When I dream
I dream of waking to find you
Why do I always think of you
Why do you consume my nights
Why do I always think of the past
The past I can not undo
The choices I made
The choices you made
We are all victims of our past
When we learn to grow and respect the power of our choices maybe then we
learn the power of our decisions
Make them with grace
Think before you do
What's done is done
Will you wish it to be different
Will you look back haunted
by the decision you made
That's the learning curve
don't be to quick to answer
and seal the fate of your future
You may find yourself haunted
and wanting a do over
that can't be given by your
answer that fateful day

© Jennifer L DeLong 11/2024

Carrying wounds that will not heal
A pain I will be forced to always feel
Stitched up, scabbed over
The new flesh is much paler
Sealed but not seamless
A basic healing process
That's what they tell me
Looks like a ground up mess, what does everyone else see?
The sensation is still so prominent
As if I'm back in that bathtub reliving it
The visual as clear as the day
Terrified but can't pull my gaze away
I only opened a small crease
Honed in on the crimson flow of my life embracing it's release
Two fresh exits located to my left and my right
Allowing it to forge a new path to the drain and out of sight
My past, present and future colliding
Pooling faster than it can move through the plumbing
Took forever to register my final decision
Turned out it wasn't final at all, just another negative mark on my person
No relief felt, only overwhelming regret
A permanent reminder
But how could I ever forget

©2024

You gave me the freedom to fly against the wind
And tried to hold my string in your hand
But you never realized I was a bird, not a kite
Who has its own wing to chase the sky...
And now that you've recognised my flight
It's too late for me to climb that height..!