Abilify
you seemed to amplify
the monster inside me
Vivid dreams
of a devil in the driver seat,
Mirrored back
in my rearview,
on the way to a crime scene
in my mind
where one of our sisters
was given plastic surgery
via shotgun
A crackling static
tears through my brain
and takes me
to the Ideation of
self-inflicted martyrdom
Idealized death
put on a pedestal
hanging
in a basement
Of the subconscious
Until I wake up and suffer
I've
Had enough of
the akathisia
I can’t ******* sit still
I feel like
my heart is going to beat out of me
When I’m already light-headed
I see me from outside me
Depersonalized!
this blood is poisoned
with restless impulses
I can’t fight
or flight
just freeze
and pulsate
an S.O.S.
to the telegraph
at the other
end of this the
other half of
This sorry soul:
*If pain is a void
I can feel you missing
Where the doctor
Filled the hole
With prescriptions.
Will you hold me,
hold me,
until these looping
distress calls
cease?
**** Abilify
