Tick tok tickles the clock
Cricket sound was reverberating in my mind
I can feel my soul being soaked
In my own sweat
This gives me such collywobbles
Im still putting my feelings into words
Yet Im torn between sending or keeping it
What will I do?
"****, Im gonna send this",
I finally utter.
"I have a deep regard for you."
Sent 11:48pm
I broke into tears because of this nervousness in me.
I let a deep sigh out.
Seen 11:50pm was all I can see on the screen
No typing.
No reply.
Nothing.

I ruined everything
Everything that we had
I broke your heart
And threw it in the trash

I can't remember why
And that leaves me feeling sad
A year has gone by
And even now I'm feeling bad.

What's stopping you from doing what you're aiming for?➳
Who keeps closing the door?
Have you ever tried with all your will,
Then found yourself completely still?
Is it lack of money?
Or is my life so sad, it's funny?
Are you running out of time?
Or have you simply lost your mind?
- Who's stopping you from getting your **** done?
-But then you hear the music, and realize it's time to have a little fun.*☮
© Brittney Hibbert 2016

The voices in my head
They speak all the time
I know them all so well
They complain, they whine
Yet amongst the sneaky *******
I know not, Which ones mine

why do you follow me?
watch everything I do?
Why do you read me
when you have the wrong book?
Why do you vow to destroy me,
but ignore me the entire day?
Why do you pass me by
look me in the eyes,
but say no words.
Is this your plan?
Its working.
its working
but may I say
leave me alone
If you don't want anything to do with me,
than stop pretending like you do.

Okay, here it is.
You drive me crazy.
Some nights I want you to just kiss me already.
And then other days, I want to strangle you.

And then you smile at me like I'm the reason you're happy.
Then you go and make her feel that way too.

You say something mean
And later tell me you are interested in me.

Say it doesn't matter,
Say the opposite.
And then "What do you want?" You ask me. "Is it me?"

But I don't even know who you are.

4/19/16

Maybe the reason I've been offline so often
is not because I'm trying to start a life but,
because it reminds me that you and I are dying out.