Tell me I'm 'gonna be fine
And this world won't leave me behind
That my sins will be forgiven
And the world will forget my crimes
They won't look at me like an animal
And my dreams wouldn't remind
That all the rage in my bones
Waits inside quietly
And be a reason for their demise
Tell me , I won't be forgotten
And that I'll be human once again in time
That my emptiness will let go
And the rage in my bones won't unwind
And punch the world on its face
For what it makes me do
And I'll fade away less sinister
And be oblivious of all the pain I once knew
Blood-stained hands to be washed in asphalt
Hiding the cold stare of the eyes
And I'll be left alone in my head
No ones 'gonna be lured by my smile
Because all it takes for the beast to get awake
Is a slight push on the friction less road
And when it's up and engaged
You won't be safe with your stick and stones
And all that it'll take to start the fire
Will be the rage in my bones
Tell me I'll forget the taste of the blood
That I thirst for every night
And I'll let go of all the demons
That've trapped me with their might
they infect me with their anger
Till I kneel down and oblige
Cut off all the sanity I have
They've broken into the home where I hide
They douse me with their love
ignite me with their hate
try to put it out When it grows out of control
But by than its too late
And I burn in the fire  of anger
With hate in my heart I'll be reborn
Made up of death and destruction
And rage in my bones

Chained and ignored kept in a white room
Away from the glaring eyes that smile
Locked away in my own gloom
They expect me to be fine
No sharp blades , all i have now are my teeth
I bite once more in a hope it'll start to bleed
I'll buy my own collection of self-harm
Once I'm freed
For the scars are a reminder
Of a time mellowed down and sweet
Thrice a day they feed me
Like i care about hunger anymore
Man , I'm always thirsty
Never been so cold and alone
All i have for distraction
Are a few skeletons and some ghosts
Nightmares for our entertainment
But I'm a terrible host
I feed them nothing but my pain
A dose too strong
They've been acting strange
We can't be friends for long
They no longer sing for me
Don't listen to my songs
Once I'm out of here
I won't bring them along
I draw on these white walls
They think its just hate
But inside those mangled bodies
There's a masterpiece i make
I don't sleep much
But again I'm never awake
I'm all empty now
How much more will they take
My sanity hurts now
No longer can i fake
I'm just a little deranged
Not a killer for gods sake
The ink is empty now
But i still have some blood left
I have so many tears too
And I've never wept
Keep it all on the inside
Whispers my (janitor) nurse
Soon you'll be alright
We'll break that curse
But I've always been on pills , i protest
What are some more 'gonna achieve
You want me to learn and forget
But I'm so far now , i can't be reached
I'm so happy in my own head
You want me to get out
Don't force that needle in me
I'm 'gonna scream and shout
No ones 'gonna hear a rant
I'm not stupid , i know
But i may **** someone
So sometimes i just have to let go
And get it all on the outside
Every word that haunts my soul
I'm cut , scarred and hurt
I'm never 'gonna be whole , i know
I don't claim to be insane
This is how i am , always been
I know they have always been scared
Of things they haven't seen
Maybe my reality is too weird
But they can't take away my dreams
My imagination is my reality
Hallucinations my queen
My world is confined in walls
Whitewashed every day
There's a door but locked
No window to tell night from day
they expect me to wait for the sunrise
Keep an eye at the horizon
Gave me enough hope and faith
Now i just want to shoot down the sun
Break these walls with hate
I want to paint the world black
Give them a glimpse of my hate
a piece of my psychological rehab.

As the sun begin to rise and the stars appear to fade
Her voice echoed in the fog , calling for a dark shade
She was dressed in white , purest of them all
Men and beast alike , she was lost in the fog
As she walked through the forest , the birds begin to sing
The flowers bloomed like never before and the trees started to swing
The forest came alive , from the presence of something dead
As she made her way through the forest , in search of one last breath
Her heart was full of sorrow and her mind was full of pain
As she walked through the gallows , in search of a forgotten name
The sun was slowly rising high and the fog begin to disappear
Frightened as she was , as calm she appeared
She closed her eyes and the tears begin to fall
Nurturing the land beneath , watering the small
Her hands reached out for someone , something to hold her back
But all she received in return was with black
She had brought along all she had and all she knew
She kept moving and the pain grew
She walked on and on , inside the deepest and the darkest of the wilderness
Her own darkness reflected upon the place
And now it was too dark to remember the face
Even the sun Coudnt penetrate the place she stood
And the birds stopped singing as if they understood
The flowers started losing the colours , as if mourning her cause
And everything stood still , so quite engulfed in the fog
Her legs stopped moving and she reached a Brooke
Shimmering in the dark , as she took a look
She looked down , deep inside the nothingness
All she could see was herself in the darkness
As she stepped inside , it started turning red
Bleeding like she always bled
And Ina moment it was all gone into a little of nothingness
She was covered in black , surrounded by darkness
And for the first time she was at peace
The sweet dreams were over and the nightmares would cease
She could see the sun , as she drifted away, slowly enlighting the world above
As she finally let herself go , in the name of love
She knew it'll be waiting on the otherside with open arms
And she was cold no more , she was at peace , so calm
Though she is gone , the forest can still feel her walk
But her tale is forgotten , lost in the fog

You don't have to be someone else than who you are,
There're so many people out there trying to fit in
Good and the bad, all different corners of your heart
You won't ever be satisfied if you're not comfartable in your own skin

__________


My gears run in the opposite direction, they say I'm just a sucker for the right connections,
stare at me long enough and it's gonna' be a fatal attraction, confessions, spilling out faster than i can mention that i am a *******' slave to the latest inventions,
no harm in livin' your life like it's gonna' end in a second, pay heed to the temptations spreading out like an infection,
eats you inside and out, there was never gonna' be a question if i pay them sinners for my own destruction,
and all is lost and buried after the eruption,
corrupting my soul as i **** another door to make amendments, but my intentions are rockin' a ******* *******
separating the core and mixing it with what you're told and givin' a new complexion
and you're not 'gonna stop till you can be the source of their affection, no reflection of who you are,you're just a projection of all the things they perceive as imperfection,
and you'll make it an obsession and won't even object when they seal the deal with your objection,
It's never gonna' be enough,you'll never be able to get their attention, get recognition the way you are, they're always 'gonna be one step away from redemption,
and you're always gonna' be a step too close to taste their aggression, and you'll never be the master of your own actions, unless you can find a source to your own expressions,
tension in the atmosphere, every moment will feel like a nightmare until you can find the right connections,
and be done with the visual perceptions, failing to realise, lies they feed you and take you to the point of intersection of their deception,
and don't be too sad if you face rejection, 'cause the society is 'gonna keep putting pressure and give you all the instructions to function
and there's gonna' be no satisfaction unless you break out, shout out loud, tell them all about how beautiful it is to dysfunction

A broken road beneath a broken sky
A gust of wind that misses the eyes
An old man sings of hope in the shadow
Just before he's struck by lightning and dies

Storm's angry on the world it rules
Rain falls down ******* sand dunes
A lone traveller searching for refuge
Lost inside quicksand thats induced

And a layer of snow befalls a town
wrath of the gods brings blizzard all around
The homeless who searched for home  all night
In the morning his frozen body Is found

Rage of the ocean kisses a boat
A tale  of terror did unfold
Mother said he was fresh , only a year old
The kid was butchered and his meat was sold

As the earth shook beneath their feet
He had just fallen asleep
The beggar on the road could hardly breath
As he was crushed on the main street

For his life he made a run
But the beast was fast and he was outdone
He was cold and he was numb
It's the beast fault , he was just having some fun

They Say it's a deadly cliff
Cursed by some evil witch
and when a man ends his life
They say its the cliff that killed

Neatly laid  garbage crumbs
All around the place , systematically dumped
And when the outbreak hits someone
They say it's the insecsts and we need a gun

Stories from around the world
Different people but the same words
Oh , mother nature don't you care
People are dying everywhere

Stories from around the world
Scratch the surface and see the dirt
Oh , mother nature don't you care
People are dying everywhere

Words are hard to come by,
As i sit alone in my memories
Maybe, it's all gone from my eyes
But it's all i have left to see
It howls through the ashes,
As the fumes burn my skin
Walking through these broken doors
But there's nothing left within
Faces forgotten and gone,
But voices will never leave
I hear it when I'm alone,
It hurts sometimes when i bleed
An ocean of sun-rise,
A tear drop be made in sea
Taste the saline fume
And let this world be
To an unknown land,
Take my hand and disappear
Through this madness
A new age will appear

Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard


It's too lost to be old,
Where i once buried my tears
The long walk to home,
Left behind so many years

Now i wake beneath the sky,
And i can see it haven't changed
Where horizon meets our lies
Sun is hidden behind our stains

To be made into ashes,
Sulphur fumes still burn the skin
Black mass that won't return
As I inhale the smoke in

To be left in moments
Too slow to reach the end
I will end up just like you
To be yours forever my friend

And i'll leave nothing behind
What have I to call mine?
These winds won't leave a sign,
Of the old rotten time


Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard


Ice falls in the ocean,
To be made into a sea
We conquered the mountains
But we could never see
What lies beyond the horizon
Where sky meets our lies
depths of the known someone
Reflecting from our eyes
In the clear of the dawn
We shall meet our demise
Too afraid of the dark,
Another night shall rise
Ever beating of a ghost heart,
Against the sound of age
curtains will burn to the ground
And our echo will fade
All there will be left,
Will be a bag full of regret
Magic will turn to dust
And all the illusions will be bled


Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard

"Forgive me o' father for I'm about to  sin"
Said the shadow with a grin
Just outside the gates of the holy
Standing with all the black he could bring

Infinite night stretching across the sky
Immersing one and all forever in its shade
One shade too dark , the shadow
Laughing and howling outside his holy gates

"Where at the light o' father
Look what has night done to me
Turned me into a ghost
Upon your throne you couldn't see"

"Your kingdom is in ruins
Yet you want us to have faith "
As he ignites the torch with his blood
"Now there's nothing but hate "

Nightly creatures are summoned for the ceremony
From the remotest and the darkest towns
Where who ever dared to wander ,
Was never found  

"You made this army of monsters
For you're the one who creates
Turned us all into a night-mare
And expected us to be saints "

"We might not be saints
But we do preach love ,
Love for you o' father
We have nothing but love"

"We'll love you with our blades
Sharpness will define its reasons
We'll paint you with hate
Hang you for your treason "

"For you left us when we needed you
Who said you couldn't sin
Forgot us , when we prayed to you
Who says we can't sin "

With an evil smile he lets go of the torch
'burn with all my darkness'
Taste the flames of my pain
While you beg for forgive-ness

You are the reason for your demise
We are nothing but a vessel
We gave it our all , we did fight
But you never heard our message

"where were you gone o' father"
Too engrossed in your own praise
As the world burned and suffered
You only cared about the ones who prayed

Rewarded the beautiful daughter with a **** ,
Faithful wife with nothing but hate
But your son understands you,
For He'll love you with with a blade

"Without you o' my dearest father
We might have a chance at paradise"
Said the shadow in a whisper
With nothing but rage in his eyes

"we'll break those gates down o' father,
utopia for all"
Screamed the shadow once again
Just as angels begin to fall

"welcome o' brother and sisters,
isn't it a beautiful day ?"
Smiled the shadow on the dying breed
"sad , you couldn't stay"

"o' father bless my kin with all your love
For they need it for what's about to come
No longer will they rule the skies
Ignoring all , serving but a few chosen ones "

"you were never our father ,
We were nothing but slaves
Now look around you o' father
There's no one who you can save"

As the fire raged on ,
He could see the world awake to its chaos
"o' father you can hear me now "
Said the shadow somewhat lost

"o' father i will miss you , i wont deny
you made me feel less alone
And I'll let these gates stand once you're gone
To remind the world of your existence and your sacrifice
But your rule is over now and you have to die "  

With that there was darkness no more
As the fire brought day to the world
'we are free , we are free' they cheered
And a new season began to unfurl


His Rage has consumed both of them,
'god is dead , god is dead' whispered every meadow  
Gates were still standing tall and
On the burnt throne were the ashes of his shadow

Hey pretty girl , what's your story ?
Whats up with the tears that trickles down slowly?
Was pop an addict
Came home drunk late at nights
Beat momma and touched you
Is that whats hidden in your fright
And there was no one
That could help and make it stop
You were just saving momma
The knife in your hand was at fault
And Maybe momma was depressed
Sitting all day by the tv
Watching nothing at all
Staring at the blank screen
Lost in thoughts till nightfall
You just wanted to end her misery
You couldn't live with yourself Knowing she was gone
Waiting for death quietly
You ended that pain , favour or not
But the world did not understand
All those battles Couldn't be fought
She was handcuffed and shamed
And proved guilty in the court
To be hanged till death
Was the verdict on the note
They prayed for her soul
And hoped she would rot
On the day of her calling
The world waited and watched
Prayers were sold
And hatred was bought
As a pretty young girl
Made her way to the noose
The crowd roared in cheer
And smiles were induced
She died hanging
With all the fright in her heart
Hey pretty girl , what's you story ?
No one ever asked..

A silent symphony plays in the background
Soothing the atmosphere of its whispers and tears
There's an aroma of quietness all around
A hint of madness in serenity it bears
Tommorows cease to exist from now on
and can you not hear
Life singing the yesterday's songs
To be lost in the approaching calmness my dear
Time slows down to a halt
Too tired to move and caress the impending doom
And night saves the memory to be kept in a vault
Safe and hidden from the looming gloom
And I lie in ecstasy
a dream I longed to dream
A fading reality
To be erased of all that I've seen
And I recall my oldest friend
A hope that I banished long ago
But it haunts me again in the end
And the hope to feel alive grows
A spark in the embed darkness
Ignites the desires I locked away
And it possess me once again
To let me please my whites and greys
And I bleed of all that poison
That this world and I brew
Letting go of all the answers
That once my soul knew
Slowly but surely
The coldness I nurtured is replaced by the warmth of my sin
And I wonder with peace
What the marrow may bring
And I dream away my life
As I exhale my last precious breath
Forever lost in my sweet dream
into the approaching beautiful death

I'm not 'gonna talk about suicide because it's a ****** thing to do
I know life is pretty hard as it is but again I won't put the blame on you

I know you're not stupid, maybe I am
I scream at you so much but you just don't understand
What is your reason, oh you sad sad man
I know you're not a coward but again I know you can't take a stand

They told me that I was wierd and in the mirror they could see a creep
I put it all on myself and with bleeding wrists I did weep
And than I took a noose and made sure it wasn't loose
Never bothered with a suicide note, I was struck with blues
And than I died with not a tear in my eyes,
I left every moment just lurking beneath the sky
And than I met God and he told me that I was stupid
And I told him he was the one who burned me with a cupid

And he told me that he had planned for so much more
And I told him why did he not tell me all this before

And he told me, oh child you couldn't see through your blues
So give me all your pain now and i'll put the crown of blame on you

"you're no fool but again you were never wise ,
Bad things happen to good people and that was the reason of your demise"

"and if you had waited till sunrise you could have seen the smoke clear
Couldn't you just watch breaking bad and all that **** and waited a few years my dear"

-but god, all I did was to just die, what's all the fuss about, that I didn't try ?
I tried but I failed and than I failed again without even trying,
My life was nothing but a joke and the world around me was dying

Enough screamed the god " I am god   and I crown you as a fool, I don't need a reason, I have all the universe to rule,
I don't have to argue with you punk, oh you emo kids think you're all so cool!"

"i'll make sure you're never re-born again , i'll put it up with my crew"


-what did I do to desreve this wrath of yours,  you never lent me a blanket when I was feeling cold,
'he will help you' 'he's always here for you', I was always told ,
But now I can see you are not what you were , man look at those wrinkles you've grown old

Shut up for godsake screamed the god

-you raised me in a broken home, dad was drunk, mamma a *****
I was ***** when I was four, do I need say more?
Where were you when I was popping those pills,
When daddy died and mamma didn't come home still,
I had to work my *** off when I was six to pay the bills
And I knew my chances of making out were nil

-in short it was going perfectly fine and I took that as a good sign,
And than you introduced me to a girl out of the blues
I knew than I was in love but I tried so hard(failed) to refuse
But you had to show you're 'godness' ,now didn't you?
Why did you land me a better job, who told you to?
Made me think I was a better man when I was with her,
And I could see a smile forming when I  looked in the mirror.


Are you done yet ?


-and than BOOM! , OUT OF NOWHERE you had to give her that stupid silver screen cancer,
Doctors have her two years to live but in only 2 months something killed her!


-now tell me god , what more did you had in store for me ?








God: "are you marilyn Lucas?, I have a feeling that I may be wrong"









- err, no I'm jack bundy, what the **** is going on?









"oh, i'm so sorry, it seems like my crew made a big mistake,
You can collect your token from the stands and proceed to the heavens gates"








"what ? , was it all a test ? "










"Hahah, this one is on the house"






Awkward silence





*to the crew,
"we 'gotta stop the suicides, it's becoming too confusing,
Who goes to heaven, who goes to hell ,  it's very time consuming"




I told you I wasn't 'gonna talk about suicide because it's a ****** thing to do

NOTE: this is a surreal story I'm attempting to write in a disguise of a children's tale but progressively with a darker undertone to it, I want to create a magical but yet confusion world where things don't make sense and then try to decode it, I'm afraid I might lose interest once again if I don't get the motivation, inspiration and right amount of critics to guide me, thank you. ( beginnings are always boring but keep your eyes open)

'THE SOMEWHERE LAND'


{ prologue }

Mister Simons was an old man of eighty four,
A very peculiar personality-
Hung his own impending obituary by the blue door.
He was having these visions lately;
A fat man beating him with his own cane outside the local store,
He wondered if it was merely a dream or if that had happened before.
Quiet frankly, he didn't remember much about his past anymore.
It's fair to say it happens to most of us when we grow old.
He lived at the end of the street,
By a house that was burned to the ground when he was only four.
Some say it is haunted,
Others say ghosts don't exist in the age of modern science anymore.
Whatever the case is-
It's clear that mister Simons never had any problem with his neighbor.
Though one time he did complain about someone breaking his mirror-
But that's maybe the work of mischievous kids living down the street.
They always cause trouble for him with many ***** deeds,
That's why mister Simons respectfully filed a case against them-
But lost and could never make them leave.
There is also a rumored dog that lives in his house but no one has heard or seen him in a while.
Some speculate that he has died.
Though, mister Simons is sometimes caught buying dog food at the local grocery store,
The one's who think mister Simons dog is just an old fancy myth say-
It's him for who it is for.
That's a very nasty charge against mister Simons-
But no one can ever dare to ask him.
Only once in the neighborhood history someone tried to approach mister Simons,
But off-course, he didn't let him in.
Mister Simons has a few problems of his own,
A few plants have began to sprout out of his skin.
He has an allergy to flowers,
so he daily shaves them off from within.
Miss molly down the lane is the only one to have ever spoken to him-
And claims she saw him grin.
Some say it was just a trick of light-
Others have a more horrid view and claim she is lying,
And she'll go to hell for this sin.
Mister Simons father built that house around the time he was born,
No one's really sure of who he is because everyone came there after-
A construction company started building homes.
There are stories that unicorns and dinosaurs roamed the land-
They were on a friendly terms with mister Simons,
Since he was the only man-
But the construction company men killed them one by one and it was real ugly.
They said it doesn't makes up for an ideal place to raise a family.
Some say mister Simons retreated in the deepest corner inside of him-
After this tragedy.
Others say it's all a lie and there is no construction company in reality.
Those houses were made by little magical dwarfs,
Who have been cursed by the evil witch to provide comfortable homes to humanity.
She eats their babies if they don't comply with the curse-
So, they'll keep on building and serving humans till eternity.
It's a topic of much debate amongst the residents of this street,
No one is really sure of where the other end of their street leads.
It's barricaded by mister Simons house at one corner,
And the screaming lake at the other end.
The history of the lake is also as much in speculation as mister Simons himself.
Some say it was made by the tears of mister Simons,
As he watched the men slaughter his friends and couldn't help.
Others say it was made by the tears of mister Simons,
When he watched his father die in a drought with a thirst he couldn't quell.
One can hear the screams in the dead of every other night,
It is speculated by some that the screams are of the creatures killed by the men screaming still in fright.
It is very difficult to be precise about who is right,
But one thing is for sure-
The lake makes up for a very beautiful sight.


Chapter: 1 - introduction

[I will be your narrator for the rest of the story,
Guiding you through this wonderful adventure with all of its-
Heart-break and glory.]


--

Everything in somewhere land had always been a little strange as far as I could tell,
The lamp-posts by the streets seemed like they were carved out of trees but weren't exactly wood but something entirely else.
Every house except mister Simons house was a bit too pointy in my opinion and were smaller than the other houses I've ever had been in.
It rained everyday sharply at 3'o clock in the daytime and again 3'o clock in the night-time.
The strangest of all were the residents of this peculiar street,
There were ten houses, four of them on one side and four of them on the other side and then there was mister Simons house at the end of the street right next to the burned haunted house.

Mister Richard and misses Molly lived with their only son svain in the house with the placard no. 1 at the beginning of the street. Mister Richard was big and bulky with black hair and blue eyes, he had a very simple face - the kind you can't recognize when you haven't met that person for a long period of time. He was the manager at the local grocery store and proud owner of a brand new double rocket tractor.
Misses Molly too had black hair and blue eyes, she was even taller than her husband and very pale. She was a very beautiful lady with an aura of sophistication around her but was very polite. Oh.. And she didn't knew how to cook.
Svain was an 12 year old with black hair and blue eyes. he wasn't that tall but was skinny which made him look taller than he was. he always wore red color and was moderately popular in school. Some say it was due to the fact he could eat and swim at the same time, an ability passed down generation to generation in his family.

Grandma frey lived with her dog penny in the house with placard no. 2, she was sixty seven years old but looked even older because of a tragic life in which she had to raise twenty children
- one of her own, two from her husband's marriage before, three of her sister who died with her husband when they both ate the poisonous golden plant at the superficial forest, four more were adopted when she took a trip to afro-icca, five more were adopted from a church in some other part of the world when she came across their 'take-a-child and help-the-lord' campaign. She also raised six of her children's - children but sadly one of them died when it tried to sing and eat at the same time.


Mister and misses Hailey lived in the house with placard no. 3. They were a family of four completed by their son owkwarld and daughter shinying. Owkwarld was fourteen and was speculated to be a bully at the local school, he was big and fat like all the other bullies ever lived and maintained his diet by stolen lunches. He had blonde hair and dark eyes with some freckles around his nose and always wore a cap no matter how windy it was. Shinying was eleven and tiny and cute and caring. She cared for everyone and was ready to help anyone in need. She too had blonde hair and blue eyes but a milky smooth complexion and always wore a smile on her face no matter how windy it could get. She was also a thief when it came to shiny things.


Mister bubbles and misses soapy lived in the house with placard no. 4, they pretty much kept to themselves. They had no social lives as of yet because they had no children and children are must to have a decent social lives in somewhere land unless you are old, dying or out-going and friendly.


Uncle paperazi lived in the house with the placard no. 5, he had white hair and a white beard, he was thin and always wore a black lab coat. He always kept to himself and made things made of paper - like paper beds and paper tables, paper cushions and paper toothbrushes. He couldn't sell a single item all of these years because they came with no guarantee or warranty whatsoever.


Darc and Ulla were the latest residents of the house with placard no. Six, they moved in after the yolo family left after feeling they weren't really important. Darc was tall and Ulla was short, Darc wore a smile and Ulla wore a frown. Darc had a job and Ulla stayed at home. Darc ate the food and Ulla cooked the food. Darc made jokes and Ulla washed the clothes. Darc was a man and Ulla was a woman.


Cofeetea and barcandy moved to the house with placard no. 7 around the time 'Dracula' was released all across the country with much hype and was proved to be a disaster. Cofeetea was sweet and barcandy even sweeter though the excess of them could really make anyone dizzy.


Dhornie - a singleton, lived by herself in the house with placard no. 8 for a long time now, she was a middle-aged twenty nine year old woman who had moved to the street when she was only eighteen to find the one true love of her life, some say she has a crush on Dracula

Conquer, these souls you so want to torture
Give me my pills and watch me turn into a monster
Come here gran, where you off to?; I want to torch her
And all you gentlemen, just jerking off, do you concur ?
I would have smacked your *** off the table if it was a contest
So go ahead, take your time, demonstrate a protest
And there is no time to explain, hell, i'm in pain
Take a name and I would really want her
Yeah, it's bad, blowin' a pipe, i'm goin' mad
Running around naked with a pound of ******* in my bag-pack
It's real sad, if you think about it
I'm trying to hammer a nail in my ******' head
But I can't find no way around it
Wrap around it, act astounded, it's funny how you responded
When I told you it was your momma, last night I pounded
And you're two ****** short, man I counted
Why you bring me an asian all the time ?
When I specially told you it was a blonde one I wanted
And there's no way i'm 'gonna stop once you've mounted
And it's not my fault you leave every girl so disappointed
*** is spooky ****, I swear that **** is so haunted
And you made me cry, the way you just taunted
I'll just ignore you 'cause I know you were born bad-mouthed
If you think you can convert me, I seriously doubt it
Enough done, enough said, you **** man and I don't want to hear about it





Oh, don't you mess with me boy
I can bet you it's something you won't enjoy
I'll drown your screams with my noise
And when I leave, i'll leave you destroyed  
Your silly tactics; with me you can't employ
It's your own fault if I leave you paranoid
A stand-off with me is something you should avoid
For when i'm done with you, you'll be destroyed




You twerk even worse than the goddess miley
Now shake that *** for me ***** and scream loudly
Show me you ain't dead and take a swing at me wildly
As I give you a dose of my karate chops; mildly
And show the world how you lost your front teeth proudly
Hush, now little girl, daddy's 'gonna sing you a lullaby finally
I know you got some daddy issues, here take some tissues
The ones I came in just a while ago
Baby, you've got some great ****, is there where you keep all your ego ?
Take it slow, it's a no show, how 'bout you and me do some blow ?
And watch these half assed punks as they come and go
And daddy can tell, you still havn't learned to spell
Was it the thirteenth floor from where you fell
Head-first to the ground and was that when they found,
That you are a ****** and life is no video game you can just re-start
And it makes me sick, when they call your boring rhymes an art
You lack imagination and that's why it never felt so hard
But step in my shoes, ******* blues and they'll shred you in a thousand pieces apart
But for all it's worth, i'll always be the first to smear myself in dirt  
And how are those tears forming in your eyes, do they hurt ?
But I forgive you, 'cause that's what a bigger man always does
And offcourse I am talking about my ****, you ****!

Ma'am, why did titanic sink ?
- they said even god can't sink it,
What happened?


First of all,
How dare you show your skin,
Do you want them to see-
Everything that's within,
Don't you know,
It's a blasphemous sin-
To say you don't agree
And that too with a grin ?
How dare you say what you want,
You talk about freedom-
One day it'll devour you,
Strangle you and haunt.
This book will decide your liberty
- dare you taunt.

When the night is upon us,
Who would you run to.
Come, even though it's dark-
And nobody can see nothing,
These words will save you.
Save you from what you ask ?
Ah, another question at last
Don't you know,
You need to have it in your heart,
Or else, it won't save you
-as the darkness rips you apart.

We are all his children,
Never her.
He's your father-
Meh, forget about our mother.
She's probably dead or something,
She ate the apple or something,
Stop asking questions,
Even the book doesn't know everything.


No,
I meant it knows all-
you'll ever need to know.
Science is magic,
Didn't you know.
You can be blessed too,
If you can stare at the wall
Hard and long,
Fold your hands and bend your knees,
No, you idiotic being
-not for a *******
But to see the unseen
And hear the unheard
Master of everything
And the shepherd of the herd.


Freewill is his gift,
We choose to decide our own.
'tis is his kingdom
And 'tis our home.
Even at the darkest night,
He'll never leave you alone.
But if you don't pray enough,
Believe enough,
Go to a temple enough,
Do a million things enough,
He'll send you to hell.
That's his one and only-
Requirement for you,
He do wishes you well,
But you see it's not democracy,
It's like a king and a kingdom-
Sort of like a monarchy.
We'll be at each others throat,
Human banality,
He made us for god knows what
-but he loves us all the same,
So don't take his name in vain.
The black, the brown, the yellow,
The white a little more,
See, he's so fair.
- well everyone has their favorites
Why deny him his share ?


The point is,
Do what you're told
Or he'll extinguish the fire
And you'll be cold.
He'll give you a blanket instead,
Oh, he loves that drama
And don't you dare believe in,
Something called karma.
It's all his creation,
The mountains and the lake.
And you'll find every word of his,
In this book-
Everything he ever said.
Yes, we did note it down
- to be honest,
We borrowed some from around.
You see,
He had an accent,
A little southern and down.
So, we brushed over those parts-
We didn't understand,
With other stuff we found.
But, you mustn't-
Disrespect him in anyway,
Here take this book,
It says-
Million ways on how-
Not to disrespect the one almighty.
Alrighty,
Don't take this lightly,
Hold onto this tightly
And the sun tomorrow-
Will shine again ever so brightly.


Yes, he teaches us to love
But you should hate
- who don't believe in him
Or believe in something else,
That's not him.
He is one and only,
You'll never be lonely
-with him.
Every dark night,
Won't be as grim
And every river
Will flow for you till the brim,
Your lover will give you,
The biggest shiniest ring.
The birds will talk human,
Dance and sing.
There'll be plenty wine to drink,
And when you'll be drunk,
You'll understand why-
Titanic did sink,
Because it didn't believe in him.

The entrapment worked like a charm,
And the wall caved in on Mr Cane.
He had but a moment to consider,
Had no umbrella to shield from rain.

The weather was but at the horizon,
And sun hasn't been so sane.
There is no thought left to ponder,
For the facts never do change.

Circling the theory of madness,
The colors were fading to black.
What brains have you said he,
There are no footsteps to go back.

Talking to self he wondered,
If two of him would suffice
So he made how the mirror looks,
And then the reflection came alive.

Mr Cane saw in the mirror,
Saw two more than he wished to see.
There were eight of them now,
Nothing is as it's supposed to be.

So he sat through the ruins,
Saw himself disappear one by one.
Two will be enough Mr crane,
That's enough company for someone.

Back to two down from six,
Ladder keeps adding more steps.
So Mr crane climbed over,
And left behind a bit of himself.

The sky was cold,
And the ocean was blue.
Now Mr crane was out,
So the stars had to pay their due.

Within lies the outside,
Said them stars in one breath.
And the biggest of them all,
Laid a crown at his chest.

His heart was made a king,
And the mind was made a slave.
Those eyes that had been dreaming,
Now were wide awake.

He could hear the flowers sing,
A song of thunder and haze.
His eyes crept in closer,
Mr Crane thought he saw a face.

The smile was yet to give birth,
But the swelled eyes had over-grown.
A very peculiar creature he said,
Unlike any other he had ever known.

He soon multiplied in an enemy,
Mr Crane was now afraid.
This lawn said he again,
Should have never been made.

For the trees work like charms,
In the glittering reflection of steel.
Concrete is the slab of foundation,
In this forest that was never real.

The weather was turning warm,
And he had but some walls to scale.
So he threw a rope over the walls,
Lay me a bridge he said.

The entrapment worked like a charm,
And the wall caved in on Mr Cane.
He had but a moment to consider,
Had no umbrella to shield from rain.

Head banging to the rhythm
Up and down , hair falls across the face
They don't care , it's their nightmare
In the voice of cobain with a little *******

Revolution in every heart
As the words kick in the ultimate high
Carnival of colours broken down in shards
As the bits and pieces rips open the eyes

Far away from the world
They sell their souls in this haunted ruins
To the gods of the gods
As the moon comes up to the zeppelin tunes

A fortress rise from the ashes
As jim takes the stage to shower madness once more
Drenched in the 60's gloom
They taste the freedom like never before

Everyone takes out their pistols
To induce a little anarchy
God save the queen ,
But there's beauty in this brutality


at the corner of the dark end
Stands the whispering boy
Tripping in his genius
Name's floyd


Night rages on
As the pages from the bible are passed across
The mad guy is preaching again
Anti christ-superstar screams on a cross

Smoked with purple haze
A voodoo child dreams and plays
Hands on a blade
He sets the air on flames
Knocking on the heavens door
He picks his sword to slash
The wall breaks down
Comes down hard with all that cash




Night spawns in different dimensions
Twisted realms of metallic thrash
Welcome one and all to 'tis witches Sabbath
Every breath coming out now is black


I stand there lost and found
gods screaming on
With every cast they Spell
To a promise land I'm bound ,
Never coming down
I'm on a highway to Hell

The hurt bleeds gold,
As I shine in my sivler
Watching through glass of age,
Comfortable in my winter
tears are but a reflection,
That my heart won't understand
All I have is this world,
Through the eyes of a sad man
The beauty in them scars,
Of the stars that shine in dark
Steps that lead us back,
In memories far apart
And run through this path,
With pain in our heart
And bleed them a rainbow
In every morn' numb hour
Because I have nothing to gain,
And I'm left with nothing to lose
The glass might be broken,
But I can still see through
And i hold my breath,
As I suffocate in silence
And feel the calm,
Of the deathly resistance
That I harbour so in my heart
And the world's essence,
The one I capture in my box of pain,
In a tears presence,
That remind,
How blue is the sky
From the eyes of a sad man,
As I watch my smile that hurts
And bleeds me an ocean
Watch through the cracks,
Of every doors that's broken,
And find yourself on a shelve,
Waiting to be done and sold
To the pain that we so harbour,
And weigh in gold,
make themselves an idol,
By the dreams we hold
Of how grey the page is,
With every word it molds
There is no depth of a scar,
If it kills a man
How beautiful death is,
From the eyes of a sad man.

It started with just
One look in her eyes
I was lost in the moment
Closest I've been to paradise
She stood there
Unaware I even existed
And me dumbstruck
Wondering , how can I resist it
She was beautiful
Need more i say
One in the crowd
I was pulled all the way
And so it started
A love story I desperately wanted
And I prayed at nights end
For my one wish to be granted
I took a leap forward
I took a step
Mellow at the beginning
I had to control myself

And I told myself
That she's all I want
And for a while , all the love I had
I needn't flaunt
And surely but slowly
I went all the way
I messaged her , she back
I still remember that day
And so it began
The cycle of polite greetings
Turned out to be something more
And led to the silent meetings

She thought I was sweet
Different and a little cute
She was comfortable with me
Said I had a different attitude
She was all I ever dreamt of
Kind , funny and smart
And I wondered , where would I be
If she ever broke my heart
But that day never came
And nothing was the same
With her I was complete
And I would never be sad again

On a magical night
As we sat silently in the serene moonlight
She told me she knew all the secrets I've kept
That she felt the same , I was different from any other guy she has ever met
And as she whispered those magical words
I was the happiest man in the world
And finally my dream I could embrace
We sat silently , maybe it was fate

Now when I look back to those times
I can't help myself , I smile
They were as pure and beautiful it can get
A part of me I can never forget
I was in paradise
She was in her fairytale
Long days and longer nights
It's something one can't compare

But in Time I lost my mind
Years of love made me blind
It was my fault
And the cracks began to appear
And just like that
All my sanity disappeared
She begged , she cried , she yelled
Reminded me of the times we had
She restrained , she stabbed , I bled
She reminded me of the times we had
But I had enough of the love
The sight of it made my eyes hurt
All the fights and the drama
I asked myself , what's its worth

She told me she'll love me forever
But the time has come
For us not to be together
And like that she was gone
In a moment
I was all alone
And than it hit me
Oh, all the pain in the world
Right in my heart
And soon it began to hurt
I was lifeless , beyond sad
Her memories , all I had
And I drowned in the empty sea
A broken heart all I could be

Those days are gone now
And the tears have dried
But it still hurts me
Maybe I should have tried
What we had was beautiful
How could I just let it die
And I ask myself again and again
Without a reason I said goodbye

I miss her now
I miss her with all my heart
I let her down
She'll never be the same , I tore her apart
Does she still smile
Is she in love again
Has she moved on
And forgotten all the pain
Or is she still waiting
For me to come back in her life
Is she still dreaming
What I dream about every night

But she is gone
She's no longer mine
And I'll live rest of my life
In those times
That she is gone
And there's no where I can run
And I'll live the rest of my life
Chasing a ghost of someone

She is gone.

It was cold and grey
clouds covered the sky
Two men waiting for the bus
As the spring kissed goodbye
One was young
Bright , Mathew his name
Other was old
Tired ,they called him bane
On the other side
From the pavement across
Kids were playing
In dirt and moss
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah , childhood
Wish I could live it again
But bane just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
How rude!
But at that moment
A pretty lady did cross
And Mathew stared
Coudnt keep his eyes off
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah, manhood
Don't you wish to be young again
But bane just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
I was rude !
But at that moment
A beggar came in the plot
He asked for money
But Mathew had not
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah,charity
Mind some change ?
But bane just smiled
Not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
He's cold !
But at that moment
A bus came to stop
And the old got up
used his cane to guide and walk
And Mathew just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
and under his breath he muttered
I was blind !

I've always been alone
But never lonely
I was always hollow
But never empty

I took things for granted
But somehow I did care
Now I look for a sign
I search for it everywhere

I was always in a cave
But now I'm in a shell
There are no walls
But I'm still trapped in hell

I hurt myself even more
But somehow I don't bleed
I want to be a prisoner again
I'm not ready to be free

I'm doomed by my own consciousness
Thoughts , they never leave
A shadow that befalls my darkness
My eyes no longer speak

My heart is filled with dynamite
Just a push and it'll break
I thought love was infinite
Maybe it is , maybe I'm filled with hate

But what i lost will haunt me
Will i ever smile again
Mirrors now taunt me
And all i see is pain

Reflection is lost in self
The desire to live is gone
These cards that life has dealt
An ace i burned of my own

Scars will tell my story
Once I've bled , I'll be gone
My cold body will breathe no more
I'll finally forget what life have shown

My life has no reasons
To live like this i wasn't born
She took all the life i had
She took it along , she's gone

And now i seek only solitude
But it doesn't mean I want to be alone
I need solitude in disguise
All i have now are old songs

That i play in my head
Of all the things i didn't get
I try to cut myself
But i know I'll never forget

It feels like I'm dead
All the pain is in my heart
All the voices in my head
Just ripping me apart

And I'm going crazy
Never been this deranged
I'll never be happy again
It feels like its never 'gonna change

So give me solitude
I don't want to be alone
So give me solitude
So i can believe she's gone

A broken road beneath a broken sky
A gust of wind that misses the eyes
An old man sings of hope in the shadow
Just before he's struck by lightning and dies

Storms angry on the world it rules
Rain falls down ******* sand dunes
A lone traveller searching for refuge
Gets trapped inside quicksand thats  induced

And a layer of snow befalls a town
wrath of the gods brings blizzard all around
The homeless who searched for home all night
In the morning his frozen body Is found

Rage of the ocean kisses a boat
A tale  of terror did unfold
Mother said he was fresh , only a year old
The kid was butchered and his meat was sold

As the earth shook beneath their feet
He had just fallen asleep
The beggar on the road could hardly breath
As he was crushed on the main street

Stories from around the world
Different people but same words
Oh , mother nature don't you care
People are dying everywhere

It's hard to say but no one's gonna' learn a danm thing anyway,
So let's pretend it's all a funny joke and it'll all go away
But hey, wait a minute listen to me, I want you to er...stay,
Well, it's tough talking to yourself and no one really ever comes my way
But I'll love to have a fight, get me some insight
How the alpha male reacts and I have no solid facts
In-fact I just got some emotions out of devotions sittin' on a dynamite
Of brutal almost mutual satisfaction we have when we diss somebody,
Maybe it's just me but I think everybody shares beef with somebody,
I like them kinda rare, them ***** and **** bare
Yeah, give them religious folks a *******' nightmare
But I don't really care if you wanna shoot me down with god,
I'll just pretend you just said something that rhymes with hot-dog,
Oh my god, never really got that catch-phrase,
And every-time I hear a girl screaming Jesus Christ,
While ridin' on my stick, well.. It's big I have nothing to hide
But back to the case, I always wonder.. What would joseph do,
I mean it could be anyone, me, your momma, or you
is that even a sin, Is there a place for them in hell
Dear, pope please do tell
that pointy hat is dope though,
Too bad I couldn't give a less **** about how many *** scandal you repel,
I always had an inclination to profanity, sort of mind alteration to reality
But quite frankly, I'm down making fun of myself
I guess it's just another opportunity to scream for help,
Hell, I don't know what I'm gonna' do, maybe call an attorney and sue
Here's a riddle to give you a *******,
What's red and not blue,
If you Ever find the answer bid your brains adieu.


I don't know what to say but this is a ****** tragedy
We're in a cage, trapped, we can never be what we want to be
Tuned into the the wonder-land, creating their own symphony,
They say we're the mad-men, always painting the world in a fantasy.
I don't know if they understand but dreams alter reality
Grabbed by both hands, too late to let go of this opportunity
Don't quit even though it's over, spill it in graffiti
To let the whole world know you don't give up so easily.


See, what I did there ?
Made it look like I did care, threw in some motivation crap,
It's just a trap, I swear
I talk so low about myself, sometimes I often forget I exist
But it kills me inside sometimes when I realize but I still can't resist
To diss and admit that I'm much better than so many of you and I'm so ashamed of it
It's like my ***** and your ****** just somehow never agrees to fit
I mean I'm just here typing away random **** and it'll still be better,
Then most awesome of your hits..
But.. I get it
People are so easy to offend and there's no way around it
So c'mon now, I know ya'll just waiting to pounce
And renounce everything I laid on the table,
I'm sorry I'm just highly unstable, give me my mental certificate
And put on a label that shows of I'm disabled,
Some of you must be goin' .. Ooo that's no thing to joke about,
Enough with your rants, my future kids won't like the way you shout and..
'People suffer from real mental disorders in the real world'
But hey... I have a problem too.. You know.. I hit my head and..
'STOP IT, in the name of the lord I command you..'
Please do
whatever you want, all I am saying is I have a real problem too...
'That's it, you're goin' to hell kid, you blasphemous pig"
.
.
Aight, that was uncalled for, I could have made a better metaphor
But I can't help it, could only find baby syrup in the medical score store,
And it's kinda cold though, I have a super cute android and she likes to blow..
And dry clean my house for me, I am a rich dude
I can afford totally afford a robot, I know it sounds rude
But it's six in the morning and I haven't slept all night
And I wasn't even mastrubating (Christian sin strike # -1)
It was fun just smokin' stuff and just hallucinating,
And suddenly there was a loud bang and it started raining,
.... ***** and more ***** and some wine,  it's basically ***** but whatever nevermind,
As long as you don't understand what I'm writing about,
I guess you'll be fine.



I don't know what to say but this is a ****** tragedy
We're in a cage, trapped, we can never be what we want to be
Tuned into the the wonder-land, creating their own symphony,
They say we're the mad-men, always painting the world in a fantasy.
I don't know if they understand but dreams alter reality
Grabbed by both hands, too late to let go of this opportunity
Don't quit even though it's over, spill it in graffiti
To let the whole world know you don't give up so easily.



See, what I did there ?
I made a long write even longer
and your patience to deal with inevitable even stronger
And you know how they day what can't **** you, make you stronger
Well, I'm afraid to break it down to you, it's a lie
I once saw a man being attacked by a wild cat and he survived,
Lost 5 fingers, one toe, half a ****, and  two eyes,
Kanye west, who the hell were you talking about ?
Something that doesn't kills you, makes you one step close to die
Hello, i mean you are just all ready to say good-bye
And things flash before your eyes and you regain your strength and you fight
And people are so glad that you made it out alive
It's just so Hollywood and has such a good vibe
But that's now how it happens, things get cut off
I know I'm over steppin', but I'm just a pessimist
Every time someone disobeys me, I cut my wrists
I throw tantrums now and then, just one rich spoil kid
Banging girls and what not, DON'T ENVY ME, I didn't ******' asked for it,
Your god have it to me. :)

















See what I did there ?
I just left it intentionally blank, I have to admire you though
How come you always express yourself so bland?
I mean do you assign dumb people to do your job and make a plan
What is it, what's the secret of your stupid expression
I need to *******' understand, how can so much ******* come from two boney hands ?
It's real stupid when everyone writes the same thing everyday
Man, just do away with ponies, and throw in some hints of grey
That's what I do and it kinda makes me look so serious and great
aight, you need to stop whatever that you're doing and meditate
Absorb every stupid thing you can feel in your environment and just radiate,
Then slowly lift your arms and strangle yourself to death,
Don't ******' retaliate.
That's how I feel when I go through those thoughts of yours,
Yeah bite me, get on all fours, like the ***** you are and facilitate
I know I'm being too hard but I'm on drugs and a broken heart,
Got these scars, made out with a stripper and kinda got too far
But apart from these little matters of faith and religion,
I don't think she had a problem with me until I did that part,
I guess it's never too easy to pull of a stunt in a sixty mine position,
When you're three feet too long and sixty mile too fast in a car.
I think that did it for me, i got a sense of reality and enough of free **** and virtuality,
Oh, it's just me and my humanity, fighting over who get's the opportunity
To point out similarities between you and the kid who lived down the lane,
Really old-school, liked them butterflies and everything vain
I mean I can do this over and over again, till I hit the sweet spot
Right between your thighs and send a message to your brain
.
.
I don't give a ****,
Never have and never will
There's so much space in my shoes
That you can never fill
You can walk in them sure
But it'll make you look like an idiot,
You ****
End of the story
PERIOD.

I'm falling apart as i watch the sun set
Oh how i wish to just let go and forget
But now i have this reality staring at me instead
And no matter what i do , its now not just in my head

Every thought is escaping and making a home of its own
Every whisper is now gone , leaving me so alone
Now i have no one to reach out for , every moment a new pain is born
All i have is my heart as i head to the unknown

Every part of me is decaying and dying
As i fall like a pack of cards , winds are leaving their sign
Every tear is rain , even the stars know that I'm crying
And i look in the mirror in a hope to convince myself that I'm just lying

Hands are cold and arms long for a last embrace
I wither before age , i can't even recall my face
Every sight is blurred behind this reflecting haze ,
That makes me see every sight that escapes my gaze

I can't breathe , jaws of my own gloom
strangle me
I want to leave, but the strings of my own doom won't let me be
And i can't see , every last drop of blood in me wants to be free
Drench me in my own nightmares to drown in my own sea
Sacredness of life that i just couldn't keep , of my own creed
A ray of hope and my sinking boat could never meet
Making an ocean of my own sorrow as my every tear bleeds




There's a hope in my heart and death wish in my mind
A will to live that's over-shadowed by the weakness of leaving it all behind
Mind is numb and the eyes are now scared to remind
That I'm lost and i can't find , myself
And now i should even stop trying


For I'm on the edge of existence , standing on a blade that'll cut right through
Sometimes you can't return, no matter how much you want to
You can stay in that moment forever just waiting for it to end
Or you can take a step forth , right into the approaching end


Kiss death for now its your only friend ,
It might show you the way back home.

A flicker of pale light
Falls across her face
Her smile is lost,
Hidden behind the haze
Of smoke clouds and rings
Escaping her every breath
To her heart it clings ,
A thought escapes her head
With profound nothing-ness
She remains so calm ,
An embrace to keep her from falling ,
Trapped in her own arms
Bleeding yet again ,
With every words she knows
Just an old nightmare ,
A cold whisper she beholds
Caged inside her own making ,
For she was her own master
But the road was all of night ,
Full of monsters
ghosts walked in disguise
Impervious to ones impending fate
Key to the buried lies
Icicles form the gates,
To the land of mirrors
A world of fading reflection
Blinding one and all
In every direction ,
Blinded her too
Momentarily, for her disguise
There was no view
Outside  window of the wise
Better part of hallucinations,
Were all too real illusions
His name still a mystery,
A concept for her confusion
For he fades away every passing breath
Smoke reminds her of his memory
She's lost , now and forever
In her own reality
Only he Can make her smile
Smile for her so she can be saved
Saved from her cage and night
Night that's now her slave

dead men don't sing to the world
no one can hear them against the winds
Their is the land of ash and dust
nobody is awake at the gates to take them in

dead people don't knock on no doors
they don't have our walls to keep them from being freed
it is not true what they say in old lores
they have no souls so that their heart could bleed

silence is not peace, I know you have never wondered
'tis but a disease, old and rotten not breathing anymore

there are places where when one shall go will always wander
even the deceased, who once had ones worth living for

upon the night darkness weaves an hideous potrait
showing a face and keeping stars from fading away
all who are lost can be more than just be in a cage
you wouldn't know how many dead men you've seen today,


take a look in the mirror.

Shine of the stars fall across the sea
The crease of the sky dances with the waves
Symphony of the scarred old night ,
Rests so mute on the ground , in its grave

Everything is covered in the ol' silver
Resonating every ounce of its existence
From the sky , wrath of the might shall be delivered
And the withered old hands will show no resistance

What have I done , to be left in this decaying land
These hands maybe old and withered but they do understand ,
What came my way , a curse that wouldn't go away
To be left just a shadow of a forgotten man , of what I am

Tears taught the longing of the mellow years
Hurt preached wisely but this heart could never hear
Always found a reason to bury thy soul
In the gravel and stones this world now bears

Inside was full of scars , more , as I travelled afar
I could feel nothing but my own emptiness
And Taste the sweetness of nothingness , once I was empty nothing to fill my own hollowness ,
Just some more emptiness

The man in me was lost to the ghosts
Lurking in the shadows breaking under the load ,
Eyes searching for the shore upon a sinking old boat , losing every last ounce of hope ,
A wound so deep that even time can cope , lends me a rope

Now, what shall my eyes search for
In this darkness that have engulfed my land and sea ,
Winds howl , brings forth the old lore
Words of the silver moon-light these
withered hands couldn't reach

I'll drown in my own sea of emptiness
A few drops of sorrow this world could never see
As my being turns to corpse and than dust ,
This world will finally forget me


Every lie that crossed my thought
Your lies , their lies , a carcass left to rot
In the morgue ocean , the dead howl all silvery night
With every moment , decaying in the moon-light
I was born in that very cold morgue , a shallow place it tends to be
My fate always temped me to the other-side ,
Away from the comfort of the home and into the rough seas


Your lies , their lies , a carcass left to rot ,
Their eyes , your eyes , searching for what I have not
Your lies , their lies , sent me to the rough seas
Their eyes, your eyes , the world will forget me.

these letters were found years later when a post office was closed down.
the man who by chance saw these letters addressed to each other was shocked upon reading them..
he has been since suspended for breach of privacy... at a closed post office.




dear mister planklot, I would like to concern you with a letter I got from one of my readers,
as I have always seen you as my leader, I want to have a conversion with you and discuss about this rather bizarre case, his letter was divided into five fold of a page,
by his writing he must have been no more than in his teens I'm afraid,
he wrote about a dream he saw at night,
a pale shadow would emerge from the seam of his pocket;
a rather strange scene, he claimed to have seen this over and over every third night.
the shadow tells him a different story each time, about the future and past;
he has an answer for everything that the boy asks,
it lasts till the shadow transforms into someone human;
and each time it summons a hideous creature that has three legs and nine tails,
he always mentions one name without fail;
some nights ago he whispered my name;
he told me no more, I found that a bit strange.
it was rather interesting to read about the stories the shadow told,
but some of them were infectious and cold,
there were a few that made me wither to my bones,
in the pursuit of knowledge we forget sometimes it is better to leave a few things unknown;
even though I thought it was a faux back then,
I was afraid by the things witnessed by this young man;

I threw the letter and later I forgot about him too;
but yesterday night I had the same dream too;
the shadow talked about you, he told me you will die soon;
but not before murdering me accidentally;
now I don't know what to believe in anymore,
but since I've known you for so many years;
I know there is absolutely no possibility of that happening;
we have never met each other; we only communicate via words and no face,
you don't know my place and I have no clue about yours;
I want to discuss this some more but I have to be out of town in an hour and I'm afraid I have not much time left, and even the post office is far.
I will be eagerly waiting for your response, with some wine and cigars.

yours truly
mister clasten





dear clasten, I am in a rush as I write this letter to you;
as I consider you trustworthy, I confide this in you;
I was driving through a street and I saw a strange looking boy standing still,
I don't know what happened to me but I felt a chill;
it ran through my spine and across my soul,
by the time I could grasp, my car had gone off the road;
I am telling you honestly, I saw a shadow emerging from his pocket;
by then it was too late, I ran someone over by the post office.
it has been a few days but seems no one has a clue,
I'm even going to deleiver this letter at the same post office,
to see if I really have to pay my dues;
if I get caught than it is meant to be, but if I am not,
I will consider myself free.
I hope you can understand, it wasn't my fault,
I am leaving the town, good-bye and all.


yours truly,
mister planklot

Note: It might make no sense to you but that's fine.



I don't fuss over the way someone choose to cuss,
Or the god chosen to represent depravity in some of us,
I don't need to look beneath, you're too rotten on the crust,
Priest is no god, but that's where you invest all your trust
The same face-less pig who died in a **** lab,
In a stupid police bust.
But I must apologize in advance for I know,
There is no end of ******' stupidity in some of us,
Mechanical brains, new and old, filled to the brim with rust,
******* reigns, what's the harm in givin' your body some love,
God told ya so, touching your private parts will turn you to dust,
How stupid your god is, why give me a candy I can't eat ?
Tempt me by temptations, and still made me human so I can weep,
No wonder the world is going crazy, I forgot the rituals I had to keep,
Yeah, beat thy women into submission, gods one and only creed,
But what happened to the old fool, who went past the fence,
Crawled over the surface, the muscles in his **** so tense,
Ready to paint the world, in the color of his own,
Find the fertile land, and let his seeds to be sown,
Barely walking, heavily influenced by the anti-christ and blow,
What happened to that rebel, did he ever find a *** ?



Where are the mad-men and the sick-men,
Will all this depravity finally come to a ******' end ?
What about the cuss words and the torment,
Don't lie, I know you're never 'gonna have enough of them.

Where are the sick-men and the mad-men,
Something is wrong, can anyone tell what happened to them ?
My ***** is too strong to hide, I'm in need of some women
And my words have no ink for my pen-is full of *****.



Beat me to death for echoing this blasphemous myth,
Condemn me to hell, and just be done with it,
Tell me how beautiful your god is, c'mon ******' do that ****,
Scream anti-god on my face and call me sick,
All religions laid down on the table, a difficult pick,
Order me a ***** to undo my *******' zip,
Watch me hold my **** and cover your cards with ****,
The fragrance of arrogance, something you can't resist,
Ask your momma to climb over me for a perfect fit,
As i ride her to glory, watching the divinity of some ****,
yeah, I like them on all fours, I'm such a ******' narcissistic,
And yet you hate me, **** me for you're such a pacifist
As I watch your smile slowly turning into a fist,
And in mist, what do you seek, there's STD and you're at risk,
So go back to your home and complain to your god,
There's a rebel out loose and he needs to be caught,
Pick up your holy book, and remember what it taught,
Then turn it over slowly, and read the text in broad,
Holy ******' ****, that's six dollars for the words of god!


Where are the mad-men and the sick-men,
Will all this depravity finally come to a ******' end ?
What about the cuss words and the torment,
Don't lie, I know you're never 'gonna have enough of them.

Where are the sick-men and the mad-men,
Something is wrong, can anyone tell what happened to them ?
My ***** is too strong to hide, I'm in need of some women
And my words have no ink for my pen-is full of *****.

Answer of life hides not in time but the wisdom of age
memories leave scars that remind and pain that stays
builds a home out of the wrecked emotions and hate
leave walls to fend for themselves as the music fades
against a storm that approaches and brings gloom and hail
a duel with a forgotten nightmare , pen against a blade
resonating to the lonely sky , whispers of the sage
a drop of life lost to the depths of the grave
Words of the fool and wise written on every page
All souls are puppets and life is the stage
Acts of disease only visible from the dark gates
Hidden from the gloom that haunts the naive bait
**** or be killed in this chaos , wisdom of the age can't wait  
Calling of Iove , beauty don't be late
An army sleeps in lullabies, sin is creed , war of faith and fate
Young is waiting for the words , wise for the wisdom of age

a mechanical bird
soaring in the empty sky
wearing wooden wings
and a heart of stone
bought words
and the painted lies
withering winds
stealing another home

a skeletal whisper
in the tube it lingers
a possessed skeleton
shivering eyes and fingers
casting shadows
in the deep of a screen
closed eyes
devoid of any dreams

a barren corpse
wandering the shelves
eyeing the stranger
for what he sells
a gram of comfort
for a grain of soul
one mechanical tale
to consume us whole

a dying worm
rotting in the cage
mechanical arms
spilling ink on a page
a name and a tag
for morrow to keep
tears in empty bottles
'cause metal can't weep

Waiting , endless nights carved on walls
Head phones blaring , a moment to forget it all
Cancelling out noise the world makes
He just wants to be alone and cold
Never listening to what they're saying
He never does what he's told

Their words never make sense
How can he smile when he's too afraid of  what lies beyond
His eyes always searching for solitude
At the end of the street where he thinks he belongs
He never opens his mouth if it's not in a song
In words , where he carves his heart of stone
Where he's not afraid to show his every bone

And You want to talk about butterflies
But he ate them when he was eight
You want to see shine in his eyes
But all he has for you is just pain
Everyone has a different story
Maybe you never grew up in hate
You don't know what those eyes see
Every moment in their mindless wait
For someone to come and smoke away this haze

He pours his heart out for you
And  all you do is laugh at how hurt he is
Just 'cause you don't understand
Doesn't gives you a right to scream how shallow he is
Maybe he is , ever wondered what made him this way ?
Maybe everyone else can see the 'colours'
But what if all he can see is grey ?

I know it's too hard to digest
But depression isn't something you can feel if you never had one
I'm not talking about the 'emo phase'
But the real one ,
Have you ever even come across someone ,
With no life in his eyes and no colours on his heart
I bet you've never seen someone just tearing himself apart
'cause he's too lost in this disease
I know it hard for you to believe
But pain is the only thing that brings them alive
The only healing balm in their twisted little life

Tell me how will you feel when you all you can think about is hurting yourself
You won't even last a minute in the dark places where these 'kids' dwell
They've seen enough of hate and their share of those 'stares'
So when you come across that 'someone' real or not
At least show a little care
For you may never know how your words can affect these little souls
All it takes is a moment of love to bring  them back on the road


Longer the story is , more is their desire for an embrace
So just show them kindness and don't bring forth your ugly face
The one you think makes you look better than you are
No , your mindless blabbing about something you know nothing about
Won't make you look smart
For all it will do is make that blade more sharp
And it will have your name on it as someone rips themselves apart


Kids will always look for attention , maybe it's their curse
Maybe some of them are just plain stupid , to use these words
Maybe  they don't realise that their 'story' is someone's else life
I condemn you too , for you can never find love in lies
You talk about razors but I can see you know nothing about them
All you have ever scarred yourself is just with a tiny little pen
And 'cause of you , they pounce on everyone with a blade
Anyone who says he likes playing with a gun
Maybe you'll smile to yourself when that gun finally goes off
Sometimes death is too easy and you know what ,
Sometimes it Doesn't even knocks


I've seen too much but I've heard too little
Every fool claims to be wise , claims too see every word as a lie
But again I guess you've never see true misery ,
Every word still misses your eyes
You've never come across real nothingness
And the question 'do you even want to be alive'
For these 'kids' may yet have a chance at a wonderful life
You're job is not to degrade them but to open their eyes

I've said too much but I know you'll hear what you want to
These things are all 'fake' that's what you want to say
Now , don't you ?
You've never seen out of that window at the setting sun
guess you don't like the view
Maybe if you could you can see there's an army of creatures
Coming right at you.


Can you spot the 'kid with a razor'

***, why do you have to speak like that?



It's not about who I am, you piece of worthless ****, why don't you understand?
I am basically undestructible, invincible  sexier version of Superman, and I don't got no moral ******' codes to keep me from beating your ugly *** up all over the I-don't-give-a-**** wonder land
But I know you'll take a stand, your every failed attempt is killin' me, are you ******' kidding me, you know how it'll turn out for you, oh danm!
Now I gotta' explain it to you, that annihilating you is a part of my ******' plan and you can take all of my '**** yous' , call the poetry protection people and try to sue, but i'll **** even harder than a ******' rock band, it's all your ******' fault, you pull the trigger and out comes a '****'- BAM, I know you're not a fan, but lemme ask you, what's your age my sweet gran, I know I include you too often,but why aren't you in a coffin, why do you keep poppin around, stoppin me from talkin about my feelings, you ******' *****, imma introduce you to my lil' freind, brings-you-the-end-uncle sam and he'll **** out all the oil, leave you to boil, in the sand, I hope you understand, this is important, and i'll say a '****' again, for no reason, have a short attention span, can't you see a ******* gettin' a ***** on my hand, I wonder how long will it be stayin and so, you were sayin' ?


Why do you cuss so much, *******?


I ain't gonna' feed you no crap, you have my '**** yous' and I just want 'em back, I swear I won't even set a trap, to count how many knives you have on your back, go ahead spill the blood, embrace the dirt, be the first to stab, just then don't stop me, when I start to blab, go mad, be bad, and be the contender, in line for your hardest slap, being a repeated offender, I tell you, it's the most fun i ever had, it's not the vocabulary that I lack, it's just every time I read about your ******' butterflies and sun-light I go mad, so you take your stuff, all of it, all of your hatin' and waitin' for takin' a jibe at the next '****' and stuff it all inside your bag, go ahead be on your way, now, ******' pack, or I swear they'll find your corpse, in the parking lot, where you sacrificed the young folks, and covered all their '*******' tracks, and i'll wait here for you, plannin' my next ******' attack, I know all these cussing and abusing has made you sad, but why don't you just ignore me, does it turns you on, when I shoot one after one '****' in the sack, do you really think putting your food out in the open  makes sense in a bachelor pad , I know my metaphors aren't funny, but it'll make a very sick man somewhere crack, and when everything's been said and done, i'll leave ****** karma to kick you in your hypocrite ***, there I said it, '*******' I swear this one's the last, for it may seem i'm just a punk for usin' it but you're confusin' ****, and there goes the answer to your question you just asked.


*******!

Its not that hard to take a life






I wake up and see no mirror
Reflection has never been that kind
My mornings just for her
In the evening I'll make some rhymes
Strong crave for caffeine
Now i 'gotta leave this bed
I try to stand up
But there's heaviness in my head
I realise I'm still hung-over
Man , shouldn't have been that wasted
But he said it was fine Colombian
The best i have ever tasted
That party was out of control
Hit after hit and than some *****
Now i feel so much better
I needed to break loose
The morning newspaper Lies on the table
Housekeeper must have left it there
To get up I'm finally able
Music of sunshine now i can hear clear
'thirteen dead in an accident when Their vehicle went off the cliff'
Said the last tiny column on the newspaper page
'Celebrity releases another *** tape - a hit'
Screamed the head lines at my face
Yeah , humans die all the time
Celebs don't release *** tapes everyday
In the honour of the departed
All the chaps are 'gonna download it today
So much for the news ,
Man i need my coffee now
The pain in my head killing me
I hate this sunshine song
A different feeling begins to take over
No , not so soon , not again
Let go of me you monster
I don't even know your name
I walk to the kitchen
Man i hate this coffee so much
I need something stronger
Lets go in the refrigerator and search
Yes, the old jack ,
this will do
I look in the mirror
"stop screaming , you"
I'll be over soon , you pig
I'm your alter ego
Accumulation of
all the sins you've did
I'm trapped inside my own body
Man i feel like an *******
I hate it when i can't pull the strings
I always want to be in control
Man , I'll die for some coffee
Just one sip and I'll be fine
I'll teach that ******* a lesson
Beat that stupid swine
Forgot he's me ,
Than Maybe just a slap
'gotta meet my doc again
And tell him his pills are crap
Such a fine day it was
For a moment it was normal
My folks they could never understand
Always brushed it off as hormonal
Now they sleep forever in their grave
Police said it was hit and run
But i know better than that
Sometimes I think i was the one
Not me
but my alter-ego
Or is it still me
Man, i don't know
I'm more confused than i was
I thought pills will do their job
But now this monster is out of control
He has no idea when to stop
The bottle of jack is finished now
I'm finally in my senses but feeling down
This bump in the road is just too big
And i know can't turn around now
Years and tears of rehab
And I'm worse than i was
Instead this disease found me
Now i feel so lost
In this chaos
There's not a moment of solitude
World doesn't understands me
Marks me off with a pathetic attitude
Maybe it is for the better
As i put the bullets in my gun
No need for a letter
I don't have anyone
I put it close to my head
Letting go of my last breath
But a smile spreads across my face
And i point it towards the window instead







Its not so hard to take a life when you've nothing to lose..

someday, it will rain
clouds will clear again
one day the sky will have our name
the season will change
and the forest will be green again
river will smile the same
and once again
you and I will be free
the world will forget its pain
with all it ceased to be
in stones lost and gained
words left for us to see
in this sea, a crooked tree
will flower a seed again
and mother a fathers stain
of a sisters guilt to bleed
a pharaoh cloaked in blame
for all those who were gone
and those who came
oh, how we became
each others strain
broken, in all our depth
to fall in love once again
tell me now again,
is all love the same ?

I know it's fading away
Memories never stay
But is it too much to ask
To keep me always in your heart

I know what they say
For every smile you have to pay
These memories they never last
And you can never run away from your past

I still remember every day
Every colour that's now grey
Still recovering from the spell you've cast
Why is living  with a broken heart so hard

I know , sometimes I pray
For us to cross paths someday
Can we not just run back to the start
And walk again in love on a brand new path

I know , because I cared
I search for you everywhere
I know you hide behind a mask
And I won't find you ,my hope fading away so fast

All the broken pieces that are now laid
In front of me , maybe it's too late
And your dreams crash on me like darts
Without you I'm silently ripping apart

I know for you , it's fading away
This love might not stay
But is too much to ask
To keep me as a memory for your heart

At the dawn of humans
We were a clan of hunters and predators
Now we're just a bunch of *******
Self proclaimed gods and haters
We did learn to ****
But now its more about power than survival
We've always missed the fact
That love is vital
Millions have died because of our failure to understand
And million more will die at our hands
World will be far better off
Without this disease called 'man'
Everything he touches becomes gold and than dies
He's the mad one , come too close and he'll bite
Concrete playgrounds banishing all but him
And than stands and admires the murderous sight
Can't keep his own mother from dying
He scars her and stabs her repeatedly
Like a spoilt son he can't stop crying
About how she limits his capabilities ,
His abilities for destruction
So he found the wondrous stone
Now the mother waits in silence
As he rattles her every bone
We can build spaceships and conquer the oceans
But all we'll ever do is **** and destroy
To satisfy mans greed and hunger
All the resources of the world will be employed
And than some more
For he can never be truly satisfied
Like a black hole he'll **** it all
Not an ounce of light will escape
But in time he will fall
Not before he leaves it all on the brink of extinction
As the world forgets him as he rots
For the world has all the time in this world
And we don't

Oh , I think we're back again
Where we left off our sweet little games
I know what you want , to Hurt me again
Throw me down the drain and to cover me with cuts you inflict
You want me to be dressed in pain
But I don't blame you , I blame your guts
To come out here in the open , let's kick some butts
And let me roll one first , got any cigarettes bud ?
Than we'll talk about how much you loath me
And why I think you're even worse than dirt
So take out the old photographs
Wipe and clean , common you fool ,DUST !
Make them shine so that they remind of the time when we were all about love
It makes us smile and makes us giggle you didn't believe but it's a major fiddle lost to the name and the riddles
That walks in the maze and amaze with all that rage it cages in the middle
And all that murderous thoughts provokes the anger that drowns our fears for we are the leaders
Marching forward with coldness that blinds and madness that shines through the eyes of a
killer
And to witness the blood that flows down the streets and make you believe that there is nothing more beautiful than red
Maybe you've lost your soul but you still have your head
So go ahead with your last Breath and paint this town with your cred
And the wounds that were given to you in a disguise never did set and you play with them in your spare time but you're not comfortable yet
And it burns and it turns and you learn form someone that the one you hate lives down the street just at the end
And when you go down and search around the only thing you found was a mirror
you're so stupid , my friend !

I don't know, if I still care
But that doesn't even matter cause you're not here to hear what I have to say
And since you've gone away
I've been living in my yesterday
Forsaking my today
night and day
I've been searching for the answers at the bottom of every bottle
Trying to fit in the thoughts that don't even really matter
Sometimes I just sit back and push the throttle
And see where I lead myself
I don't believe myself
And I don't even really know where I see myself
With you, without ourselves
Is what they say is true ?
That we can't ever escape from ourselves
Well *******, **** everyone that has a need to tell
That there is heaven and hell
Good and bad
Maybe I should just **** myself
Maybe I would, but I guess
I don't really even care anymore
****.. I'm getting sentimental again
I am getting mental again
Maybe it's all just a game
Of names and lies
What do you do when you see someone else in those eyes
Before you can speak
The moment dies
You think you can finally sleep
But it eats you inside
Besides, you can't really tell if it's just a spell or you're losing your mind
Maybe you need help
But no pill is kind
My will is fine
My heart's still mine
Been around the world
I should have paid heed to the signs
Now there's something that feels empty inside
I've been looking but I just cannot find it
So **** it
I'm gonna take the bottle and hit the throttle
Get away from these voices that keep on getting louder
Maybe love is just not a word and tears not just water
****
I'm a thousand miles down and I've still got her
There's something about it, something about her
That drives me crazy.