The other day
I thought to myself
Maybe I am over you
Maybe I am holding on
To feelings that are no longer
Growing on their own

Today
I saw a picture
Of you and a woman
More well-known
Than you could ever dream of being

A week from now
She won't remember you
What you look like
What your voice sounds like
And she doesn't realize
Just how lucky she was
To even learn that today

In a few months
I will see you again
And I can do nothing
But hope
That you will touch me
In a way
That you will never touch her

What I like about naps in the summer
Is the way it doesn't matter
How hot the air is
You still manage to fall asleep
The warm breeze does not cool you
But it feels so friendly
Against your skin

I love the way the birds
Sing a lullaby
That weighs down your eyelids

I love that their song
Is just the smallest bit different
When they raise them back up

I love how you have to wipe back the hair
That now frames your face
Yet your skin feels perfectly dry
And how the heat had built up
Under your chest
But now you finally feel cool

I love how you can sleep for a few minutes
Or even a few hours
And the sun will still be shining when you wake
As if you haven't lost any time

I love the way a glass of water
Is like paradise after a summer nap
A cure for the sleep induced hangover
That's made tolerable by the sun

I love the way it feels
To be born again
Into the same day
And see it with new eyes

Every night
And every morning
I stare at my body
Trying to figure out
Who could possibly love someone
With so much extra

So much extra
That has nowhere to go
But out

I roll over
And see the extra gather
Who could love that?
Not I, not anyone

Less is more
I'm not asking to be the most
I'll eat less to be less
Not realizing that I'm blessed
With a body that works
And does what I ask of it

It just isn't pretty enough for me

Facebook told me
You were listening to Lies
on Spotify

So was I

Darling, it is not
Our time and it
Never will be. we are
Two people who will forever be in

Love but will never sacrifice
Enough to be
Together

Maybe it is better this way
Even if it hurts us so

Go on, darling. i will be
Okay. i promise.

A year and a half ago
(and an extra 15 days)
I let you go
(Forced you out of my life)
Because it hurt too much to hold on

You were never good enough for me
I let you beat me
(You didn't give me that much attention)
and blamed myself for giving you the bat

(One month short of)
A year and a half later
You asked for a second chance
Said, "I will make this work"

I told you I wouldn't try
I didn't care enough
(I cared too much)
and the job was solely yours

For a few days you gave it your all
Asking me about what it is you've been missing
(More than I care to tell you)
Acting like the man you never grew up to be

Now it's been a month
Since the last time I heard from you
(Not that I'm counting)

Maybe you finally realized that someone
As wonderful as me
(See: Things I Should Tell Myself)
Will never waste her time
On someone as awful as you
(You'd cry if I said this to you)

Sometimes Life gets hard
Too difficult to handle
At which time
We must remember to be thankful

This morning, I am thankful
I am thankful for my alarm clock
Reminding me that time
Never slows down

I am thankful for my bed
Reminding me that there is always
Something to look forward to

I am thankful for my empty phone screen
Reminding me that it's okay
To not be needed for a night

I am thankful for the breakouts on my face
Reminding me that sometimes things get worse
And I am thankful for the tan lines on my back
Reminding me that things will also get better

I am thankful for the day ahead
Filled with struggle
And a high chance of failure
Reminding me that these days
Are the ones that build us up
Even though it feels as though
They are tearing us down