Hear my roar,
******* bitterness,
feel my urges of temptation!
Oh, thou pain of acceptance,
Oh, thou cutting knifes of belonging..
So much for inclusion,
the most destroying illusion!
Have I been fearful?..
I certainly have!
Have I been pretending?..
To the uttermost!
yet, something disturbs me now..
My heart is torn apart,
a seed to arise,
an original to despise.
Growing through the mud here,
pass the lonely towers,
above the cities of void,
unto the edge of the universe,
and further into emptiness!
Only He can accept Me,
Only He can relate to Me,
and as faithful as the morning sun,
I’ll lay my life upon His Alter of Mercy.
Hear my roar,
******* bitterness,
but behold!
I shall drink His water of redemption!
A poem I wrote 4 years ago as I began walking in earnest towards my own freedom and self-actualization!