oni - Hello Poetry

oni Sep 2015

on bottomless pits and relapses of mania

its easier
to fall back into
old habits
than to fall out off them

because who falls
out of a hole -
especially
when you arent even sure
where it begins
and where it ends?

#depression #illness #anxiety #mental #hole #selfharm #cycle #relapse #pit

oni Sep 2015

10 small words

i'm destroying
myself
so you can't
do it for me

#depression #destroy #10w #selfharm #destruction

oni Sep 2015

trying so hard to not think that you start thinking about not thinking

all of these thoughts
that keep me up at night
are not even worth
thinking about
during the day

#life #anxiety #thoughts #mind #think #insomnia #asleep #worth #awake

oni Sep 2015

she isnt grateful.

dont you realize
that you have
my whole world
to say
goodnight
to?

#love #heartbreak #lonely #world #alone #relationships #people #goodnight

oni Sep 2015

a vicious cycle of cycles

my days
consist of
sitting around
waiting
for things
to get better,
while
making them
worse

#sad #depression #life #illness #mental #better #worse

oni Sep 2015

blank stare

caught like an animal
in headlights,
which way do i
run?

#death #anxiety #scared #dark #run #animal #blank #light #stare

oni Sep 2015

13 is an unlucky number

i find myself
continuing
to rely
on things
that were
never
once
reliable.

#love #heartbreak #self #harm #depression #disappointment #selfharm #unlucky #luck #rely