“He is the ocean in my life while I am a single drop in his. He is the sun in my sky while I am the breeze that goes by unnoticed. He is the moon that guides me at night, while I am nothing but the darkness in his life. Excitement pulsates when he texts, but not a pulse more when I text. For I am just like the other girls he talks to; just one of them when he is the only one for me. Happiness rushes through my veins and nerves feel a gentle tickle in his presence. I feel everything deeply; pain and happiness when it comes to him, while he feels nothing. Sacrificing, asking, encouraging, adjusting and compromising when it’s never the same. He never runs when I slip away, but I stay when he walks away. I feel like I am chasing him; on a constant run for him to care. But he doesn’t care about me, as much as I care about him; and that hurts deeply than I ever thought it would.”
"Some words are only meant to say at that moment, A feelings that carried away by aroma of sweetness but when reality hits out soul, Those words won't come out anymore, It became frozen. Only wishing those moments will come back again. Those words that you have said, Your plans for us, Those might become a stone, Will ended up into compromise. A Fiction, A Myth, An Extinct. And if that happens, I would love no more. No more. No more."
This poem is meant for you Bunny, I hope you understand what I feel.
I could go on forever Flying on our feathers Looking down from clouds examining and watching seeing every human dot compromising and colliding relating with the concrete calling forth what they know and then:
change happens from calm and strong brains every single object and thought talks further of ambition the clouds move the heavens unlock it rains we get wet it is cold
FEEDBACK? It is like what I have been writing recently. I don't know for sure why, but I have not been fond of anything I have written since getting this new notebook. They have all been written quickly and seem very bland.
You cannot keep people from coming and going No matter how hard you try people will come and go as they please in your life, even if it hurts It is important for them to be happy, as well as it is for you to be But it is not their responsibility to keep you happy
That is yours The longer you fight and scream to keep them there The more it will hurt in the end So maybe it is just best to let people leave as they please Even if it means to sit there alone in the middle of the night with a cup of alcohol in your hand Sitting in the dark crying as you try to figure out what you did so wrong that made them leave
But it wasn't you that did anything wrong You were just you, and you are perfect as long as you are happy They did not do anything wrong either They did what they needed to do for them to be happy
Neither of you are responsible for one another You do what you can to keep YOU happy
When you put others first, you teach yourself that you come last Put yourself first always Treat others how you want to be treated Be kind to others always
Even though it is in the name, common sense isn't as common as you would hope for You have to respect others opinions Even if it goes against what you say and like
You are alone But you aren't lonely in any way You have people here with you Even when it doesn't feel like it
So let those people leave Let more enter Don't be afraid to leave others as well Take care of yourself Put yourself first
You are the main character of YOUR story, not THEIRS The most you can do is tell the person why you are leaving if there is a reason Give them that closure if you can I will no longer be holding people back with my insecurities
This is just something that is on my mind that I struggle with immensely and need to realize