There's always a depth to familiarity
That has the mind at it's
Beck and call
Just a scent and the mind is
Overwhelmed with history
Spinning
Spinning spinning
Release
A rush of emotions spill
In consistency with the nerve synapses
Connecting
Nostalgic or regretful,
Content or melancholy;
Always a constant reminder
Of the difference you can
Never return to.

I must have loved you
in another life
because when I see you
when I hear you
when I hold you
it feels like coming home.
I only feel like myself around you.
When my hand is in yours
it's familiar and safe,
like I've known your soul
since the beginning of time,
through every life I've lived
and all the lives I have yet to experience.
Maybe that's why
my love for you
is infinite.

Realize there will come a day
Whether it is a day
A week
A month
Or year
That it's only a matter of time
Til I snap
Finally leave here

It is inevitable but knowing that
Does not change how much I care
It's not worth it anymore
Too deeply broken to repair

I have tried everything I can think of
It seems to be our time to end
Tried to resurrect our love
It refused to fully mend

I have spoken ten thousand words
Must learn to accept and endure
Take from open forgiving hands
Drained empty of all that's good and pure

It hurts to see us work hard
To fall after giving our all
In your heart drugs badly hold a special place
Heed to their nightly call

Your arms slipping off my hips
Grab the high you'll never reach
Regret neglect when I'm gone
At the time hate hearing me preach

It is exactly how described
You wanted it back in your brain
If its what makes you the best
Important to avoiding the shame

You will find a new way to **** your time
To distract from the awful truth
If not you will be forced to live in memories
An excuse to be caged in ignorant youth

You dig an early grave
Worn out
Burnt up
Feeling dead
It takes all motivation
To lie around for days in bed

Somewhere between give and take
Took your time and took your heart
Taking for granted the pictures we've taken
Cannot take much more before I depart

I find my familiar resolve weakening
You know it doesn't take much
Wish I could resist your magic
I'm not immune to your touch

I have accepted we'll never see eye-to-eye
Would give up all possessions to do that though
We both know that's not a lot
What would that even show?

And I'm slowly pushed away
All I long for is to be close
Why do I feel so unwanted
By one I love the most?