Lights low. A figure sits on the edge of a bed, voice soft, breaking, like glass under pressure.
Support.
It’s just a seven-letter word, right?
But to me… it feels like a hundred.
Each letter soaked in the weight of all the times I needed comfort
and got correction instead.
You say you support me.
But scolding came first.
Nagging came first.
The yap-yap-yap before I could even breathe.
Sometimes… I don’t feel it at all.
Because your actions—
they don’t match your words.
You said, “I’m here.”
But you weren’t.
Not really.
You were there to judge.
There to lecture.
There to remind me of everything I wasn’t.
And maybe that’s the truth people don’t like to say out loud—
Parents don’t really know their children.
Not the real version.
Not the bleeding, breaking, buried parts.
You think you know me?
You think I just use my phone for nothing?
To waste time?
Because I’m lazy?
You said I have no dreams…
no goals to chase.
But did you know I applied for work—
and got rejected?
No.
You didn’t know.
Because you never asked.
You just assumed.
You just told me I’m picky with jobs I want.
You didn’t know the struggles I went through.
Didn’t see the nights I stayed up rewriting resumes.
Didn’t hear the silence after every “we regret to inform you.”
You blamed me for your suggestions when they failed.
Like it was my fault they didn’t work.
You blamed the outcome without seeing the effort.
You saw the tears—
but you didn’t ask why they were falling.
You think you know everything.
Well, you’re wrong.
Did you know I got bullied in school?
Yes, I told you—once.
And you said, “Just let them be.”
Let them bully me?
Really?
Is that what support looks like to you?
Did you know I cried myself to sleep most nights?
No.
Because I made sure to cry quietly.
Because every time I showed weakness,
I got blamed for it.
And now…
I have a heart that’s enlarged.
A real condition.
A heart that’s sick,
because I cried in silence for so long,
my body started breaking
before you even noticed I was hurting.
Support?
You say it’s love.
But love that hurts like this—
isn’t love.
So I’m asking—
no, begging:
Can you love your child without yapping, please?
Can you hug her…
just hug her…
without a sigh,
without complaints?
Because she’s tired.
Not just her body—
her soul is tired, too.
Seven letters.
But for me…
it still feels like a hundred.
Support is... doing it without hesitations. not with lots of words to say.