Realize there will come a day
Whether it is a day
A week
A month
Or year
That it's only a matter of time
Til I snap
Finally leave here

It is inevitable but knowing that
Does not change how much I care
It's not worth it anymore
Too deeply broken to repair

I have tried everything I can think of
It seems to be our time to end
Tried to resurrect our love
It refused to fully mend

I have spoken ten thousand words
Must learn to accept and endure
Take from open forgiving hands
Drained empty of all that's good and pure

It hurts to see us work hard
To fall after giving our all
In your heart drugs badly hold a special place
Heed to their nightly call

Your arms slipping off my hips
Grab the high you'll never reach
Regret neglect when I'm gone
At the time hate hearing me preach

It is exactly how described
You wanted it back in your brain
If its what makes you the best
Important to avoiding the shame

You will find a new way to **** your time
To distract from the awful truth
If not you will be forced to live in memories
An excuse to be caged in ignorant youth

You dig an early grave
Worn out
Burnt up
Feeling dead
It takes all motivation
To lie around for days in bed

Somewhere between give and take
Took your time and took your heart
Taking for granted the pictures we've taken
Cannot take much more before I depart

I find my familiar resolve weakening
You know it doesn't take much
Wish I could resist your magic
I'm not immune to your touch

I have accepted we'll never see eye-to-eye
Would give up all possessions to do that though
We both know that's not a lot
What would that even show?

And I'm slowly pushed away
All I long for is to be close
Why do I feel so unwanted
By one I love the most?

"There's this dance
That I've memorised"
Whispers a voice by my side
Pulling me along
Twirling me to her foreside

"Should I show you it?"
Fingers smoothing
The crease between my brows,
Fingers tracing my cheek
Down to my hand

Eyes closed, she pulls me forward
Steps not unfamiliar,
"~~~"
~~~

The warmth on my skin
Slowly fades, no more than
A distant memory

"Of course,

The words echo in my ears
Dimming to a loud buzz

Wavering,
"Thank you for the dance."

Home sweet home
Where I can sit on my ***
With no need to roam
And no need to ask
Or research
What to do next
A good sesh of nothing
Sounds like the best
With no need to worry
About where to eat dinner
And when to meet friends
Order in trusty take out
Throw the kids in bed
Time to binge on light shows
Then sleep like the dead

NCL August 2019

I need a sense of familiarity
One that could anchor my body to the ground
'cause things have been strange lately
And lately the faces and places register as strangers in my brain

Only the voices retained their familiarity,
convinced me that they are the only one to trust
'cause anyone that can hold me easily
Can let go just as fast

When love arrives,
It arrives only to leave again.
Coming back to another again.
Another time,
Another arrival.
The same streets once laughed and grinned in.
When love arrives,
It arrives as that familiar face
Strolling down the street without a care in the world.
A personality in the wind mutual to which steps to take.

When love arrives,
It arrives with a certain taste.
The first slice of readily made pizza.
Made hot, fresh.
Pepperonis covered in cheese.
Knowing it's favorite place, love.
It's soon to leave until the urge returns.

The pizzeria tucked in the corner.
The pizzeria no one knows about.
The pizzeria that can be found in each and every city.

When love arrives no matter how many times it leaves.
No matter how good the taste,
It is never really gone