Keep on being a ******* idiot
Lie to yourself
Tell yourself that you're beautiful
Tell yourself that you're smart
Tell yourself that you're happy
Anything that you think does not matter
It's what everyone else thinks that shapes you
If they call you stupid
You're stupid
If they say you're hideous
You're hideous
Your "positive attitude" won't get you anywhere
It's not magic
Keep on lying to yourself see where that gets you

There is no worse feeling
Then when you know everything is going to ****
Then someone comes along and tells you "everything's gonna be alright"
Is someone important to me dead?
No
Financial issues?
Not really
But this constant feeling of being alone
Is like a **** plague
It feeds off the rest of me trying to live
Killing me bit by bit
Taking everything I love away from me
Mentally and emotionally
Can't pick up a camera, all your pictures are ****
**** that pencil, you can't draw
***** your dreams, welcome to reality
Where everything is work work work
Until you quit quit quit
The realest thing in the world
Is you and your pathetic self

There’ll never be a day,
You look through my windows,
As I’ll never see through yours.
But I do love surprises.


                                             «c.h.b.»

"Candy is dandy,
And liquor is quicker,
But fame is quickest."
Said the pessimist.

Lied about his characteristics
as well as forgot about being an optimist


Forcing him to cut his long nails
Preventing him from wearing high heels
Lips are cracking due to beating
While eyes are slowly begging


His legs are trembling
As for he heard his father screaming
Big paddles are now on the way
“Everyone leave, and you stay.”


He bend down his knees and beg for mercy
People outside are listening for this another controversy

This could be a nightmare with no escape
And his body who lost it's own shape
Fed up with harsh judgements of society
While people don't even give sympathy


Cannot even speak louder
While crying in front of his mother


Afraid of what would be his fate
Thinking that it is too late
To stand up and fight
In his own battle to find the light

they told me that
i am a pessimist
that i should wear
my positive hat
and not think of malice.

i am very sure that
every pessimist
were once an optimist.

they went through
things that made them
lose hope
and lose their courage
to bravely trust and believe
again.

from the tiniest bit of betrayal
to the biggest act of treason.

i believe no one is born a pessimist.
they were all once, optimists.

hope may be a superficial belief
but it's not as fake as you think it is.