Imagine
Imagine being forced
To think about
Every single thing
Every single
terror
and
horror.
Imagine
Imagine having something
Inside of you that you can’t
run
away
from.
Imagine wondering how
Those around you
Fail to notice
How close you are
to
collapse.
Imagine
Imagine plastering
A smile
On
Your face
So you don’t have to
Let people see the true
Cracks
in
your
skin.
Imagine
Imagine having your fears
Taking such a
Hold of you
That you no longer
recognize
happiness.
Imagine
Imagine feeling abnormal
Like an
alien
in your
own world.
Fear
Fear going outside
Into the daylight
Imagine
For one
Second
How you would feel
if.
every.
single.
thing.
around.
you.
had the possibility
of
terrifying
you.
Imagine
Fear
Fear getting into
Your
Car.
You can’t run
away
from
The images
Of the people you
Might ****
the crashes
You might cause
A week
Later.
A month
Later.
The images are still
with
you.
The sight of your
Car
Sends a signal
To that thing inside of you
To open the gates of
Your own hell
Could you **** someone
today?
What if
What if you don’t
See that car turning
Because your thoughts
Won’t let go of the
fear
of
that
happening.
You would never
In a million
years
Voluntarily hurt
someone
That is the perfect
sustenance
for anxiety.
Turning you into a monster
Inside your own head
Imagine
Imagine having to get
In your car and
Smile at your
passenger
as
though
nothing. Is. wrong.
They don’t see
Your
Knuckles
Turn white
As you grip
The steering wheel
They miss your
Face harden into
A perfected mask
Of indifference
While your thoughts
Are searing the
Inside of your skull
racing
a million
miles
a minute.
They don’t know
That all you want
To do is crawl inside
yourself
And sleep forever
They can’t imagine
The terror of
Fearing the one thing
That you can’t
Run away from
Imagine being trapped
In your own mind.
This poem was designed to emulate the racing thoughts that happen when having an anxiety attack, coming from a person who suffers from an anxiety disorder.
