In my ears, Music
I memorize
every note, phrase, word
and play it over and over
again in my head
followed with some picture
that helps me to remember
the next soaring melody
or simple pattern
I memorize music, the same way
I memorize the patterns of your
face and presence
I measure each facet
every shadow
every line
every phrase you inhale
and every note you exhale
lyrical is your voice
on the air, which seems to stall in our
intense conversation
and tense, but warm, moments
of stillness
where there is connection
between our
eyes
but no movement in our bodies
except maybe the pounding
of our own hearts
I do memorize you, like a song itself
wishing I could somehow
transcribe your very being
to paper and carry you
close to myself, or inside a book
of poetry.
I realize,
e.e cummings said it best;
I carry your heart with me,
I carry it in my heart
I am never without it
anywhere you go, I go my dear
and just like that song, I learned,
lord, who knows how long ago
You
are already somehow etched
within those lyrics
and are inscribed in my own memory.
For in my ears, Music
I memorize
and in my heart,
somehow,
You, as well.