunset

while love

adores me

with a loving morning kiss

We all have a story,
to tell ...
or keep hidden in our archive
of hurt, loss, love and pain

The quilt will consume you,
Let it go!
forgive those ...
... forgive yourself, often

Live a life without
the usual expectations
be your authentic self
let it go... exhale

We have all made mistakes,
some we can laugh about
most would have taught us
a valuable lesson

The sun seem brighter

The icy winter

A little warmer

Our hearts, a little lighter

It's been incredibly

Difficult to allow

Any beauty in ...

It's time for me to exhale ...

I'm breathing you in

... One moment at a time

Inhale with me

The smell of blossoms

Float with me

On this beautiful

Cloud of hope,

Perhaps, even love.

I miss you
With every waking
Tortured moment,
It's painful

I have to let you go
Little by little
I am scattering
Your memory

And as they fade
I throw them back into the universe
Ashes to ashes
I'm letting go

Living through
The darkness
The grief
The loss

It's a way
Of dealing
With all that's
Lost forever

Even though the
Memories won't fade
It's a beautiful thing
To see a rainbow

All the colours
             Smiles
Tender words
             A comforting hug

For the lonely
For the sad
A smile is almost
As beautiful as a rainbow

I am
A girl
I am
A lady

I am
A good girl
I am
A lil bad

I am
All about soul
I am
All about sin

I am
Happy
I am
Sad

I am
Me
I am
Happy

Solitude has become my
Beautiful lonely love affair
My prison wall of hurt,
My safety

As I heal, taking small steps
I find myself cheating
On my lonely love affair,
In silence...for now

Forever, maybe!

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Where love does
Exist
Where kindness is
Felt

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Running on the beach
Into your arms
Watching the amber sunset
Feeling your heartbeat

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Where your kisses
Are still warm

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Until the memory, of us
...fades away

I picked up your
Broken pieces
Shattered, one by one

It was incredibly hard
To see you so helpless
Broken promises
Of the past

You didn't believe in love anymore
You didn't care about it at all
But you wanted to, for me that
Was half the battle won

Frustration
Anger
Hurt
Misery

You felt them all deeply!

All you felt, all you became
I embraced completely
With every beat of my heart
Every bit of my soul

I loved your beautiful
Broken pieces
Nurtured them
Still love them, as you silently dream

And watch my broken pieces
From up above
You are with me
As my night turns to day

Small steps
Towards what
I needed
To hear

Leaps towards
What I
Wanted to
Feel again

But it
Was the
One step
Backwards, quickly

That saved
Me from
Being hurt
Once again