If only you knew what's going on this side,
It's so much more than stepping away,
Falling out of love,
Poison, my love.  

Forever, we said we'd stay together,  
Your warmth, is all I can remember.  
We spent every day with each other,  
Why did you leave me alone?

How we talked about life,
Not even words are coherent with your feelings now.
Perhaps our someday,
Was simply a code for never.  

How easily did you walk away,  
Strangely everything is gone.
I can only feel the chill in the air,
My cold heart,
No longer beats to keep me alive.  

I cannot read my name on your lips,
I cannot sense my warmth in your hugs,
Words, empty words, my love,
Delusional, viscous love.

You fell out of it,
While I still stay,
That's the tale, my love,  
A painful fairy tale.  

-Ikigai Poet

" why did you stop smiling?"

"The reason behind my smiles,
Has already left,
Therefore,
There is nothing for me to smile again"

When becoming happy feels like Nostalgia,
When there were good old days  
And now the present seems so boring.  
That's when you know you're going down.

What a feeling it is  
When you can feel bees buzzing inside your chest
And feel the stomach turning to stone
Your heart no more beats with an intention to keep you alive.  
That's when you know you're hollow
That's when you know you're going down.  

What a feeling it is
When you spend the whole day sitting  
And staring outside the window,
When you go to bed every night for sleeping  
But your eyes are wide awake.
That's when you know you're alone
That's when you know you're going down.  

- Ikigai Poet

we loved,
and kisses were butterflies,
hugs were butter on toast,
and sunshine was food to the soul
as we loved and was loved the most.
we lived,
and years were but mere moments,
lives were just as opaque as mist,
as seconds lasted morbidly slow eternities,
passing the bits of memories we missed.
we left,
too early for man to heal,
footsteps so light, without simple sound,
lived years of love and pain away,
making me think, "were you even around?"

My friends asked me
Who is that guy?
Is he your boyfriend?
You always go out with him?

And all I can say is.
We are just friends.

Obviously it seem like a lie
But it's the sad truth
There was nothing more between us.

My workmates asked me
Do you have a boyfriend?
Who is that guy in your phone?
He's your boyfriend right?

And it pains me to say
He's just a friend

Every single time
With tears in my eyes
With the stinging pain feeling to say it out
We were just friends
Or used to be at least.