I've been listening
to a recording of rain
when I try to fall
asleep


I've been learning
to share the space
on the bed
with myself


to let my dreams occupy
the places made
cool and empty


I fall asleep to rain
and wake up in my own arms -
that will never stop

wanting
to hold me

Cheers to silence
When she calls
And you leave.
Cheers to how fast
She makes
Your heart beat.
Cheers to your new love.
Cheers to what I don't have
Any more...


F.Z.**N

I am neither a girl
Nor a boy.
I just dress as I please
And sometimes
I wear make up.
I am neither your girlfriend
Nor your boyfriend.
I am your lover.
I whisper
Some three words
To your ear
With a low voice.
And when you anger me
I tell you to *******
In a higher pitch.
I am neither a She
Nor a He.
I am human, only.


F.Z.**N

Love is a butterfly
That looks beautiful
From afar.
It's wild, it's free,
It's undoubtedly happy.
Some try to catch it,
Others simply watch it.
And I, like the rest
Was curious.
Perhaps too curious
For my own good.

Love is a butterfly
That looks beautiful
From afar
Though ugly
Very ugly
When you get too close,
Believe me.


F.Z.**N

If I had been born without a heart
I would have still fallen in love with you.


F.Z.**N

I am not for him
For he has her
And I am not for you
For you have her.

I am for loneliness
For she has me,
For I have her
And we have each other.


F.Z.**N

Blank are your eyes
when you look in the sun
and pretend you're alive.


F.Z.**N