Not going out tonight
Staying by myself it's fine
Reminiscing about our lost flame
Perhaps just a tutorial to the main game
Listening to the wind whistle your name  
Looking at the clouds coming together to form your face

give me that mashmellow
i like how u so narrow
moist shimmering on pulpy skin
your attitude so mellow
your my favorite kind of gin
as radiant and lush as a mallow

Naysayers are bystanders
meant to only see the clouds thicken as you climb
and to only smell the dust of your triumphs.

Haters are takers
of your brilliant shine
and elysian decent

You are delightfully masterful!
and in some small way...  you are      Godly!

Why do I always go for these broken ones
And they don't really love me
But I heal them
Once their hearts are pieced together
They leave me

After years of slumber
I awake...
Feel the heat the that surrounds my arrival

I no longer drown in fear
Ready to face this world
Hear me roar...
Burn... cause the dragon has arrived

I now see mountains below
I'm soaring higher than ever
All those who oppose shall perish
All those who summit shall flourish

I'm not hear to steal your spotlight
Just hear to take what's mine
It's a birth right baby!
Who's the boss ?...
I am .... *******

You ain't got non on me !!!!!!!!!

Dark Days upon
Cold Nights unraveled
"Dear girl...
Please i beg"
Hear my cry , my roar , my song
I Deeply , DEEPLY desire

your heart ,your mind ,your warm skin

If only walls could talk
I'd speak to urs

they'v seen u naked, **** and bare
they'v seen u scowl ,frown and haul
they see ur true face
without the mask u wear  

If only walls could talk
I'd make urs tell

what u really feel when u say ur 'ok'
if that gorgeous smile is really just 'fake'
and how much of ur love and happiness did i 'take'

If only ur walls could talk
...cause u don't want to

A flower never boasts about how well it looks or smells
A pineapple never gloats about it's sweetness
Nor does Pizza ever exult in it's own deliciousness

So why then do we flaunt our fading beauty ?
Why do we celebrate our expiring youth ?

There is beauty in silence...

Then again...
A picnic with pizza and pineapple juice sounds good night now

I belong to no-one
I am nobodies past, present nor future
I do not own Nor am i owned

I am no bodies "ex"
I am no bodies "the one"
I am no bodies "future boo"

The future belongs to me
I don't share!
They say "sharing is caring"
...therefore I don't Care!


I am alone ! not Lonely !

Un-tampered pride
its growth inevitably radiant
Genius-ful mind
soon to be colossally extolled

There was once this dream i had, More like a nightmare :

There i was ontop of a mountain ,alone
The heavens were beneath my feet
I took one step and looked into the abyss...
Fear clouded my mind
one more step ...
And there it was clear, crystal clear...
I saw a village ,a beautiful golden rayed village with a field filled with white dandelions and joyful screams of children as they played in the fields

I was high up ...
But i felt low ...

I took more steps, untill i was at the edge
My heels planted on the verge and my toes already falling...
I was like an angel , with clipped wings...
Awaiting his time to ascend
I couldnt wait any longer...

I closed my eyes
i **** one step
and i fell ...

Just before my cold corpse could hit the ground
I saw , HAPPINESS...
It was there holding out its hand, and screaming out my name
"Yuen!!!!! Noooo ...."

It was the last thing i heard
It was u
Whom stood on the cliff, while u weeped and called out my name...
You stared deep into my eyes ... as the ground swallowed me whole

Day sweats
Night shivers
The morning sun sings
And the midnight moon hawls

"In my time"
Its her way of staying relevant
Like a deer caught in the glare of an intruding pair of head lights
A slave to the clock ..
Her master contemplating her worth

"Her time is up"
A life spend chained to the shackles of expectation and imagination
Disillusioned soul ..  
Clouded by the illusions of fortune and imomortality
Clarity was reality
A painful realisation

"Tik Tok"
Death is on her door
He collects whats his
His fair
EVERYONE is his customer  

A fruitful life ?
A Wasteful life ?

Why the mockery ?
The insults ?

am i not enough ?

Why the shaming ?
The teasing ?

am i too different?

Why the abuse ?
The harassment ?

Why me ???
Scold me now !!
And be done with me...
Please...i beg of you...
no mas ...

In ur shine i see the bliss of an unwavering repertoire !

You are the shinny point on every star
The glimmer and The glamour
The twinkle little star i see
Forever in my dreams
Ever present in my heart and minds eye
My inflatuation with ur beauty is obsessive

Your brown eyes! ...my drug
Big, with glittering sparks
Entitled to shine forever until days end
When moon rises! ...i sob
When day sleeps and night awakes ...
My heart sinks deep

"How will i survive not seeing you???"
"Dear God make this night pass faster"!!!! ...
"So i can be with my dear sun tomorrow morning"

Dont be confused by the Black spots,
the frown ...
It doesnt represent a cold heart,
im a clown ....  only inside  

The downside smile i wear
The punctured spots i am
The flat bouncy nose
The cracked hidden yellows
The egg-like head
From affair she saw ,
Very quickly she fled

Unforseen circumstances that caused my demise
In that instance I dropped out  
A ******* eye made my decision pre-mature
"Quit or Suffer" , i choose the former
"pills and syrup" , I'm living the latter