Whenever I try to figure out what went wrong,
that one person comes to mind Saying "don't you think its all in your mind"
That one sentence gets me thinking, breaking, hating!!
I hate myself!!
Maybe i did this to myself!
Made it worst that what it was
distorted my memories to make me hate me!
where did it all go wrong?
what did i do wrong?
I just remember being me...
Then they broke me, they played me, made me believe that being me was wrong and laughed after it all.
Cause maybe it was funny, Being me!
So now i don't know what to think!!
I don't know what to feel?
Because for as much as i know, as she said, it could be all in my head.
I hate me!!
Those vile smiles, I still see them so clearly
Those unpleasant words, I still heard them so loudly,
I remember looking up at them, smiling, Hurting, Believing, hating me!
That young me!!
Smiling and laughing as they did, Knowing they hated me!
But what could i have done?
What should i have believed?
Who should I have believed in?
When the tell me thats me?
Was it my fault that i was different?
I didn't ask to be!
Now how can i be "ME"?
For years One day at a time I've grown to believe the things they said to me.
When they told me who i am and who i should be! I didn't yet think of who i was or who i wanted to be!
But everyone seemed to think the same things about me!
I'm sorry that I'm me!
