I’m missing you for so long
I hear your voice in a song
I don’t know what is wrong
The radio is playing along
I thought our love is strong
But we just don’t belong;
This pain we can’t prolong
So we should say “so long”

The pain wasn't evident
When you queued;
Nor discernible
When you extended a hand.
Your frayed coat needed attention,
Your legs bowed in the wrong direction
As you moved, frog-like.
I never recognized the shame
Behind ribbons you wore;
An imperceptible guilt
For lack of control.
But your eyes,
Downcast or averted,
Tried hiding the despondency
I once witnessed
In a naked girl,
Running,
On fire.

Maybe she doesn't
Maybe she does
It
Doesn't
Matter
Because he does
And
I do
So we aren't.

Don't tell me
I'm home
when you do not
lie on the bed
that
holds these
tired bones at night.
Don't say a word,
if the love we made
does not fill the
space we found.
Is some ache
endless?
Will you let me
tear down the walls
you built around
us?
Will you set me
free again?
I am only home
if you are here,
not a moment
before.
Please don't
tell me
this is home
until you hang
your running shoes
outside this door.

I just do.
Because I don't have another way.
My daughter needs a strong mommy
And so I fight these battles every day.
I do what I do because
My mom never did for me
I wasn't a good enough reason
For her to be happy.
I didn't make her smile enough
For her to love me over men
And I'd always give her another chance
Hoping each time would be different.
She was notorious for the best promises
She really had some good ideas
But she was too depressed to leave her room
So we never did any of those things.
I always wanted to know what it was like
To have a mother who would do anything for me
But she always wanted to know what it was like
To leave this life and be set free.

High breed they've said
They just don't know how often we've prayed
Our knee was so severely wounded
Pleading Him to erase this delusions' that we've been bounded

Lunatic! They've always called us
Pushing ourselves to wished to be among with the  dust
The crazies' they've said making fun of us
Now we don't know whom do we trust

We tried to live in a masks
But to no avail still our head been crashed
Now' we live in a cage like an animal
Away from home' near to suicidal

High breed they've said again
Instead of helping they don't want us to  begin
We are like a child being bullied
Their thumping words trained us to be stupid

Though some giving us good words' for our hearts be encourage
But don't make any difference now' we are very deeply engaged
Lunatic' crazy' high breed' why just broke our hearts?
If you can please! just tear our body and soul apart...


written: August 19, 2014 - 7:30 am

mysterious aries

Thankfully my brother didn't surrender his life
I really don't know what to say to his daughter and wife
That event brought me here
My mother love me, but can't now keep me near

I was often silenced at first
Almost rejecting everything that will keep my pulse
Food, water, medication if only i can reject air
To make an end to this head that was so unclear

I saw a lot of me here
I know how hard for them too
Some are losing hope
Others not giving up trying to cope

To then i remember the pages that i've wrote
Most are poetry that are giving hope
I miss that passion and that feeling
Giving me a reason to fast track my healing

Now I have a reason to be alive and not to be dead
All I want now is to keep my body this head
I will be free soon and fly like a balloon
And I will write a poetry about the shining moon

"Come let's make love" those nymphs voices again
"Join us praise satan our god" that demon shows begin
"No let's go to heaven and sing" what an angelical voice
"Hey let's play" clowns giving me a wonderful toy

"No, No, Never..." I told them "for now i'm such a big boy"
"Come let's write a story" a dead poet say
I followed him so quickly
And we began to write ...... an unknown poetry......

written: august 5, 2014 at 11:00 pm PH time

Mysterious Aries

Things haven’t got better
Those clowns turned into a ghost and beside me seems they were forever
I’ve started smoking, taking marijuana and *******
Might help me get out from those faces that really haunt my brain

I’ve drunk a lot of wine for them to my head be lost
Relieve me for a while but really I’m getting worst
Lately I've realized that I did have this cursed
My head can’t take it anymore seems going to burst

This is not what I crave
But to the stars might be already been engraved
A fate that no one could ever delete
I am so very wrong thinking that I belonged to the elite

They’re coming in numbers pushing me to the edge
I ended up looking for a gun… a rope… a blade…


written: July 31, 2014 @ 7:00 pm PH Time

Mysterious Aries