You enter my mind As if you always belonged And filth my thoughts pretending to be kind It was forever ago and I have to move beyond But what you did is everlasting Stained my soul with hate But I am not collapsing You were not my fate Just a speed bump along the way.
my fingers are leaden my hands are sore i never would have thought before that you'd bring me so low that there'd be no room to grow
my nails have been chewed to stubs my stomach sinks to my feet i finally admit defeat you broke my heart i wish I can go back to the start and not press send or call you back prevent each and every panic attack
my brain tells me no and my heart aches for you but you never believed it would be us two you chose another caused cracks to form under my skin i never should have let you in
i crumpled like paper my skin white as snow now i know i was right to let you go i never held on i just released you've left some pages of my life creased
it burned to breathe my lungs were on fire you dug my heart out with dull wire it took so long to beat again i wondered if i could take this pain so all i could do was try to break the chains
things have begun to change another came along i have a new tune to my song why are these things always so scary? it means i'll never stop being wary time for me to be brave
he has to pick up my broken shards scattered here and there i wasn't sure if he would care once things went wrong it seems that we belong i wouldn't have read that in the cards
i'm only scared he cuts himself trying to fix me and he no longer will want the key that stops me pulling back that keeps me on track because i am not worth it
This was written when I was closest to my lowest of lows and I edited it when things got better. I edited it again as things grew worse, but they've finally begun to level out. Sad thing is, some insecurities apparently never die...
Years have rushed by since the time you hurt me And I want you to know that when I think of you, I do think of you as the storm who did nothing good but destroy its precious surroundings. You are no longer pinned in my mind rather, you are out of my mind And I do remember you as someone who broke me rather than loved me.
This poem is about another poem I wrote here with no title. its kind of continuing that poem of my feelings now, 4 years later.
You said the pills would make me better and I guess they really did - because I can't seem to cry at all but I cannot seem to live the pills took a piece of me - something I just might want back the pills took a piece of me that something I now lack -
I have been made sane, - but the pill is all to blame