I heard there's a shot today.

People are so eager to say,
"You are enough"
to shove,
"self love" down your throat.
but when you're tossed aside,
by everyone,
how can I believe that I'm,
deserving of love

I used to roll my eyes,
when people said love is dead,
but as I wipe the tears away,
I'm afraid hope is too.

the world is on fire,
but i am at peace.
the situation's dire,
and this year was so bleak.
who knows what twenty one
will have in store?
will this virus be done?
will we go to war?
whatever awaits,
i'll be so okay,
passively accept fate
'cause i am unphased
by trudging though days
that are just as grey
as those filled with rage,
as those filled with pain,
that always lit my way.

Do these small stupid griefs

In relation to those who’ve lost relations
Count anymore?

My litany of the blues
Baby, periwinkle, teal, Robins egg, sky

Even indigo

Haven’t the weight of, depth of
Cobalt, slate, cerulean, flint, smoke, navy.

Lead.

My alchemy chest, empty

The weight of fog, heavy breath
Less expansive, slow filling

A pound of fathers, lighter then
a pound of dead birds,
becomes hard to hold, still

as the volume grows.

COVID's around the Christmas tree
And it seems it will not stop
Mists of it hangs where you will breath
Every droplet goes ker-plop

COVID's around the Christmas tree
Sets the Christmas spiraling
Later will die some family
As the COVID does it's thing

You will get an awful mental feeling when you hear
Voices wailing, melancholy
Death abounds from human folly
COVID's around the Christmas tree
Some will die this holiday
Everyone's gaspin' eerily
In the new pandemic way

You will get an awful mental feeling when you hear
Voices wailing,  melancholy
Death abounds from human folly

COVID's around the Christmas tree
So we'll ZOOM this holiday
Everyone dancin' merrily
In the new-pan-dem-ic waaaaaaaaayyyyyy