Hurt - Hello Poetry

Oct 2015

ThoughtsofaYoungAdult

We going out
Skin tight dress
Red lipstick
4inch heels
Dj play my favorite song
I wanna forget him tonight
Girls we all do this
Put on the uniform of the night
Make a statement that you’re fine
Single looks good on you, right?
Give the next victim the **** me eyes
Get high off that vibe
Buzzin’ from the liquor
The memory of his face gets a little hazy
It’s easier to move when you’re numb
Let your body talk
Tell your heart to “shut the **** up”
This is the merry-go-round we never get off
Going from lip-lock to lip-lock
Running from the fire slowly engulfing your skin
Burn marks left in the shape of his fingertips
Up all night trying to escape from the emptiness you call your bed
All it’s got you thinking about how he use to be so tangled up in it
Legs intertwined- two bodies becoming one
Forever reaching newer highs
So now you’re coming down
Just trying to hold on for the night
Pour another drink
Take another shot
Get a little crazy
Find a new ****
Start a new train wreck to add to the chopping block
You always wonder how you end up like this
But never take the time handle your ****
Jumping from one relationship to the next
You’ll never find love like this
Feeling the dude who is just trying to ****
Then turn around and wonder why you have such ****** luck
Maybe it’s time to get it together
Act like someone worth more than this
Forget the dress
Forget the lipstick
Forget the liquor
Feel the pain
and move the **** on

#heartbreak #pain #alcohol #thoughts #night #boys #girls #*** #party #fuckboys

Oct 2015

Andie May ostrander

hey

Write me a poem like I have written you
so many times before
tow thousand or just three

Oct 2015

Gudden

12th ocotber 2015

I lost my everything forever,
And my everything is not even concerned about it...

My illness, he's aware of,
Maybe waiting for me to recover and as usual to say him a sorry..

That glory, oh my dearest,
This time, would not return...

This time my love,
You gave me a deeper burn...

Heal me soon, heal.me now..
Before I be long gone...

I messed up everything after that..
Am sorry dear for that...

You apologized me so many times then,
I had been angry when...
I said you things so many - so bad...
I'm afraid to ask for forgiveness, for since horrible my behavior had...

Come and heal me...
Am A patient, dear deal me..

You are my life, you are my G.B.
And am nothing alone, all that is- are we..

My bipolar nature created a dispute again, am sorry for it, had no intentions to, couldn't help it out... Am so bad that I can't even control my emotions... I ruined everything, I ruined so many people with my words... Am tired of having apologizing over and over again... Am tired of all this... My friends, you are aware about it, but now I have chosen the solitaire path, but I really do beg to be around you guys ( especially him), but I know I would do something stupid in my extremes, and I'll end up hurting you all...

I can't be so bad at you guys... And as promised, I won't pop up anywhere...

Oct 2015

Gudden

Hug of ****

When I recall about the special lock,
Your hands, curled around my waist,
When biting my nose, you used to mock,
" I'll eat your cute little nose someday in haste"

I die within..

Oct 2015

Andie May ostrander

Plan

If I needed you one more moment
could you take it, could you own it
would you stay rite hear beside me
promise me that you love me
Take me as I come
take me like I'll go
Know that once your hear
it'll will be hard to let you go
I don't need no one night stand
I don't need no alibi
I need someone who is real
to keep me sain
So dear don't leave me when im down hold me up, when I don't know how  if I said I loved you would make a difference would you know just what to do or would you run like the ones before you
I don't need no one night stand
No I need someone who will hold my hand
And  if you not
and you cant stay
leave before my heart starts to break
Because if you don't I'll come back
but my dad doesn't really want to bail me out of jail again so do me a favor if you pleas if you don't plan on staying then just leave

#love #heart #true #the #burns

Oct 2015

Andie May ostrander

That *****

Beer bottles thrown on broken walls
Your children hide as you try to crawl
hes made you a sheep
to afraid to stand up
Your children are to young
so they shut up
How can you tell your children everyday before school
To believe in themselves when everyone seems cruel
How do you look them in the eyes without getting sick
Because when you tell them good bye you have to put up with that *****
When the nurse asks you tell them to lie
when it was him who gave you that black eye
And they are to young but they understand
That if their mother puts up
Its ok not to raise a hand
Your daughter will grow up thinking that its all rite
to have your husband beet you up almost every night
And have your children cry out for their mother
but because she has a fat lip
they get no answer
That its ok to curl up in the middle of the floor
after he's said he wont hit you no more
And because you let them see what happened your daughter will grow up
to expect it to happen
so stop what your doing and open your eyes
your children lurn by the look in your eyes
if you were a mother and a good one at that
when he first punched you, you would have called it that
left with your children and said your good byes
but no your children fall asleep to your cry's at night

#love #hate #pain #death #hope #good #mother #daughter #bye #crys

Oct 2015

Andie May ostrander

You'll part one

Sometimes I wish someone would come along
and brake my heart so bad
I couldn't feel no more
If your going to hurt me make it the last time for real
don't promise me that you'll stay and treat my heart just pore
don't give me something to say im yours and treat me like a joke
I know you don't like drama
so what was the point
you meet me while I cried
your eyes numbed pain like a joint
but as I thought I was ok
and I had someone to hug
you looked at me and walked away
like I was acting smug

If you would like to read part #2 then pleas share re-post or like Ill be uploading it soon so let me know follow to see Part #2

#love #heart #pain #death #partone

Sep 2015

Andie May ostrander

roas

Pleas understand that this is not a good bye
I only wish that we had a little more time
Like star crossed lover only you loved another
I am lft bleeding on the floor
Dear pleas remember me
Don't forget the poesy seeds
My hear burns like ashes yes we al fall down
I don't want to waste any of your time
I'm rowing the bout and were doing just fine
Going gently down the stream
if you loved me life seemed but a dream
You eyes did twinkle like a little star
How I wonder weir you are now
Now I am goon above the clouds so high
Sitting beside the moon like a diamond in the sky
I still wonder what you are as my memory fades so far

Sep 2015

Andie May ostrander

River Bend.....

One more day is all that I ask
I just want to see the sun set before I pass
The light as it plays off of the river bend
This is weir I want to be burred in the end
Take my hand now mother pleas don't cry
Tell our family that it ends tonight
Pleas tell them that I am going home
and someday we will meet again
I want to go to the river bend tonight
hear the nightingale sing as I look up at the sky
Mother tell Father that I am ok
I will love you both forever and always
I want to go to the river bend
Lay me down to rest
pleas don't levee me till I've breathed my last
And sing the songs of ages past
I am gone to the place weir angels rest
Mother tell my brothers that it is all rite
I don't fear my death a little tonight
I want to pass at the rivers bend
Because as the sun sets and the colors are bright
maybe the angels will find me all rite

#love #life #death #hope #color #angels #river #pass #bend #becaue

Sep 2015

Andie May ostrander

Crying in the rain for something real

I cry in the shower
so you cant hear how sad I am
I hide behind the door to my room
so you don't see how much of a mess I am
I do all these things so you don't have to worry
I cry all alone because I don't want to bee week
Tired of the hateful words kids speak
I cried out to God or whoever was listening
that they would take my life as I cried awake at nigh
I don't expect you to know this
so it might surprise you
that when I smiled I was rely trying
when I laughed I just tried to bare it
Because even thou I hate the world
I love you
and I could never put you threw that
Even when you left me, and asked me to still be friends
I grinned and bared it
That was the first night that I really cried for something real
Don't worry I've lived this long I can deal

#love #worry #pain #death #cried #lost #real #night #dont #lefthate

Sep 2015

Arlo Disarray

when i die

i hope that when i die,
you're out there laughing
somewhere a thousand miles away from me
and that the air is fresh like the scent of wildflowers
with a chorus of songs playing from all the birds in the trees

i hope i die while you're reading your favorite book, during the part you always used to get so excited to quote
and that the light is just right
so it doesn't strain your eyes
in a place that is not too silent,
but quiet enough to enjoy the sound of each page as it turns

i hope i die in a plane crash
as it spirals from the sky to the sea
because flying and drowning are the two things i fear more than anything
i hope it makes a sound loud enough that you can hear it in the
distance, just enough to make you look up
but not enough to tear you away from your activities

i hope when i die,
i die slowly
so i have enough time to enjoy the pain, and recapture every moment in my brain
that involved you

#love #death #drowning #books #planecrash

Sep 2015

Andie May ostrander

Hey read this, ya you on the computr, It'll be fun!

Now I feel like I need to bring something up
and it might be hard to stomach
Just sit back and shut your ******* mouth....

Your kids are slitting up their wrist because they've had enough of this
so how about you get your head out of your ***
Kids are dying in the street getting pumped full of led
Because you asked them to pick up your daily dose of ******

I understand if you want to report this but theirs one thing that I would like to say
From me to you :).....

"*******, **** your life your all ******* *** wholes! I hope you all ******* rot!
~Thanks :)

#love #drugs #****** #hope #but #kids #care #shot #cussing #hte