I am the book that’s already been read & put on the shelf.
I am the first generation of ipod.
I am the broken guitar string.
I am the car that won’t start.

I am the kid sitting alone downtown at 3am.
I am the 300 year old clock that just broke again.
I am the song that finishes too soon.
Today, tomorrow; I am invisible.

I’m not sure if this should be an apology letter.
I just figure for once, I might be able to make things better.
Me; is just something you should never ask me to define.

You are more than the price tag on your clothes,
More than the number on the scale.
You are more than the grades you are given,
& the pants size you fit in.

You are more than the number of friends you have,
More than the reflection in the mirror.
You’re flawless because you’re his creation.
I can’t make in any clearer.

I close my eyes real tight
Try to pretend that you’re here
With you, everything is better
My future, it is clear

I wrap myself in blankets
Hold them close and hard
Maybe it won’t hurt as much
If I imagine I'm in your arms

Face down on my pillow
Pretending it’s your chest
With that heartbeat in my ears
Everything hurts less

Doing everything I can    
To get some rest tonight
Every hour spent asleep
Is one less poem that I'll write

Last night, I felt your breath on my cheek
The simple sound calmed me
I now lay here alone in torture
To remember the slightest bit

The absence of your body against mine
In the dead of night haunts me
I long your presence by my side
Save me.

I never thought distance, complicated.
I never imagined feeling so empty.

Tonight you lay in bed at a minutes’ distance
Although I must know, our time for now is over
I won’t get to kiss you again
Until the fresh air is much colder.

Can I say I already miss the smell of your skin
When it’s still in the bed I’m sleeping in
Can I say the distance is already killing me
When you’re still here, but tomorrow you won’t be

This journey isn’t easy
I know it can’t possibly be
I just can’t wait till again,
I fall asleep with you next to me.

With every cycle the clock ticks
I escape the world from the back of the room
Through letters shaped as thoughts
Staring at where once was the moon

Seems pretty okay, right?
But you can’t write your sorrows on exams.
I would need the entire alphabet.
But I’m left with four bold letters at my hands

I began writing "I’m sorry" beside my name.
Answering questions with just because
I started leaving pages empty
I truly believed that’s what i’d become

When things came to an end,
I passed, but I failed to get better.
*- At least if i had actually failed, I would have gotten a second chance.

If my word is worth anything,
Then I promise you, my love
Nothing will ever come between
This bond, we’ve spoken of

If my word is worth anything,
Then this is not goodbye
Cause I don’t wish to live a day
Without you by my side

You.. You make my days brighter than they’ve ever been
Before I met you, life was grey
But I know the sun will stay
And I.. See life as full of peppermint, kisses and surprises

If my word is worth anything,
Then, I give myself to you
Throughout the good and the bad
For everything we’ve been through

If my word is worth anything,
Then I’ll say these words to you
I won’t ever let anything
Come between me and you

You.. You make my days brighter than they’ve ever been
Before I met you, life was grey
But I know the sun will stay
And I.. See life as full of peppermint, kisses and surprises

I want to fill up a field with flowers
& call it “ours"
I want to build a mountain with love letters
sent from afar

I want to paint your skin with kisses
Draw bubbles all over your neck
Watch them burst with the same excitement
As when our lips first met

I might fall for you
Even though I don't wish to..

I keep fighting with the shadows in my head
Knowing i’d be better off alone in bed
But the space so big is lonely & my toes are growing frost
I’m starting to dream without you, I find myself so lost

& now i’d rather say too much
Than not to say enough
But I'm not sure what will spill
Once I tell you I'm still in love...

I don’t hate you but I can’t be your friend.
Everyone looks toxic to me.
This is not supposed to be an angry letter but that's all that has been coming out lately.
The poison coming out from the tip of my pen is a part of me I don’t wish to know.
But it’s grown onto me like a **** in spring.
I’m the dandelion that to a new eye, is beautiful.
But the ones who’ve stuck around to know more,
I am annoying, old and toxic.
They pretend to be appreciative when surrounded;
Spending every second alone trying to get rid of me.
I’m sorry I became a dandelion…
Maybe when I die, you can ******* away like the others.
& your wish will finally come true.

Maybe I stopped being myself after you left.
Maybe I still feel your fingerprints on my chest.
Maybe that’s why I type so much but could never hit send.
Maybe I don’t know where to begin or where to end.

Maybe I miss the dream we lived in.
Maybe that’s why the rain feels colder on my skin.
Maybe my shot at making it through was none.
Maybe I was just so afraid I wasn’t the one.

The day you left us
Was the day I lost my mother
I am told to have faith
But you let him in

To have faith in you
Would be to have faith in him
& I can’t take a leap of faith
Off a bridge that’s been burned a long time ago