I don't wanna go into the land filled with castaways
The place is cold, long lost angels with their wings torn
Their screams ring in my ears
Their blessings lost into the heavens
I will find a way out of this mess, I will break through the silence
I will do everything in my power to expose the secrets
You can't do anything to me anymore

That's what I said before
Now I've come to an understanding
An understanding after the war
The war on my mind, body, and soul
Now you've taken control and my very being has taken its toll

Wait.. no, I-I will stop those who are in control
It's what I've been saying all this time
but tell me, why do I feel so different?
Has my soul become corrupted
or did a new door just open for my soul mission?
The blood is on the wall and the room is closing on me
It's getting dark, this isn't how it's supposed to be
I guess this is it
this is what true wickedness looks like

I've gone through hell and bled but I'm still here along with my spirit
and I vow to never ever submit
Not to those who sacrifice for profit
nor to those who are seen as infinite
For I am a misfit who illuminates those who are blinded by the wicked
and I am committed to raising the consciousness of humanity
forever and always, even if it takes an eternity.

A new thought floated around my head the other day
So I threw away what I thought was possible
and hid away into the depths of my mind
A place I once demonized

I just needed to realign myself, become a mastermind of my own mind
I went through hell and survived and now I'm alive
Just a new me and a new reason to be
No need to sacrifice that thing that was once apart of me

It's incredibly outstanding, the clarity of my vision is simply blasting
Words cannot even describe it
But it's certainly something.

I've been doing nothing but meat rotting at home
and I think I'm going to call it quits, and die alone
where I'll once again
Wake up to the great unknown.

I think I lost myself
I've been searching but I have no sense of self
I'm lost, I'm somewhere else
Somewhere far, far away
I'm trying my best to go on
But it's hard to see when you're in Babylon
Is that where I'm at? I'm losing my mind
and I need to be exercised

I reach out to feel for anyone, anyone there?
I've been victimized and there's no hope for me here
I try to push through and speak with god
but I hear no reply, my prayers are being ignored
Why have you done this to me oh dear lord?
is it because of the things I've been, the things I've seen?
I've spoken in tongues and for that, I die young

My identity, my purpose, my demons
I close my eyes to listen, I hear it
it's beautiful and it's nothing
But silence.

My eyes are open but all I can see is the dark
swimming around me like a bloodthirsty shark
its body heartless, its mouth endless
its entire existence without purpose
I'm frozen in fear, utterly speechless
it has a hold of me
I'm slowly losing my sanity
I try to break free but everything is hazy
it's all around me and begins consuming me
now I'm nothing more
then a memory.