without the one you love
is like living in an eternity
of silence
while everyone else
is enjoying the music.

the craving of drugs,
the addiction of love
both will take you into another
dimension.
then once you loose
the high
or the lover
that is when reality sets in
and you feel numb
once again.

You don't care anymore.
But i guess you never really did.
Why would anybody
want to care about someone
who can't even care about herself?

my heart is always hurting.
sadness consumes my thoughts.
im sick of seeing smiling people
who's minds are pure from demons.
they will always be stronger than i ever was
and i think thats why i can never smile
because i know that i'll never be good enough.

I miss you being a part of my life,
but then again,
you never really were.
Just a person that i was supposed to love and call
'Dad'
now I'm sitting here wishing i knew
how to love someone
the way a father loves a daughter,
but i'll never know how
and it kills me.

Having a mind that travels through memories and makes poems out of them is not always a good thing. Sometimes when your mind is traveling, it gets stuck onto a memory that really haunts your soul. You want to forget, but yet you want to remember it all over again that memory keeps replaying in your Cerebrum and it slowly destroys you, bit by bit. And before you can even realize it, the memory has completely enveloped you.

If i saw you i would immediately run away
because you are my worst nightmare,
but if you called my name as i was running
i'd surely turn around and hear what you'd
have to say.
you're my worst nightmare,
yet i just can't get enough of you.
my drug,
my intoxicating need,
why do i crave something so wrong for me?