It's unbearable to hear the blind speak of light
Or the dead teaching the dead how to live
And liars affirming liars with yet more lies
But alas inescapable is this babelic cacophony
I run, far into the wilderness, but woe upon me clings
Thus I close my eyes, shut my ears, seal my tongue
Wrap myself in the dark depths of desolation
And like the dead, slip into the silence of the void

The embers of the past,
A lament that stirs my soul.
Time did fly—
Flowers withered,
Seasons shifted,
The last leaf fell,
But I remained.

Pinned to this barren land,
Nailed through my skin,
The wound that never heals,
Bleeding with every thought—
A weight that yearns to move on,
But still, I stay,
Stuck in the echoes of the past.

The illusion of healing,
Just a mirage in the desert of my heart.

It’s the tranquility
I longed to be drowned in,
Even if I suffocate,
I’d know it leapt from what I’d become—
A monster to myself.

Even if I drown in desolation,
There’s still life in the stillness,
The quiet joy in my plea,
A glimpse of what I could have been,
If only I had not been my own monster.

But even monsters can unlearn,
Can find grace in their scars,
So I'll rise from the silence,
With whispers of who I’ll become.

Long awaits the dream,
Of what could cost the beauty, the life,
Drowned in the weight of endless what ifs.
What if I fall?
But the sky, it whispered—
Darling, what if you flew?

A tremor through my soul,
A repent that’s born of silence—
I am nothing but a rainfall,
Bound to fall,
Shaken by the wind's cruel caress,
Drowned in my own desolation,
Yet somehow still alive in this ache,
Like rain that clings to the earth,
But never stays.

The Moon hung low in the sky
like the tarnished reflection
of my soul on that night .
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A night spent rambling
down lonely streets of
derelict dream houses ,
with forbidding peaked
rooves ,
stretching high into the
gloomy dark like knives .
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Now and then ,
a sound made by something unknown ,
would drift on the dank air
or round some
threatening corner .
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Was there faint stirring
of grey curtain in a window ,
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A muffled cry behind
peeling paint of bolted door ,
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A soft voice sighing ,
straining against the wind to be heard ,
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But then , no-one was there .

When dreams make the
shadow of their evil real ,
then walk the sodden path
of forgetfulness .
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Forgetting of all life , love
and tenderness of human
touch .
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Vanquished , youth's idyll
lay bound in silken chains of regret .
Blinded eyes plucked out ,
lay on a silver tray at his
side .
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Discarded and unloved .
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Like a meagre meal
in poverty's room ,
the soul is dissected and
eaten piecemeal by devils .
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While in dead of night
or blazing sun of noon ,
the stench of rotting dreams
shrouds Eternity over those deadened eyes .

Alone

It Feels More Than It Really Is,

Desolate abandonment
The void left by, taught through
The faces I would turn towards
And truest love I knew

Yet away from me, unhappily
Or indifferent, themselves have turned
Fixed, never to meet within my gaze
My life's  cautionary tale, discerned
Falling in love with many a friend
From very early on
Where nothing matters like they do,
No matter that they've gone.
No matter that the majority
the best parts of our life's real years,
Are spent relapsing in mere memories
As sincerely, serenely, their aura disappears.

It Really Is More Than It Feels

Alone

Voices in the dark
like Spring-heeled Jacks ,
run down a grimy slate roof
into a filthy gutter
filled with the tears of Saint Sophia .
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Dust , dirt , insects
and the remains of dead
forget-me-nots ,
the only images left to
a diseased mind .
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They run over and over
in geometric perfection ,
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a cataclysm of holes .
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No light for his lantern ,
hope forsaken gloom ,
then run down
tormented avenues
to an empty field ,
under the moon of
Mars in September  .
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Under blood red stars ,
without truth or meaning ,
the tower of his wasted
dreams ,
and the chimeras of his
past ,
gather now around
and begin casting lots .