I put on sunglasses
To hide the loss of eyelashes
The tears pull them out
Leaving me in a drought
My eyes are tinted red

I put on sunglasses
To dull how intense the past is
It's brightness blinds me
But God's grace finds me
Even in the dark

Despite me
I am loved
Despite me
I am forgiven

Despite me
Jesus came from above
Despite me
Eternal life was given

Despite me
I was shown real love
Despite me
My whole life, I'll give him

I don't know what to do
I saw the poverty of the world in June
But "at least its not me"

Everyone is depressed and broken
They're filled with pain, unspoken
But "at least its not me"

The weight brings me down
All the colors blur into brown
They tell me "just be thankful"

How can I be thankful for a toilet
When my friends are escaping a bullet?

How can I think of comfort and the fireside
When broken children are committing suicide?

Comfort is nice, but does it really matter? Just look around, humanity is shattered
But "at least its not me"

I cant think of what to say
We haven't talked since that day

The distance only grew
While from our friendship you drew

Do you even know me?

You grew
You didn't love me
You left
You didn't need me

I don't know who you are anymore

I don't know what I don't know
I don't know where I'm supposed to go
I don't know what I'm supposed to be
Lord, I need you to help me see

You

My mind is racing
My thoughts are pacing
Drowning in the things unknown

My best friend no longer exists
And the rest aren't seen through the mist
But I'm continuing to move on

The lack of sunshine that I see
It makes him sad, the bumblebee
But he continued to fly on

Where is the happiness I once felt
There it is continuing to melt
But the candle still smells pretty

Who said the sky was blue
When it's made of other colors too?
They must have been colorblind
Because they couldn't see what hides behind

The clouds