Before I die I want to learn
to live in the moment
this very moment

I want to feel every breath

If the sun is shining I want
to let it go through me
enlivening every cell

If it rains I want to try
to count the droplets
and
sense the life in them

I want to learn to replace worry
with wonder
and
regret with wisdom

letting go of past traumas
real or imagined

I want to learn who I am
and
how to be true to that

I want to learn
my strengths
to forgive my shortcomings
to absolutely know myself

I want to learn a thousand-thousand
new words

I want to learn to fly
if only
in my dreams

before I die
I want to learn to live!

Forgive me, but I need to get away from all this before it damages me again.

I always forgive you.
Over and over again, I cry.
I don't know what else to do.
To me, you're the only guy.

But to you, I'm not the only one.
Why do I keep coming back?
You have no idea what you've done.
Forgetting is something I lack.

I will forever remember,
The way you said my name.
But looking back, I don't think you were sober.
You don't think about it the same.

Don't be so bitter last love of mine
It wasn't a lie or a waste of time
You taught me much about who I am
And more about who I am not
I am no *****, no criminal, no thot
But I am worthy of love and lust and touch
You taught me to be gracious and grateful and kind
You taught me to love someone like me
That wasn't you now I can see
But it's not like it wasn't meant to be
So don't be bitter last love of mine
Time will mend you have her and I have wine
Speak ill as you will I can't stop what you do
But I have learnt to forgive
and so should you