Something is missing in our conversation.
Is it the trust that you lost in me?
Something has changed in our relation.
Don't you notice or don't you wanna see?

There was a spice before which is now gone.
The words now seems totally fake.
There was something that's why we used to cling to the phone.
Will you please tell me what's bothering you for God sake?

I know the fault was mine but see I came back.
Now all I want from you is to forgive me please.
The future of our relation seems totally black.
If you want I'll apologize by bending on my knees.

I know it's hard but could you please become the same?
I don't like this new & bad change in you.
I know it's not like some kid's game.
But the words between us seems very few.

These emotions run wild.
I feel them all to a numb.
They come to exist.
Then they break away to an unknown place.

I don't really know.
It's a confusing world of response.
Jumbled partly in my inner soul.

But i don't really know what the soul is.
Or its true intentions.
Its origin is even more of an enigma.

I was 19 and used to check my horoscope
Through the sites and without getting a telescope
Only to know what will happen to my life
Cause I could not text him to know if he is fine
Years have passed now, so much, quick and very fast
I'm much older and umm.. so hurt, more than the past
Lost and quite, no talks and fades
Laughing so fake, no calls or dates
Amen! I said "No more -men.."
Someone screamed :" There is always a wo-man"
I turned my head to the left
To make sure some love is left
Somewhere around in the darkness
Saw her beauty so flawless
Heard my heartbeats, even louder
Told her"love is like a thunder"
She said " oh I ...will remember"
I got my heart out of my chest
Suddenly saw her with a guest....

Are you holding my hand,

Just so that you don't fall?

Parents to take our responsibility
Siblings to carry our roller-coaster emotions
Friends to co-create the madness we are
Relatives to form our extended safety networks
Spouse to satiate our mental, physical and lonely desires
Kids to give us those safe & positive vibes for future
Influentials and celebrations to realize our existence

But how about having one nameless relation?
One that doesn't mandate responsibilities?
One that doesn't burden expectations?
One that is Fearless, Formless & Weightless?
One that is 'Carelessly Caring' ?

Love.! Love feels different all over the world, love is shown different all over the world; that’s just start depending by the family small interactions until to the personal final growth among the so called friends.  Now, looking back I finally realised I was so blind and every tear in front of my distracted face was a ‘cry for help to let me know that I’m badly losing you; baby girl I want to let you know that I’m so-sorry for making you feel diffident and I’m glad that you were there helping and supporting me everytime, beside that fact.  Even if those late-thoughts maybe will never make you change your mind, I’m still writing this down for both of us. Harmfully and insidious all the way, I destroyed your beautiful innocence and because of your enormously love for me, you let this...ungrateful child at that time, change your smile for eternity. Then, for sure the distance between us in the past time opened me a door to a totally new mindset with you as a mandatory focus point. It’s not about a second chance, I just feel like you are the chosen one and i don’t want to lose you because of my mistakes. As you can see, this time I’m hyper-aware regarding you, stuck on this idea and I will go for it until I’ll be able to make you see that there is us, two independent people making a deal that they will help make other person the best and happiest version of themselves.