I keep the smile on my face through the day
replaying memories of you and I
laughing, holding one another,
loving, loving, loving
each other.

I am holding on the memories though the day
but there are some moments that I
can't explain the sadness I feel
missing, missing, missing,
each other.

When you have so much to say
that nothing will come out
and the tears are there
but not falling
and the stomach is in knots
but still crawling
to make something come out
because you have so much to say.

I remember the first time I saw you
perfect in all of your ways and
the feeling of your hands with mine
laced, intertwined
I wanted nothing more
but to make you mine

Scared, terrified as time excelled
the more I got to know you
the harder I fell

I didn't understand, I couldn't express
that when you're at your worst
i still think you're at your best
you're grays shine in glitter
and your sunrays are always bright
I accept you completely
in darkness and in light

No pressure, no rush
I respect you and us
You're flaws to me
are beautiful fairy dust

I am sorry, from the bottom of my being
for any nonsense i left you feeling
and as we both got hurt
we took this time apart
to mend each other
to mend our heart

In this process,
this dance of life,
I choose to show you
acceptance and love
through happiness and strife

If my sorry is not enough
I know my actions can be instead
I ask my heart where to go
and to you I am led

Still scary, still terrifying  
but I accept responsibility for the past
I trust in this love
and will do anything to make it last

Some say forever is impossible
with us I believe that is not the case
You will forever be the only person
that my hands with lace

Tears down my face
that scream "I miss you,"
scratching the sheets
on your side of the bed,
reaching
reaching
reaching to hold on
but i'm kept awake
coughing up emptiness
tossing and turning
tossing and turning
forcing some sort of
hyperventilation
in an attempt to breathe.

As my heart beats slow back
to what I assume is normal
I catch my breath and repeat
"Inhale, exhale
Inhale, exhale
everything is okay."
And if it's not right now,
it will be.
The tears now whisper
a quiet and deep "I miss you"
as they trace down
the crevice of my lips
where I can only hope
that your mouth will meet me
when we're ready
back on your side of the bed.

Drug me
with your strongest dose of addictions,
between the spaces of our future sins
I embrace
every adventure behind closed doors
as long as mine is embedded in yours
I feel safe
and anxious at the same time
not physically mine
However
for that moment we unite
intertwined, tight
Unbreakable
strength within the space
adrenaline you can’t replace
This feeling
even in absence of time
rough yet smooth, each line
Overlaps my own
and I search to caress the inside
skimming sweat from both sides
It's okay,
slowly caressing my protection
merely fit to perfection
I’m addicted
to the movement, and touch
overwhelming rush
Of serenity, and flutter
nowhere else I’d rather be
you drugged me

The fight to inhale... the exhale, shaking
Deep repulsions, body aching.
No words to express the impact I’m taking
Having to accept that there are no more “memories in the making.”

Meaningless words that once caressed my ear lay scattered in pieces in a hidden chest
Put away memories of when those words weren’t meaningless.

Destroyer ! - Unexplained reasons of why you left me for her.
A wanted explanation but there’s no comparison to set us in
Lessons learned and “forgotten,” but really stored in another bin.

Winds stronger than the fight,
the water has no meaning but to take you one way
and let me drown.
I surrender my every emotion to the waves drifting
Attempts of catching my breath,
head barely lifting
I’m hit.
And as I’m tossed and turned I learned
it was time to turn and toss away
everything in me that was once my everything
Yet for some reason you still seem to be walking the shore just fine...

Remind me.
These are more than just memories, even the ones I can’t remember!
I may look like your weakest contender,
but you’ll never see someone fight against tide
like I have.
Finding my way to the shoreline, soaked head to toe
Drenched and shivering in remaining fears and unregretted hurt,
unable to solve the mystery of why we didn’t work.

I’ll leave the memories in the mystery and forgive all crimes,
I’m busy making new memories along my own shoreline.

It's an understatement to tell you that you're the prettiest girl I've ever seen
Don't take this wrong, by these words I mean
There simply is no combination of 26 letters I could put together to attempt to measure your infinite beauty.

I close my eyes to picture the sunshine caressing your body through your windowsill
kissing you as lightly as the morning rays,
dancing upon the traces of your lips in sweet 'I love yous'
my gentle hands glide across your sleepy skin

Looking for my morning cup of coffee
I press my lips firmly onto you.
Slow sip,
lighting tingling my bottom lip, I go back for more
Big sip,
this hot sensation awakes every particle of my being
the sugar rushes
heart races
craving more with each sip
I continue to wake myself
in what's left of the mint chapstick
you put on before bed