you do not know
   i hear you singing
you dream a dream
   and i am there
i see our hearts combined
   and the fear but air
call the clouds a heaven
   i see our destiny
love is life forgiven
   a soul is you and me

I loathe you
Even moreso, I loathe that I loathe you
Love is what you need, love from me
Why can't I give you that which you seek?
Just a little love would help you climb that peak
I know your heart is well-meaning
I know your past is behind you
I know those chains were broken and that little love-
That little bit of love would let you leave them behind.
So why is it that I can't love you?
Why do I have trouble forgiving you?
God forgave you as He forgives me
So why do I wish for you to suffer?
I look upon you every day and see your eyes filled with pain
Upon that fallen countenance, I gaze with great disdain
I see you're trying and I'm cheering
But even as I cheer, I know I hold you back
There's one final question I must ask of thee
I ask it every day, and I know I'll ask it again before you die...
...why must you be me?

After his exit from my heart and my life
No contact no text nothing from his side
Suddenly met him after so long
My heart skipped a beat when I hugged him a long
My hands trembled when I held his hand and looked into his eyes
I got frozen when I looked him just tears rolled down from my moist eyes
Heart asked; so what did you come back with
I replied; his fragrance in me

I want to be forgiven;
I don't even know for what
and I don't really care
by who
I just want to be
forgiven

I know I've sinned,
But I know he forgives me,
I know I've let down,
But I know he will lead me,
I know I've been blinded by my own desires,
But I know he knows what those desires are and is at work in my heart,
I know I've been tempted,
But he led me away from temptation back towards trust,
I know I have not forgiven those who harmed me,
But today is a new day so I can forgive, and try again to do better under the sunlight of his brand new day.