It's in the air,
It's in her hair,
It's in her eyes,
In her veins,
In her clothes,
In her lips,
In her heart,
In her soul,
It's in her.
Love is in her.

My anger shows in tears,
it's the rains of the rainforest,
the torrential downpours of a monsoon,
the floods of a hurricane,
it brings destruction in its wake,
and it brings renewal.

You asked me why I'm sad,
and I responded,
because I'm mad.

Hands shaking, chest tightening, stomach turning...
Eyes burning, tears flowing, heart stinging...
Lungs collapsing, nose leaking, core burning...
Purpose fading, body numbing, losing feeling...

Mind buzzing, hair pulling, world darkening...
E**ars ringing, silence keeping, slowly dying...

Do you listen?
Do you hear?
Do you watch closely your peers?

I can see them,
I can hear.
I can listen for their fears.

Do you focus?
Do you try?
Do you struggle in your life?

I know struggles,
I know strength.
I know the worries of a day.

Do you wonder?
Do you cry?
Is it hard to empathize?

I can't help them,
I can't cry.
I am haunted by their eyes.

Do you worry?
Do you sigh?
Do you struggle with the lies?

I do worry,
I do sigh.
I do struggle with the lies.

Do you hear the drum beat beat?
Do you hear the girls quiet screams?

I can hear them,
I can see.
I can fear them for they torture me.

Do you question?
Do you hear?
Do you push for truth among your peers?

Please I urge you,
hear the cries.
Please I urge you,
watch the eyes.

Frequently I find myself unable to complete everyday tasks,
it is like my brain has made it harder to do anything,
it is like i am unable to compel myself to even get up.

It happened suddenly,
like a lightning bolt liquid and lashing,
a sand storm deadly and unexpected.

Sleep became a luxury,
Screens became a necessity,
and school became a maybe.

I would long for the days that a liquid gold would seep through my veins and give me anything, any ounce of energy to complete daily tasks.

Even as I sit writing this my body has successfully avoided clean dishes, doing laundry and completing schoolwork.

I know I need to change,
I want to change,
But I have no idea how to get out of this mental cage of misery that holds me.

Yes, No,
Indecision loves me so,
Yes, No,
The only words I seem to know,
Yes, No,
Stormy mind yet silent tone,
Yes? No?
Yes. No.