As I sit here on October 30 2015 with tears coming down my face my heart is telling me that I have to become a new person even doe it's going to hurt but do it really make a difference? Right now since I'm already hurting but any way the new me ain't going to care about what others think,
Care about helping others if they do me wrong,
The new me ain't going to give chance over chance over chance over chance
This is the new me
The new me ain't going to cry anymore the new me is stronger than the old me and the new me really just don't care anymore but the old me care a lot
As I sit here it's said to say but all this is true cause pain cause people to change and you can't expect people to stay the same after getting hurt over and over and over and over again
Life just don't work that way sorry but the new me don't care it just don't care
If you feel like this way I'm sorry cause I know how it feels and I know it is one of the worst pain ever but if you never felt like this I pray to God that you never have to in your lifetime.

a child
So small and fragile
So innocent and strong
So delicate and alive
So wanting to belong

you*
So cold and unforgiving
So weak and towering
So uninhibited and fumbling
So dead and crumbling

You turned the child into you
You made **** sure of that
You turned the child against the world
You made its foundation crack

The child wanted to breathe
The child wanted to laugh
The child needed love
The child got none back

Can any one please tell me why I feel like I was put on this earth to be treated any kind of way by people,friends,family, and boyfriends in a (bad way) even doe I know God put me on this earth to do something great but do you know what I'm talking about or know how I feel? If not I'm glade you don't (it's not a great feeling) but this feeling and pain is killing me minute bye minute it's taking my breathe away, can you please tell why I feel like this please oh oh oh oh can you feel my pain? Ooooh yea I just want to run away but I don't know we're to but can you tell me how I still keep going,
Still love,
Still treat people right like how I want to be treated and
Still tell them to keep going
Even doe other people treated me wrong and they don't care about me or how I feel
How do I do it? Cause I don't even know but
I  got to shake it off and keep moving on no matter what even thru the pain and the hurt shake,shake,shake,shake it off i got to do what's best for me
Why why why why?
Ummmm please tell me my heart is crying out but no one even notices.

Ladies and gentlemens have you every made the biggest mistake in your life? But listen up I made the biggest mistake,biggest mistake to think he would change but now I'm saying goodbye to all the memories that we had and I regret even trying to give him a chance,but I'm losing myself so I'm thinking I'll just live with what's left but boy please tell me why did you have to go and treat me like the ******* the side? And why did you have to go and make me cry? And boy please tell me why did you have to go and lie to me? And cause me pain? After I gave you my heart baby am I'm what you need? I know I did wrong to but not like that but I'm going to go out a leading lady how my mom raised me cause boy you could of told me or you could've walked away and I've would had understand but now I don't care I wish I never let you in my life and if I could I would forget about you and Leave you as a mystery but y'all I don't care any more oh oh no I'm lying,lying that's why he not here,that's why he not here cause he knows I still care, he knows I still care that's why he don't care no no he don't.

     Have to keep our heads up even through the worst it will get better even when it hurts the most.

You are the sun that shines bright throughout my day
You are my oxygen that keeps me alive
For that
I promise to always lift you up when you feeling down
I promise to strength you whenever you fall weak
I promise to give you faith when you are feeling insecure
I promise to listen when you need to talk
But I can't promise you the world but I can promise to always be true to you and tell you no lies and to always be there for you until I leave this world.

Ooooh baby listen up God made you for me and me for you which became a blessing for us but life keeps getting in the way and when ever we try somehow the plan is always rearrange and I know how much you need me and it breaks my heart believe me baby it seems like forever that I waited for you in a world of disappointment and lonely people but one thing is true but we gotta go our own way and I really don't want to leave it all behind but we get our hopes up and we watch them fall every time and it's so hard to watch it slowly fade away and he said what about us? What about everything we been through? What about trust? And that I know he never wanted to hurt me and I said I know and I'm going to miss you so much that it's going to hurt me more than it hurts you and baby it's something about you that makes me want to stay and work it out.

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart
How do I find hope in a brand new day?
When my family is keeping secrets from me I should have known my mother should have told me I can't believe the secrets they kept from me (its alright) it had to come to the light maybe not this way but it will be okay and what do you say to a child with a broken heart?
But it will be alright in the morning I said it will be alright in the morning
I wish I knew the day, hour, time my mother love went away I hope my mom will be okay I hope she find her way
I still love her even though the pain
Umm but I got to come back to me but I wish I knew the day, hour, time my mom went a astray
But it's alright its okay I will make it somehow
I wish I wish I wish I wish I knew but it will be alright in the morning.