Always in the dark side where tears pour down and pain cuts deeps in my soul
Trying to figure out why  solitude is my only company and my only love
Darkness lurks in the shadows of my mind and laughs at the ******* mask
That which covers my self inflected wounds so nobody has to ask

Always in the edge fooling myself I won't fall
But my curiosity keeps me there waiting for my real friend to make the call
I'm waiting for it because everything about me is wrong
Even my smile and happy face hides that I am really not strong

i am a tender wound made of stitches —
bleeding at each
and every bit of touch.

so tell me, how far
and for how long
should I run
to escape from everything
that ever hurt?

how,

when I am everything
that ever hurt?

I bring death to everything I ever cared about
I feel like a cactus in a party
Please understand why I'm pushing you away
Don't come closer and just make it easy
Oh how I wish things can be different

Your eyes told me everything I needed
Those eyes had never cried the way I did
You've never seen how deep wounds can go
The time it would take to start healing
The will it would need just stop hurting

So I'll keep you as far as I can
Keep you safe, away from my corruption
Keep the smile on your face
By hiding my tears with a smile

people see what they want to see
and maybe it’s a weakness you’ve grown out of
maybe it’s a past you’ve shed like second skin
people will hold on to things you’ve let go of
so you’ve got to love yourself
enough to make up for the ones who spite you
enough to tell yourself you’ve done a good job
when your head hits the pillow at night
people will say things intended to cut you and leave you with open wounds
you are not the mistakes you’ve made-
do not let them convince you otherwise

your soul
is on fire
every loss
is a flicker
sparking new
Light in you

with galaxies
for wound-beds
your scars form
Cosmic Truth

your darkness
was made for
dancing and
your soul was
born to groove

never can you
fall off track
when every
path leads
back to you