I don't mind, I don't mind.
Tear out my nerves,
like pliant handfuls, of grass.
Cast them, into the dirt,
if it should please you.
I don't mind, I don't mind.
Rip out my heart,
and pulp it, in your gorgeous hands
until the juices flow,
from ruined fruit:

pomegranate red
as you eat, the seeds.

even though, deep down, i knew

smoking a single cigarette shouldn’t stain my soul with sin

but it does
but it did

drinking one, downing two, drowning three glasses of wine shouldn’t seem like satan’s communion

but it does
but it did

i thought i could get to know you, now that it shouldn’t hurt

but it does
but it did

you disappeared due to disease you didn’t think would **** you

but it did
but it did

"The one I dreamed of watching these beautiful views with,
is no longer here…
Life still goes on, everything is the same —
but that feeling is lost." 💔🌙




✍️ Usha Maniar☕

Mother, save your sorrow ‘cause the worst is yet to come,
Sorry that I’m fading, I can’t face another sun,
Mother, save your sorrow ‘cause the worst is yet to come,
I’ll be somewhere peaceful where the hurting’s finally done.

Can I be selfish for once?
Can i leave my friends because i cannot deal with fighting for them
When i am already fighting to survive
I want to be selfish
I want to cry in front of my girlfriend and have her hug me
I want to curl in a ball and go quiet wishes for touch
But i cant
If im selfish i will loose my best friend
So i will run myself into the ground
If im selfish i will lose you
#i want you
So i will breathe another day, for you
But one day it will get too much
And i wont fight for you
Because i didnt fight for myself

You can’t make someone love you,
Just like leaves don’t beg to fall,
Flowers won’t bloom in summer’s heat,
Nor beneath ice and snow,
Love, like seasons, comes and goes
A natural time we cannot own.

losing you feels like
being buried under rubble,
where shattered hopes
still linger in the dust
and the air is thick
with what once was.