i think
im kinda sad.
mdd
they called it
i think
its kinda complicated.
the simplicity.
it's just sadness.
but it's not.

I have so much to write about
Yet none of is with me
So I close my eyes
To open my heart
Don’t think
Just feel
And the words appear
My heart goes like a sponge
******* all that my soul feels
and drips letters that tell of what I don’t know.
God , it’s so beautiful
To see my creation
Through my own blindness
My fingers know more than my mind as the type faster than I can think
Don’t think , just spill from my body all that is within
Don’t think!

Written by E. M Rushton
June 4th 2019

i've been watching the clock tick
for who knows how long
why do i feel so weak
like everything here is wrong
this feeling of unease
just won't let me be
it won't let me fall asleep
it's getting hard to see
but still i'm wide awake
wondering how long it'll take
to clear my head of these thoughts
until i can untie my mental knot
so while i stare at this frozen clock
my way to rest will remain blocked

i think i kinda love you
i think it's kind of real
i think i can't accept it
i think i don't know what i feel
i think i don't think enough
i think i think too much
i think i've forgotten how live
i think i need to feel your touch

There's a huge gap between
What people say & do
And
What people think & feel
I have love for whom are aligned.

"Come to think about it"

That saying that's an invitation