with feelings so strong & unexplainable,
it's hard for me to put them to words,
and even harder for me to share them with you..

i fear the effects they may have,
the hearts they may take,
the lives they could make or break…

i don't understand why anything happens the way that it does,
or how & why we fall in and out of love,
or crave the things we don't have,
or why are we so clueless to are reason for being here…

it's tiring being in two places at once.
inside two hearts.
its painful.

my heart's an oasis
my veins, rivers
flowing my love
to my brain
where it drains
out of my mouth
and you breathe it in
in quenches your thirst
to find love
to taste divinity
to feel infinity
how does it taste?
like adrenaline and blood

my mind is a game of Tetris
and i just can't seem to fit the pieces
in the appropriate manner
it builds higher and higher
a traffic jam of thoughts
stumbling to find their places
all actors on set
all hands on deck
ready or not, here life comes.

people have been scaring and wearing me out.
doesn't anyone hear the cries & the shouts?
seems like nobody has anymore room for compassion,
no remorse, no guilt, just hate filled passion.
you've all put your heart up on a shelf,
you can't even produce any love for yourself.
but mines still here, and oh how it aches.
at the lack of kindness that has now taken place.
but you know what, this is just me..
and this is how I chose to be.
trying so hard to take care of all els,
in a world where it's every man for them self.
but it's a burden that I choose to bare,
cause you know.. someones gotta care.

i'll be your rock,
you can count on me.
you just hafta ask,
and say what you need.
watever works best,
is what works for me.
if it causes less stress,
then I'm all for it, please.
things may see dim,
but I'm hopin to see,
a chance in our fate,
so eventually,
we can all coexist,
so harmoniously,
but we'll never get there,
no we just won't succeed,
until we drop all the hate
and start making peace.
there's no time to waste,
we're chasing our dreams.
until then I wait,
to see true unity,
but just know through the chaos,
that you can always count on me.

I want to be free,
like a bird in a tree,
just free to be me,
so infinitely.

I want to fly,
with no worries or ties,
just me & the sky,
so high, so alive.

you can never be sure,
of what the future holds.
you can only be sure,
of this moment now.
as people grow and change,
so do their feelings,
and their wants,
and their needs.
there are no guaranties.
forever,
is actually just for now.
so enjoy what you have,
while you have it.
enjoy your love.
reap the gains.
and when it dies,
embrace the change.
release your pains,
and try again.
your only loosing a body.
the memories,
the lessons,
the experience,
will always remain.
forever ingrained...

with eyes that look to be seen..
& lips that speak to be silenced..

i am the one stole your heart,
and i am the one who sets you apart.
i am the one who brought you the light,
the breath in your lungs, that fills you with life.

you have my heart
and at any moment
you could run
you could break it
but you won't
instead you hold it
nice and high
up in the sky
so close to the sun
it catches fire
it burns for you
a burning desire
you light me up
like a great idea
we're a great idea

please set me free.
where I can just be.
my spirit must flee.
I need harmony.
I need unity.
I need you and me.
**** this society.
It is depriving me.
I am surviving see,
But that's not being free.

We should be milking every moment of life with hands of passion and love :)
Making the most of every moment, every encounter, every touch or passing glance.. Because there's no time to be wasted, there's no room for regrets.
This is our chance to be, & to feel.
And to know what's it's like to feel/be alive and loved.
That's not something I take lightly.
I'm gonna do it fully and freely.
I'm gonna revel in this fleeting yet infinite moment that is my life.

please turn me to birds,
so can find the strength to fly.

please turn me to words,
so i can find the truth that hides,

please turn me to steel,
so i can gain the will to love.

please teach me to heal,
so i can feel like i'm enough.

and there i was

falling

falling

falling

and there you were

a sea of love

ready to catch me

i fall into you

and we become one

fear is a distant memory

creation spikes the sea

we swim in bliss

in flow

in love

i want you
all of you
right now
& for the rest of our days
i want you in so many ways

when i'm with you
life is but a dream
i live for the moments i share with you
to bask in your love,
and bathe you in mine

sometimes i will get real quiet,
and just let myself be.
i'll feel & observe,
the changing & exchanging of energies,
around & within me.

sometimes i am left speechless & in awe,
at the infinite potential & divine beauty,
in everyone & everything.
i just want to be still & enjoy it.

take it in.
embrace it.
breathe,
& just be.

everything is anything.
morphing, moving, & merging together.
falling deep into flow.
deep into know.
breathing & bleeding energies & essences,
from every spectrum of the rainbow.
discovering & diving into new, unexplainable realms of creation.
so much to think about.
so much to feel for.
it's easy to get swept up in the magic.

an experience,
be it good or bad,
teaches us something.
makes us feel something.
something real.
and that's why we are all here isn't it?
to experience feelings & emotions.
to experience life.
you are not here to feel good or bad,
you are here just to feel.
you are here not to be good are bad,
you are here to just be.
don't you see?
there is no happy or sad,
there is only feeling.
there is no right and wrong,
there is only being.
your existence is a miracle, a blessing, a gift.
this is your chance, your life, your experience.
you can be whoever you want to be.
and you can see however you want to see.
you are everything you think and more.
be grateful & give thanks that you are here,
right now, in this beautiful, potential filled moment.
you are apart of something bigger then you ever could imagine.
bigger than you, than us, than this world , than this galaxy, and this universe.
you are a universe of infinite potential and possibilities.
you are an unstoppable force of love,
you were made by love, for love, to love.
your here to feel, to heal, and keep it real.
& once you realize this, nothing can stop you.

there are corners in my mind in which you hide,
and you'll creep out at the most inconvenient times.
there are days when all i think about is you,
the way you smile & do the little things you do.
i can't shake you,
wanna break you,
but i'd take you back in case you….
change you mind….
wait never mind..
you were never mine.

everything is starting to fall apart but simultaneously all fall together and in place.
change is swift these days,
& energies are running super high,
& time is still speeding up.
truth and realizations are flooding everyone now.
breakups and makeups you'd never thought you'd see are happening everywhere.
everything's fallin into place, whether we see or understand that place or not, it's happening against our control.
are we leading up to something?
are we all taking our final places on this stage we call life, to live out the final act, the end scene?
to embark upon a whole new story/play.
something much greater then we can know & see is happening right now.
& what's happening is outta our hands at this point, so buckle in everyone and embrace the unknown!
I think 2015 is gonna be one hell of a freakin year.
enlightenment is here.

who's the one who craves my touch..
who needs my loving oh so much.
who's the one the meant for me..
who'll eat my pain and set me free.
who's the now who needs me close..
who takes the time, who makes the most,
of everything that we could ever be.

I wish my words could flow as freely and easily as my wine does.
for I long to know how to show myself to you
when your standing in front of me
in all your glory light
and everything feels so bright
and my face starts to ache from smiling
to cover up that i'm dying
to be with you
for just a night, or two, or three..
possibly indefinitely?
would that be too much to ask?
am i being to brash?
how this happened so fast.
let's make it last.

& so my darling,
let's create together.
let's make art and love and life.
let's celebrate our existence,
and this cosmic fusion of energies.
this is the reunion & rebirth of souls.
this is what people live & die for.
let's paint & sing & dance & heal.
let's explore the land by sun,
and our bodies by moon.
let's define love.
free love.
wild love.
crazy beautiful love.
this is it.
this is bliss.

With each passing day it gets harder to be away from you.
I cannot stop thinking about you it's crazy.
When I walk I imagine you with me.
When I lay in bed I imagine you with me.
When I cook breakfast I imagine you with me.
Your always with me now.
The thought or you creates a constant flow of smiles, happiness, inspiration, & energy in me & in my life.
Every set of blue eyes I see, I see you.
Every smile that I see, I see you.
Every time I hear the word love or see people in love or hear laughter, I think of you.
You are so wonderful.
You energize me like no other.
I feel high, I feel unstoppable, I feel like in right where I am suppose to be, completely aligned with destiny and Gaia's plans for me.
I cannot wait until you are physically in my life!
Ive just been gettin these waves of euphoria that sweep over me all the time especially when I think about you.
I want to make you so very very happy : )
I'm going try my hardest to give you the beautiful love that you deserve & the love you always wanted to have.
I feel like no matter what happens to me in the future if I had you then I'd always be happy and have something to look forward to.
I feel like no matter what I do, or we do, I could never really loose or fail at because being with you is like winning the best prize of life lol
always winning, always grinning!
everything we've given is coming back to us now.
all the love & inspiration & wisdom & kindness, it's all coming back to us, in the form of eachother : )
this is only goin to get better & deeper & stronger & more awesome.
I can't wait to get to know you more and on other levels.

you're my sunshine, my sweetness, my savior.
you're my favorite sound & my favorite flavor.
you are my resurrection place.
i am born again, at the sight of you face.

i love you for all of the words you just spoke.
because you make me believe every word that you wrote.
i love you because you show me the love i've always searched for.
i love you because you feel like a beautiful adventure to me.
i love you because in my eyes, you out shine the sun.
i love you because you make me feel so rich in happiness & love.
i love you because your make me feel more alive & infinite then anyone i've ever met.
i love you because your genuineness is captivating & timeless.
i love you because your soul & my soul, they go way back.
i love you because you know me, you get me, & you love me because of that.
i love you because you are my fire, my earth & my heart.
i love you because i feel you in everything.
i love you because you are so far away, yet i know you are with me.
i love you because sometimes i can feel you more then i feel myself.
i love you because i see nobody els.
i love you because i know you will never bring me down, because you uplift me, & you'll soar with me.
i love you because of how easy it is to think up reasons why i love you.
because every thought you think, every word you speak, ever thing you do, is a new reason to love you.
i love you because everything you do is love, everything you are is love.
i love you because it feels more natural to me then anything els iv'e ever done.
i love you because you are everything i want, & everything i need.
i love you because you will let me be free,
because you love me free & because you love to be free to.
we will love all freely & infinitely
we will heal all freely & infinity
and we will love and heal each other, freely & infinitely.

there's something in you
behind your eyes
pleading & needing me to stay
to take your pain away
to distract from all you hate
to show you a different way

& there's something in me
behind my eyes
that wants to be,
that needs to be,
your sweet relief, your remedy
the everything that you so need

and what brought us here?
what drew us near?
are we tired of livin in fear
that things will never be clear
tryin to find the home you once had
looking back on it all,
nothing made you that glad
then that warmth of their tone
then that soul you call home
try to find your way back
through miles of broken bones
and broken roads

they want us all to be so distracted and focused on these personal plights of ours.
romantic, religious, financial, fame, that we miss out on the true point of life.
which is to just be.
to take this life, live it, and love it.
simply & sweetly, savoring every moment for what it is.
we're so busy looking for answers, or seeking validation for our existence, and for what?
i dont really think there is a specific reason we came to be.
i think we just happened, the most beautiful of accidents and surprises that's ever come to be in the universe.
why waste time figuring it out,  just enjoy yourself for **** sake, while we're still here!
we need to all be babies again.
fresh/open minded, not trying to be anyone , living day by day, moment to moment, wide eyed and in awe of it all.. enjoying.. learning.. no plans.. not plights.. just basic needs, food, sleep, & love, exploring the world, taking it all in with no ego and no judgments.
would be lovely wouldn't it.

everything you do, is perfect just like you.
i wanna make you swoon.
and fly you to the moon.
and dance you in it's light,
we can make out the whole night.
and it can try with all it's might,
but it will never be as bright,
as you my dear, in all your grace.
you'd shame the sun right in it's place.

sometimes it's hard to express your pain when almost everyone in your life expects you to always be positive & upbeat.
you don't want to let anyone down, you wanna be there for them,
& provide all with love and good vibes,
but in doing so you let down yourself & neglect your own feelings.
if you couldn't tell i haven't been doing so well lately..
in sacrificing my happiness for others I have trapped & tied down my spirit.
& by refusing to deal with my own emotions I am slowly building a fate fit for a time bomb.
instead of letting it all out & facing my pain.
I've been tryin to counter/reverse things by taking in as much as I can.
I've been over doing everything,
over eating, spending, sleeping smoking.
constant consumption,
trying to hide & distract myself from my pain.
trying to make myself feel better without having to actually deal with my feelings.
I need the strength to overcome my obstacles but I can't seem to find it right now : (
& why am I sharing this?
because I'm hurting,
because I'm human,
& because its nice just to be heard.
despite what you may think I still have my bad times, my failures, my sadness.
I still feel the same, we all feel the same.
if it hurts you, it hurts me too.
the reason I've been avoiding my feelings is because I know how much it's gonna hurt when I finally do face them & I'm honestly not ready..
I'm not use to carrying so much pain & sadness.
I now realize though that by living the way I have been I am just adding to the chaos & confusion that is currently my life.
I feel disconnected from myself and the earth because I've been ignoring both.
and I find myself doing things and thinking things I normally wouldn't.
things that I know aren't helping me any.
by playing this full time act i am leaving myself broke, tired, unhealthy & unfocused which does not help me in overcoming my deeper issues.
I just need to breathe, i need to be brave, & i need to start listening to myself.
I've always tried to live from my heart but lately I've spent no time there at all.
I've been hiding out in my mind trying to ignore the state of my heart,
but now even my mind has turned into a chaotic mess & there's no where left to hide.

Dead Love

please let this pass.
please make this fast.
i don't know how long i can last.
i'm done with blame.
i'm done with pain.
of feeling lame.
it's all a same.
they're all the same.
playin these games.
they'll never change.
so please refrain.
oh what a shame.
i've gone insane.
to **** the pain.
of friendship slain.
of love now tamed.
never again to be obtained.

he wrapped himself around her hips,
he spoke into her waiting lips,
i don't know how you came to exist,
to be such a gem in a world like this.

i hope that you find the inspiration to truly live & love without restraint (if you haven't already).
i hope that you find what lights up your soul & i hope that you share that light with everyone that you meet, to then inspire them to look within too.
i hope that you re-connect with nature in all it's glory, with yourself in all your radiance, and with others in all their beauty.
every day the earth & all it's inhabitants become more & more beautiful & meaningful to me.
i hope that you love yourself, as much as i love you.
i hope you can see the infinite potential & beauty that you harbor.
i see your imperfections.. and that's what makes you perfect to me.
& just remember that you can never truly love other people or the earth until you have learned to love yourself.
people will treat you however you allow them to, and we accept the love we think we deserve.
true, meaningful, happiness & stimulation comes from enjoying what's natural & alive, & not whats manufactured and material.
i only wish the best for you , in everything you choose to do, i'm rooting for you.

every day is a party.
a chance to seize the day.
a clean slate, to change fate.
an opportunity to rejoice and celebrate life,
& the amazing chance that you got to live one!
why not smile about it, why not dance about it?
hell, let's all make sweet romance about it!
this is our time to shinee,
COSMIC CREATURES OF CREATION
it's time to fly, it's time to fall,
to have a blast, & see it all.
don't waste the most precious & beautiful gifts you were ever given.
your life, your time, & your body.
you've been given a vehicle for your soul to explore in.
the opportunity to be able to exists as more then just energy and soul, but in a physical sense too.
don't waste this experience, this journey, and don't waste yourself.
take nothing for granted, & take care of yourself.
the world is your oyster, and you are the beautiful shining pearl.

your eyes, made to see the depths of me.
your ears, made to hear the thoughts i keep.
your hands, made to fit my dainty mold.
your lips, made to ******* sweetened soul.

this is how i see it..

you can look at everything from the perspective of good & bad or you can see all of it as experience, as growth, & as guidance.

everything that we experience has the power to be helpful, positive, or beneficial for us.

we just need to open our hearts, & our minds.

we must accept things for what they are & have faith in the glorious universe.

all that Gaia knows to give, is love.

& i believe that everything we experience is done out of love for us.

it is done to guide us somewhere or teach us something that is important to our being and our evolutionary journey.
even at times when we may not be able to see or understand our destiny ourselves.

Gaia will provide us with all the tools and lessons that we need to be happy and free.

we just need to learn to be more open and receptive.

to make the best of everything, 
to look for the good first, & to see the meaning, the beauty, the lesson, the humanity in all.

pay close attention, look deep within the heart of all matters, & never be afraid to feel the love or the pain that you hold, or that anyone one els in this world holds.

feel it together, & heal it together.

one beautiful love.

we are energy, life, form, art,
dancing in space.
waiting to be found,
to be seen,
to be heard,
to be felt,
to be loved.
waiting for ignition,
for the recognition,
between souls.
waiting for the spark
that births the flame of love.
that warms and glows
to soothe these aching bones,
for the dance of life
i move alone.
waiting for the sun
that calms my hearts storm,
for the angelic voice
that surrenders my minds war.
unconsciously,
i'm drawn to thee,
waiting for that moment of freeing,
to cut these fear sewn ties
that blind my eyes from beauty.
you are the blood that courses true,
that flows in me
and leads to you.
waiting to bask in your glory light,
to be captivated by your sight.
oh what a timeless woe,
will we ever come to know,
to feel,
to move,
to show,
the lovers dance,
to be in lovers trance,
i pray that this is so.

let me hold you, let me love you.
unconditionally, non traditionally.
i could give you a love that people die for.
a love that the gods of fate would cry for.
the suns love to shine, we would put to shame.
for my soul is a fire, and you are the flames.
i burn for you more passionately then all the stars in the sky.
your my reason to live and my reason to die.
your smile is what anchors me down,
your smile sends me straight to the clouds.
i want to give life to that light in your eyes,
let the friction of flesh slay the pain from inside.
how you shine so divine.
how your beauty leaves me blind.
not another moment can past, without showing you my heart.
its yours for the taking or taring apart.
this honesty's from deep in me,
your name laces the air i breathe.
at dusk you dance through my sweet dreams.
i love you so internally, eternally, i yearn for thee.

the hustle and bustle
of the morning shuffle
it's just enough
to keep you up
the stations and terminals
are coated
with sleep walkers
and sleep talkers
waiting for the inspiration
to come to life
that they always find
at the bottom
of empty coffee mugs
and tea cups

So alive.
So infinite.
So free.
She sees the beauty, the love, the chaos, the mystery of life.
She sees it clearly
& she reflects it in herself.
She is the beauty, the love, the chaos, the mystery of life.
She sees the earth for all its worth and she reflects that in herself.
She is a divine creator.
She ten folds everything she touches.
She was made from love.
She was made to love.
She is a vast & ever-changing sea of emotions, thoughts, & energies.
She has the universe inside of her.
She has the earth all ways to guide her.
She is golden.
She is light.
She is all.
She is I.

my heart deflates
at just the taste
of bitter hate
it comes in haste
and leaves no trace
of joy or faith
upon a face
I can't relate
to such a fate
to make a date
in karmas grace

what do you do,
when you've done all you can,
when you lend every hand,
till you barley can stand.
till your blue in the face,
and your down on your knees,
your heart'a lost the race,
and it's starting to plea.
I am loosing myself,
to everything I am not.
I tried to do well,
gave them all that I got.
now I'm spent and I'm dry,
wet regret fills my eyes.
shaken down to the bone,
and my hearts turned to stone.

Your presence, warms me.
Your hands, they form me.
If I catch your sight,
I may stare forever.
If I held you close,
I may let go never.
The god in me
sees the god in you.
Sees the way you shine,
so divine and true.
Sees what you can be,
and what you can do.
Which is anything
you set your mind to.
When I feel you, I feel love.
A love that takes me high above.
A love that's limitless and free.
A love I know was meant to be.
We are wild and flying high.
& We don't even have to try.
All the world is in our hands.
All the world is in our plans.
We are beauty and inspiration,
We have the power to heal the nation.
Through song and smile,
& Error by trial,
We have enough juice
to travel the miles.
To anywhere we need to be,
To find our bliss and harmony.
This energy we have inside,
will never age and never die.
My love for you deepens with time.
Since birthed that sparkle in my eyes.
The flame of you
is hot and bright.
It feels so good,
it feels so right.
It floods my heart
with so much light.
you are the moon
to my dark night.

i will let the rain,
drop down & ease my pain,
dampen out my fear,
& wash away my stains.

let it bring the calm,
clean the sweat from off my palms,
blend into my tears,
& bring the rise of dawn.

let it cool the things i'm stressin,
drown out all of my depression,
i will let the rain,
be the answer to my questions.

so when i'm low & dry,
& i feel i want to cry,
i'll see the clouds roll in,
& smile at the sky.

i await that sweet rush
of passion, blood, & heart beats.
the friction of our flesh,
creating a seductive,
secluding warmth
for us to get lost in.

i await that sweet escape
from the pain of living
and lack of living.
the taste of your soul
on my lips.
breathing you in
through every part of me.

i await the sweet sound of home,
the symphony our senses play.
dancing with you,
romancing with you,
as the whole world falls away.

let’s explore the universe of love
.
like galactic butterflies
,
we soar, we link
,
we dance, we sync
.
lost in cosmic euphoria,

induced by the warming glow of starlights
,
& the undeniable feeling of being home
.
we marvel in the light
,
like sunbathing crystals
,
casting rainbows threw space
.
our beauty is endless & moving
.

we are so divine
,
& now we are free.

free to love, to dream,
to create, & to play.

we breathe in prana
 & we feel peace.
we bask in the essence of love & oneness
.
we let it fuel us 
& fill us up
.
look at us
, we are so high now
,
we are the sky now.
there is no going back
,
but we never would
,
cause the truth has never felt so good.

we were made for this
.
we were made for bliss
.
we are the fruits of this universal tree,
i was always you
 & you always were me
.
now we are infinite.

now we are home
.
now we are alive.

oh tender heart
,
oh fragile mind
,
your soul is free 
& so is mine

love gives life reason
it gives it meaning,
& worth.
it diminishes the pain of being alive.
& makes everything more beautiful.
it makes the world feel limitless,
and it makes you feel infinite.
it makes the nonsense into perfect sense,
& the bad things turn better.
& even though we should already know, it confirms that we are special, and wanted, and needed on this earth.
we have a soul purpose and that is to love and be loved.
love is the ultimate force of creation.
it has the power to bring new life into existence,
the power of gods one might say,
& it lies within us, within our love.
through love and lack there of,
we learn some of the best lessons life has to offer us.
it never asks for anything back,
it is unconditional and completely natural.
people, plants, animals, the universe, we all need love and care to continue living.
and although we all need and desire love,
we hesitate to give and feel it fully.
we are afraid of using it, loosing it, or abusing it.
we fear rejection and the unknown.
but really nothing should be more comforting and familiar to you then the feeling of love.
it's somewhat of a novelty now,
manufactured love,
bought and sold and ready to go.
but money can't by love, nobody can.
it's only real if it comes from within.
but people are so guarded to go within is a very difficult task,
we're all wearing these masks.
but if everyone tried,
to listen instead of ignore
to give instead of take
to help instead of hinder or harm
and to love instead of hate
then living wouldn't be so hard.
you should try to positively effect every human you cross paths with.
notice, embrace, and respect the journey they are on.
take the opportunity to learn and experience something or someone  outside of your familiar routine life.
share your love with the world and it will share its love with you.
empty your vessel and you will be refilled with wondrous beauty and enlightenment.
because that's what love is,
it's enlightenment,
for your body, mind, and spirit.
so be love, be hope, & be kindness.
we can love through our blindness.
you be here for me, and Ill be there for you
& the next time we meet we will learn and love together.

'love is everywhere, it has no distance,
all you have to do is stop the resistance.'

we are the sinners & the saints.
we are the canvas & the paint.
we are the chaos & the calm.
we are the dusk & the dawn.

we are the truth & the lies.
we are the earth & the sky.
we are the leap & the fall.
we are the answer & the call.

we are the free, & the chained.
we are the crazy & the sane.
we are the living & the dead.
we are the hungry & the fed.

we are the shy & the daring.
we are the cruel, & the caring.
we are the simple & the complex.
we are the blessed, & the hexed.

we are the wrong, & the right.
we are the dark & the light.
we are the lost & the found.
we are colour, we are sound.

and i hope that you can see,
that you are EVERYTHING to me.
that i am you and you are me
& all we're meant to do is BE.
so let us be, forever free
& we can dream our destiny

take my word, my hand, my heart.
no matter the distance, we're never apart.
and when we face the pain & chaos.
love will guide us, truth will save us.

where's the stimulation
is this life a simulation
we're all lacking inspiration
& we're feeling the deflation
cause we fight the integration
of our slowly rotting nations
working for our next vacation
losing passion for creation

let's leave this hell,
let's find ourselves.
let's loose control,
no ties, no holds.

fall off the map,
slip into life.
we can be wild,
we'll choose what's right.

we'll have no home,
but tons of heart.
we'll have no walls,
but tons of art

we don't need heat,
we have our warmth.
& if it rains,
embrace the storm.

love by my side,
the stars hanging high.
what a place to live,
what a place to die.