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E Copeland Sep 2015
she will tell you that
rejection tastes of
saltwater and stale smoke

it looks like mascara rivers
running towards her throat

it sounds just like deafening silence
of a phone that doesn't ring

it feels just like a stab wound,
a never ending sting.

She's used to the emotions
used to all the lies.

She's used to all the fake smile a
from even faker guys.

rejection gets not easier
as time progresses on,
but boils up from within her
until she's not alone.
E Copeland Sep 2015
I can't help but wonder
if I will always belong to my emotions.

How long will I be
a prisoner of my depression?
and at the mercy of my anxiety?
How many days will my thoughts
scream behind clenched teeth
and ring deep in my ears?

When will freedom come?
Will I ever know peace?

This war raging within my skull
seems to be killing me.
E Copeland Sep 2015
When you eat more than you said you would
Forgive yourself
When you accidentally text the boy who broke you
End the conversation
When you get too drunk and kiss someone
Don’t be ashamed
When the pain becomes too great and you slip up with the blade
clean the blood
bandage the wound
and then call your mom.

We are all human

We all mess up

And we can all be redeemed.
E Copeland Aug 2015
JMM
forgive me
I knew not that my actions had consequences
forgive me
I knew not the pain I was causing
forgive me
I knew not how much I needed you
forgive me
I know now I took you for granted
forgive me
I know now that you are part of me
forgive me
I know now how much I cannot live without you
forgive me
I know now that I was wrong
for Jon
E Copeland Aug 2015
and it will always surprise me
that the message which broke my heart
came from my phone
E Copeland Aug 2015
there is a difference in getting butterflies
and the sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach

you gave me the second

you should smile so much your cheeks hurt
not have stress headaches

i was taking 10 ibuprofen each day

the future should be exciting and full of possibilities

but with you, every coming day terrified me

i'm sorry i didn't realize earlier
how much i was hurting you
or how much you were hurting me

i'm sorry i fell out of love with you
but i'm more sorry
that i couldn't save you from yourself
E Copeland Aug 2015
you are like an old book
one of my favorites
every once in a while, I need your comfort
I need to feel your creases
smell your smell
hear your words
but it always ends the same
and I know that
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