I've been away for a while,
And,
It seems like nothing is ever going to change.
Forgive me.

Avoiding
Detour
Pretend
Ignore

Silence the
Truth
And ignore
The lie

Sometimes I think I might like to complain
About hardly ever seeing you,
Because not once have I found you.

I've never been the child looking up to you
There's probably one of those now though,
A little girl or boy,
That you tuck into bed at night
With a kiss on the head.
You know they're the one thing that you don't regret.

You can't regret me either you know,
Because you don't know me.
I haven't happened,
Or at least that's what you think.
Surely you'd have known
But I guess that you didn't care,
Did you dad?
Is it okay?
Can I call you that?
No, it's not because you're nothing to me
You never have been.
I wanted you
Maybe I still do.

Through eyes half shut
I see you there,
laying just next to me.
I could reach out
and touch you,
And yet you feel like
you are miles away.
Distant and lost.
Somewhere out there,
far away from me.
Or maybe that's just how it seems
because that is where
you want to be.