emotional floodgates

Herein rage dangerous rapids, Do I dare release?  
The waters may never cease

Water is not always gentle.

Bitter anger and confusion
like vinegar
won't stop love from flowing.
They are both liquid
coursing together
through the great channels
carved by passion.
When dammed,
these too overflow.
I must, somehow, create culverts
and new places to go.

I hear the rain outside my window
Sudden
Like the thoughts of my mind;
Like a dam burst, they flow
Continuously fluctuating
They only pile and grow
The thoughts that continually seeded
Weave and grow
Too many stimuli
I am overwhelmed
Too much
For me to even think that I know
To even think that I know anything
As dams burst left and right
The chaos caused is too thorough...
The chaos has spread too wide
And as the dam is about to burst
I open my eyes
And my soul is broken in half
In the dull echo
Of the chaos of the rain
Outside

]i built a wall
]to block your love
]because i’m not
]deserving of.

Dams, brimming, full.
A pretty sight, but frightens all;
Raging rains, more pain!

If she is great with kids
Talks to elderly people like actual adults
And cares for people over money and possessions
Tell her to marry you now
I'm still bursting out of the ****
With a nocturnal howl
So accqainted with the disenchanted and the foul
I almost forgot what anything else was like
You've sent my interests in a hike
I can finally puncture this emptiness with a pike
Wedding bells
Wedding dress
I think I'm part woman sometimes
I like to read between the lines
But only my own
No mixed signals
No swindle
No correlation because you're afraid of being alone
Somebody who burns for me
Like I've burned for them.