yearning
is a silly
foreign thing
when you
haven't wanted
anything
in ages

look at me
so full
of wishes
yet laid bare
of hope

never
did i learn
to want
what i
did not
deserve

never
did i dare
to reach
for the moon
when all
i did
was stare at it
from down here

i cannot
blame myself
for never
learning
or daring
because
why should i
when
i should have known
the moon
was unattainable
in the first place

i'd like to say i'm losing hope
but that's not true
i'll always keep hoping
so it'll hurt forever

Someday
I hope to not be trapped in a hell that I call my own
Maybe I will be happy and not feel so lonely
But happiness is what I pursue
If I finally obtain it
What is there to chase after?
What is there to spur me on?
Someday
I hope to be somewhere good
With nothing but the things I need
And everything is just perfect
In my own little world
But what if that version of Someday
Doesn't exist
And I am only left with a bad taste on my lips
Wishing that I had never thought of Someday
Of a world that is better than ours
With no pain
No suffering
And no wishing that you could die
Sadly I think Someday
Will only ever exist in my mind
A place of war
And heartache
People and their wavering lies
I'm sorry that I told you of Someday
A place so perfect
That it will never exist
I'm sorry that if for a moment
I gave you the smallest glimmer of hope
That one day
You could find this Someday
And everything would be fine
That all is good in the this small world
That I'll just call Someday

I know I might be the one
I just wanna give you some fun
A chance to have it all
Before we part in fall

So let's give it a whirl
Make you a happy girl
So much I've never known
Never experienced this on my own

So, stop leading me on
If the chance I had is gone
You send such mixed vibes
Should I send silence or send bribes

We're bestfriends, of course, no doubt
But the level is what I wonder about
Are you asking for your hand
Or seeking a friend - high in demand

My desperation is great
I'm scared I'll ***** up our fate
Longing for more than what's meant
'Stead of the friendship on which we're bent

Still look at me the same
And smile when you say my name
I know when that smile hits your face
You're the reason my heart starts to race

In my head I've perfected
And the scenes I've directed
But in real life I struggle
Cause your heart I can't smuggle

So make up your mind now or tomorrow
End my self doubt, end my self sorrow
All I ask is you give me a chance
So come this time, in your heart so we can dance.

I looked outside tonight & thought of you.
The moon was so big & bright.
The stars Oh, what a beautiful sight!
I love you to the moon & back.

After everything that happened today,
I knew a hug from you would make it all good
But you are gone so far away.
I love you to the moon & back.

Today was a big day.
Everything went according to plan.
I wish you could have seen it.
I love you to the moon & back.

What a wonderful conversation!
We texted for hours last night.
For once I felt like my heart was whole.
I love you to the moon & back.

Tonight I told you about all of those nights
That I looked up thinking of you.
Were you thinking of me too?
I love you to the moon & back.

I've always been asked about it.
"Why are you so into the night sky?"
I wonder if anyone will ever understand.
I love you to the moon & back.

Next 5 months is my birthday.
I wish you could be there.
I will be looking up. Will you?
I love you to the moon & back.

Whenever everything is coming to an end,
I know you are going to be here for me.
Do you know how happy I am to have you?
I love you to the moon & back.

For every day we've been apart, there is a moon.
For every day we will be together, there is a star.
There will always be more stars than moons.
I love you to the moon & back.

with my silent ways,
i will love you.

i'll be whispering
your name in
my prayers;

i'll be talking  to
the moon about you;

and i'll be wishing
to every star tonight
for you.

I'm still hoping for you to come back