My safe haven-
The only place where whispers are as loud as screams,
and screams fade into echo’s.
Where there is no difference between the good and the bad,
Only the human.
And voices litter every single surface,
Telling me to do things I know I shouldn’t.

My safe haven-
A place that is full of mistakes
And terrible ideas.
(But that’s what makes up life, right?)
Yet, I still feel more like myself here,
Than I do out there.

My own personal safe haven-
A place like heaven,
Could also be like hell.
A place where angels are demons,
And demons are angels.
The only place where I can truly be myself-
For once and for all.

BEHIND THE BIG SMILE..

There is this place in me,
Whose door is tightly shut
But strangers still trespass
Without a key nor a polite knock
Some stay, others bang the door dashing out.

There is this place in me,
Where you can touch
Without stretching your hand
Where you can draw your face
With no pen or ink..

There is this place in my heart
Where footsteps don’t fade
And memories stick like glue...
Where whispers feel like echoes.

There is this place in me,
Where pain and pleasure mix
Where walls seem concrete
Only from a distance...
But can tremble and crash
At a finger's touch!

There is such a place
Inside most of us
Have you been there?


It’s warm and safe
But those who we let inside
Tear and scatter it to pieces
Leaving it cold, scared and scarred!
Yet we cover it
With a smile or a laugh
Oh yes! there is such a place
Behind my smile.




(October 11, 2012 at 7:27am)

This life I have, it seems so long
Keep pushing, I have to stay strong
This life I have, it seems so short
Don't give up, it's the last resort

While lying in my dark abyss,
I see a sky of happiness
Finally at peace, for what it seems
Then I awake, from only dreams

What's the purpose, why am I here?
To live with pain,  die with a tear?
No.
Life is too long, to live with pain
Life is too short, to waste on rain.

All memories are filled with pain
Making cloudy eyes dark with rain
The happy times are missed dearly
Sadness remembered oh so clearly...

Hanging six feet off the ground
Hanging but without a sound
This is more than just a rope
It's my time machine of hope

rest in peace to the teens
who wore long sleeves all year round
so no one would notice what they have done
rest in peace to the teens who drank and drank
to blur out someones name
rest in peace to the teens who just lit one too many
cigarettes just to fit in
rest in peace to the teens who couldn't make it to 2015