It was like I was two people at the same time.
No one noticed me, no one ever listened.
But at the same time I was the one that couldn’t keep my mouth shut and I was liked by many.
I didn’t really know how to act. Should I scream or suffer in silence?

Stop taking my glances.
I swear they’re tearing me down.
I get caught in these trances,
And I lose more of myself.
I feel empty each time.
They aren’t just open chances
I hear the world’s whisper,
But I feel the heart’s scream.
Each pair of eyes are a sister.
I want a mind as clean as snow,
I want my heart to be someone’s home
But I fight these these feelings as my fists get blistered.

I'm trying not to ruin this for myself
So I scream on the inside
While I'm composed on the outside.

Maybe they won't leave this time
If I let the bugs crawl out from the back of my eyes.

Throughout the night
You ripped the comforter from me
Your memories tore me away from sleep

While I sleep
I remember how you pulled me
by my ankles as I kick and scream
The look on your face is
Something I will never unsee

I awake breathing heavily
I could have sworn you were here
He grabs my hand
“You were just having a nightmare”

Silent ringing
The screeches of dark
They pierce the mind
Shatter the sleep
Alone in thought
Only the screams emerge
They rattle and shake
Until all words dissolve
Standing alone
Waiting for sound
Nothing is left
Engulfed by the ground