You messaged me today
I listened to what you had to say
My heart didn't hurt
You didn't try to flirt
You apologized to me
And said you'd like to see...
You'd like to see me and catch up
I said okay
I could talk to you today
Is this healing
Because I have no feeling
I have no feelings left for you

Brain, brain go away
Don't want to listen one more day
Already lonely and afraid
Feel insecure and full of shame

Brain, brain don't act this way
You're always angry; Filled with hate
You know we're joined; Can't separate
Yourself your punching in the face

Brain, brain what can I say
To make it so you see things straight
Don't know how much more I can take
Of constant warring and debate

Brain, brain it's getting late
This journey's not some endless race
Life's flying by and at this pace
Forget a win; Not gonna place

Brain, brain let's medicate
I'll feed you drugs and we'll sedate
The only way to mitigate
Discrepancies we generate

Brain, brain we sadly waste
This outcome feels like it was fate
But never was there a sealed date
Fulfilling what we self-create

Brain, brain so much we faced
Success so close could almost taste
Instead our tail we always chased
We'll die alone sad and disgraced

you say that we need this time
and yeah I know you're right
but you know it's gonna be real hard
no hand to hold at night

i know it's now and not forever
but I'm real tired of this cloudy weather
cause the sun don't shine when you're not here
and I miss the feeling of you being near

we cried and embraced and kissed away the tears
you told me that you loved me and that you wouldn't disappear
I told you the same and we hugged away the pain
cause we both know that soon comes better days

bittersweet tears running down my face
I smiled and whispered "it's gonna be okay"
you looked up through your tear filled eyes and whispered
"it's gonna be alright"

She craved only attention
  
  Looks can really ****
      
She overdosed on temptation

   Just a broken soul convinced that her only match is pain

 She falls apart
 
Each piece like a drop of rain

   Rejecting love because she couldn't see its face

   Mentally unstable because she's only been surrounded by inconsistency

Stumbling on false hopes

   Hopelessly holding on to what she wish she had

Running through nobody's mind

      Feeling utterly alone
 
 She's lonely

      Searching for just one dose of relief
 
She melts into her mixed emotions
   
 Drowning in her tears
  
She's losing it

Finding nothing but her wasted time

I wanted to save her
       
    But redemption was way too far

She's irredeemable...

****** my mind
Waste my time

Pull me close
Push me away

Walk into my life
Hastily run away

Show me you are different
Convince me that you are the same

Repair my heart
Tear it apart

I look at the dark side

I expect disappointment

I see that true colors always hide

I fear attachment

I know words always contradicts actions

I have discovered that happiness only turns into sadness

Beautiful clouds hold rain

It's a tragedy waiting to happen

The only way to be saved is to save yourself

I can't be loved if I don't love myself

I never found who I am

So how did I lose myself?

How can something so shallow create depth ?

My mindset is mindless

I have reached my limit

Now I'm boundless

I know my worth

But somehow you made me feel worthless

I was full of energy

But somehow you made me feel drained

So why do I settle for less ?

It's because I'm use to pain ...

It’s easy to smoke the pain away

But its hard when the pain comes back the next day

Everything just be so temporary

That’s why I make my body a sanctuary

I praise my thoughts

I’m in a close relationship with my mind
and today is our anniversary

Sometimes I be feeling so out of place

I be wanting you close to me but I’m so use to space

You could be perfect for me but I would still push you away

Don’t take this personally I’m just so use to pain

I hate this tension but tbh I just be wanting your attention

It just ***** cause my hearts not really attentive

I’m in a bad place mentally

Can you make love to me physically

And spiritually heal me inside

I swear I don’t hate you

I’m just inside my mind...

He is there but nobody sees him
He speaks but no one can hear
He lives his life in confinement
And no one ever comes near.
To watch him He looks rather lonely
He is lost that is perfectly clear.
Once a child in the arms of his mother
And his father would always be near.
But parants don't last forever
And soon they are no longer here
Now there  is nobody out there
To chase away all of his fears.
He walks to his flat he has no one
Loneliness his only friend
Is this what he really lives for
With nothing to show at the end.
Let's start from the very beginning
It happens in this day and age
Take note of this lonely stranger
Invisible in so many ways.

The happiness is short lived
So short lived
I begin to doubt the love
Coming from the universe that made me

One day you’re there
And the next you’re not
But it wouldn’t be honest to say
You’ve broken my heart
I wanted you here to heal
What was already broken
To listen to my thoughts I have left unspoken
I wanted you to be my hero
And I was disappointed when you couldn’t be
But this was so much to ask of you
So I suppose the selfish one is
Me