We sat in the back because all of this was new to us
There was a lot of people but the room was somehow still hushed
People kept entering from different sides of the room
We all stay quiet and hushed but you can still hear the cars outside going zoom
We don't know the real reason as to why we decided to come here
But honestly I think we are always searching for distractions to cover up our fears
We've done a lot bad but not a whole lot of good
But we keep living life hoping that one day we'll be understood
We've smoked this and drank that but it's getting kind of old
And we've grown into a habit of doing the opposite of what we're told
We've been wanting to end all this pain and depression for awhile
But at the end of each day we still somehow find a reason to still smile
The people around us think we are pretty confident and tough
But little do they know that we are on the verge of giving up
But we continue to keep living this lie because the one thing we're not is selfish
So we keep living our life for the sake of the people around us even though deep down we feel helpless
But we don't wanna hurt the people around us , we'd just rather hurt ourselves
So we'll just keep pretending that we're happy, even though deep down we're just empty shelves

You see me smile

and you think I'm happy.

But I haven't been in a while

and hopefully you can know it's you.

You think I'm no longer sane

but you shuld know

that my smile holds pain.

Every time I close my eyes,
I think of all the times I had to hide.
And every time I see you smile,
I wonder why you didn't stay for awhile.
And I'll try to hold back my tears,
I'll try to help you through you fears.
But just know, inside I'm dying,
And I hate the fact I'm always lying.
I don't think I can do this anymore,
I tried so **** hard to close the door.
Some how you always find your way back in,
I'm never able to speak, but forced to listen.
I stay silent, for what seems like ages,
Forced to write my unspoken thoughts on empty pages.
Hoping one day I can finally open up to you,
These are the things I so badly wish you knew.

Everywhere I look these things exist
No matter where you are these things persist
Hardly ever noticed and sometimes taken for granted
But in very few places are they an antic
They don’t squeeze they don’t bind
If you are confined by one you are fine
Everyone has one believe it or not
But you and I are different because we do not
While they are stuck with nowhere to go
We are free and can only grow
With no limits we are freer than free
And because of this difference we are happy as can be

she passed by time,
he said
and in that moment
i realized
i wanted
wanted wanted
to pass by time as well
hopefully as gracefully
as she did

I see your body
pale white against the night sky
like a luminescence cast from the moon
calm yourself down
and tell your tide to come back
to shore

I've seen you punch wine bottles
until you’re so drunk off your own fist
you can’t see straight
from the stars in your eyes
hoping for a chance
or a shot
or an expectation

I would expect no less
from someone as hopefully hopeless
because when I look at you
I see myself
in the clear lines that run
from your eyes
and stain your cheeks

I wish someone could sail up your river
slam the gate, break the gears
and close up your dam
It’s a ******* shame
your eyes are starting
to only shine from the water lines

Don’t drown in your own sky
Tell your tide to come back to shore
I’m sure you will find
your way

I only wish you could feel how I feel inside my heart and just know how I think ......
I miss you terribly and hope one day our paths will cross again....