I cry for my heart and for that, I am to blame.
I cry for my heart as it reshatters into a million sweet pieces every time I see the letters of your name.
I weep as my heart pumps poison to my veins and honey to my brain so my body feels the aches and my mind feels delighted.

You've loved another and I'm aware.
while I'm here picking up pieces of me and pieces of my pride,
you're out there, flirting with a date.

That's not fate.

Fate was you and I.
fate IS you and I.
And I know that you know this,
that's why I cry.
Don't you know this?

I'm insane? Define sanity.
If sanity is condemning my unquantifiable love for you and deeming it ephemeral then by God I'd rather be insane.
You are the heart of my heart, you are the mind of my mind, you are my sanity.
You are my prize, my precious,
my torment and the reason of my soul's demise.

And now look at me, what's left of me?
A mere leaf falling from a tree,
The tree that was my balance.
And now I'm shaking cold, old and frostbitten like an unwanted unwelcome cold December night while you roam like spring, blossoming and joyful.

What you've done is cruel.

My greatest fear is not losing you, it is losing myself after your departure.
My greatest fear is that this heart would fall to a disease it can never recover from when the cruel frost reaches my core.
I'm afraid I'm losing the ability to love.

I'm cold. A chill in the air.
Wood fire dwindling to smolders.
Ash crisped cinders to share.
Cotton between our shoulders.
That endearing musk of burnt wood.

A soft kiss on your cheek.
My arm wrapped round you.
I whisper in your ear
those words I do love to speak.

"I'll distract you not from the beauty of this world,
nor the loves you've counted.
I'll never let you waver from your hearts dream.
Stay true - look up ahead and mine will be seen."

This faint light up ahead.
It flickers and dances.
Clawing and bubbling to break.
Daylight will be upon us, no chances.
Don't blink or you'll miss this.
The birth of life - light years away.
An explosion of color flooding the sky.
Life inspiring feeling - opposite to grey.
Rain of warm power filling my voids.

A dream born anew each day.
A love found in you.
Explored in every single way.
A never ending gift.
If only we're awake.

Just then as it broke.
Did you feel it?
I felt yours and you mine.
Our hopes and dreams become one.
A valley of trust now glowing.
Warm tones red through yellow.
Delivered by the morning saint.
My dream revealed.
Endless passion only the sun could paint.

Infinitely branded beaten and betrothed. Infinitely Lingering loved and lothed.

Infinitely beautiful staring into those eyes. Now more than ever Ive seen it without disguise.
Infinitely taken back. My maze of thoughts. Swimming to a swirl.
My inky sorrow to match your liner.
Eyes of pain and beauty the way you've drawn them.
Did you do this just for me.
Knowing that I will see.
A deadly stare, one that grips me tight.
Impossible to let her go
this struggle is in-fin-ite.
Infinitely distant, how did you get so high.
Up there with poise where only birds can fly.
I've enjoyed this tease. This view of couple.
Two strands of hair that play in your face.
They look like imperfection but to me it's been pure grace.

This is hard this really never was the plan.
Now you're Infinitely lost in another man.

I've written one or two just for you.
A feeling turned thought.
Add it to the pool.
Chaos for a swim.
Cancerous muddy ink of mind.
Maimed and ugly - it's mine.


I have a thought that defines you so clearly.
Tighten all my vowels and trim the fat.
Only...
You've come back to me like this stray cat.
Your a thought unsatisfied unfulfilled unfinished.
I had chipped and chipped away.
You're unblemished.
Forever swirling in my ink.
Done with you never.
Is what I'm starting to think.

I've yet to forget your presence.
How wonderful you made me feel.
How alive you made me feel.
You lit a fire inside of me.
A fire that has yet to die.
I cannot bare the thoughts.
The endless memories trapped inside me.
You've captured me.
You are the worst addiction.
I cannot bare this feeling.
Endless feelings.
You've left me here.
No care in the world.
You've left me here alone.
You knew what it'd do to me.

You knew.

A.F.

Tiredness is overwhelming,
The distress is stringing,
Thoughts expressionless,
Though my writings are endless.

~A.d | 16 Dec 2014

Love covers all fault

It touches a wicked soul

Pure love captures the heart

Trials endure through endless love

For you are the one that leaves a mark

into my wounded pierce of heart

Letters are sweet whisper

The confessions of sincere lover

You are the tickle sensation

You leap my heart’s inspiration

The way your hands fit so well across the small of my back
The way you glance at me from the bottom of the bed
The way that sometimes it felt like we were the only two people that existed in the world

I miss the way we were

Dance with me
Play music with me
Talk to me
Laugh with me always

Let that never stop...

Our friendship is forever
Our love is pure
I miss the going to bed laughing with you at night
And waking up with you in the morning
The confidence you have in me
Our attachment to one another

I miss the way we were

I love the way we are
Always