soft as snow—
she kissed me,
with a heat to melt
the world twice over.

pour
clink
down
repeat.

maybe
this time
you can take
the heat.

actually,
probably not,
prepare for
defeat.

you were my summer heat,
wanted to be around you every day,
the music sounded on beat,
sunshine is waving like a ray,
but we couldn't be together in broad day
I am what you never looked for,
was I wrong to seek for more?
the feeling of loss spread around,
forever I am the cold that was never found,
coldly, I felt our chains set ablaze and I see,
winter came at last but you never liked me.

(read the first word of every sentence, from top to bottom)

I stumbled through the haze,
my feet searing with each step.
I couldn’t collapse
or I’d lose my skin,

Mumbles, from women dressed heavy,
“Looks like the bear got her…”
What bear?
Why didn’t the buildings cast a shadow?

No more sun. That’s all I beg,
no more greetings of warm smiles
with “She sure is a-beaming!”
flooding the desert.

The barn was up in flames.
I reach my hands out to the red
and feel a chill roll by me,
with fire giving me the shade I needed.

Lizards roasted in their pools,
horses sweat off saddles,
and here I meander all through town
practicing for my time down below.

In a gloomy grey world
I'm looming around, a ghost, why?
A parasite out for paradise
From one host to another
One monochrome form to other
I saw you, the only being in colours
Burning vivid n' vibrant
but your flames weren't violent
Violet hot folded over themselves
Like a shell made of hugs
Glowing ball of sass and light
Tugging at my version of reality.

Surrounded by darkness yet
Untouched by it
Blemished and pure
You mourn but the glow never fades
My light in pitch black is back again
My Northern Star, I'm drunk to your shine
Blood pours like sweat. Still I welcome it, your voice sweetens the bitter pain
A bane for the my evil brain
You put on the veil of persistence
A single standing resistance
unmatched strength to beat all odds
Now I'm sure in the existence of God

I'm the bonfire in the barren land
To be rested with but no one stays
Yet you hugged the flames unflinching
Carried the cinder with you in a sinful act of kindness

The scary world gave scars and lies
Made a monster out of innocence
You brought out the incense of humanity again and didn't care for the rotten core or the blood flies

It is said that everything is fated
If everything I hated about me
Everything despised about life
Was to bring me to you
Good bad... I'll go through it again
And hundreds times worse
I can't bind you in words
No verse is strong enough

Still
No matter what
Till the matter of this universe is dust
I'll be by your side and if anything
Or any being is hoping otherwise
...Can have the bird

Even if I can't be the part of your world
It's too bright for my eyes
I'll be that silent darkened corner of solitude You return to
when the world gets too loud

It's a bit selfish
that this empty shell follows you around
Hangs about just to feel more than dust
But trust this
Who is always in cross with reality
Me and my reality don't get along
Death is bored of me
sanity can't be bothered anymore
But there's one thing we'll all agree on
Me with my every good bad part and pore sandwiched between
I'll follow you to the tops of ivory towers till I can barely breathe
Then leap off doing a flip
to the depth of the deepest circle of hell
without a second thought

In a throne of thorns and lies one truth blooms
No bad is too bad
I'm greatful to share any and all moment with you
I'm greatful that you exist