I am dying inside;
I have this secret longing
That smiles cannot hide.
I am trying to stand;
I have such a weight upon me,
It's getting out of hand.
I just want to breathe;
It's enough that my lungs are burning,
I can't unclench my teeth.
I just wish I knew;
It's so difficult to understand
And always believe in you.
Where did you go?
And who have you become?
They ask me constantly.
Where did she go?
I feel that I've grown numb,
A pale catastrophe.
But where should I go?
And who will be my one?
No one cares for me.
I know it's not so,
But no one has come
I'm waiting impatiently.
Give me a chance and let me change
Surely you don't want me!
I am as imperfect as imperfect comes--
Surely you don't want to see.
Just give me a day, a week, a month,
I'll show you who I can be;
I'll be better than I ever was,
My old self? Who is she?
Goodbye, fair world
Of lost hopes and lost dreams;
I know we'll never meet again,
Unless I burst at the seams.
Farewell to all I knew before,
I'm not the girl I seem;
Just let me go and leave me be.
Let this all be a dream.