loneliness has defined
this old soul.
Bittersweet melody
has tuned my way of
living.

I don't know how much
my heart could stand
the weight and wait
for that simple moment,
that single spark
to feel alive
and stop breathing
the ashen smog of reality.

By Arcassin Burnham

Waiting in the mountains of the past sins
That has lead me to this point in time where
All the people that I thought had cared,
abandoned Me in an icy cavern surrounded by
Several land mines and a thousand explosives
Beyond the land of survival,

Guiding my eyes to the wrong things in life where
I make every mistake known to man and hurt
The women that I loved and cared for in their
Desperate times,
Having an unfortunate life and short time spans
While increasing the horrors of my anxiety to
Throw me off the path to acceptance,

or maybe I just think too much.


http://arcassin.blogspot.com/2016/03/think-too-much.html

Ever had love taken away from you?
Ever had breath but could not breathe?
Ever had fools take away something valuable to you?
Ever had something so big that was swiped away from you in an hour?
Ever felt so lonely that you felt like you didn't have anyone?
Ever miss the kisses and the warm embrace you've felt?
Ever miss the sunshine and you wake up to not see your love?

I didn't know you hated me so much

I mean if you didn't hate me you would't do this to me
Smiling that way that makes my heart drop
Laughing in that way that makes my stomach knot
Talking in that way that make my heart stop

You're taking my breath away and it's getting hard to get it back
I'm wishing for your shiny glow
But the night's completely black

My vision's blurry with tears
But the problem is that they're not from sadness
I don't know what they're from
I think I'm just afraid of the unknown
Unknown are these feelings you're causing me
Unknown is the tic toc from your watch

I hadn't really noticed before
The tic toc from your watch
It's so annoying
All it does it remind me that you're next to me,
but I can't listen to you pretty voice

I get this flutter my stomach every time you say my name
It sounds so sweet coming from your lips while I look at your face
It's almost like a melody
But I get so weird when you play that note
And I'm already sick of your acapella song

If you're not gonna be mine, please stop
I really can't take this anymore
It's past midnight and all I can think about is your stupid smile
I can't sleep at all
Just leave my mind alone

Leave my heart
Leave my mind
Leave this city or just hide
I can't see your face anymore because I fall harder each time
And I can't try to make you mine
you're never gonna love me, so why waste my time?

The say your bad
Or perhaps your mad
Or at least you
Should stay undercover
Your mind must be bare!
If you would dare
To think you can love
More than one lover

Life is so meaningful,
With their gentle human qualities
I have learned to cultivate tolerance
I am spiritually awakened

A little friendship to cheer me up
A little smile to brighten my day
Hope to strengthen me
And love to be eternally with in me

Love is a blessing that cannot convey
A true blessing from above
But let me give thanks to all,
The hearts that are true and pure.

When the day is done for the infantry,
they bow their heads and take a knee,
they clasp their hands and start to pray,
that they may live another day,
should a challenge for them ever arise,
they would proudly meet it with open eyes,
soldiers fight with the honor and pride,
moving any and all fear to the side,
a soldier's family and freedom is his core,
for wanting to ever fight a war.