Your name on my teeth,
My head escapin from me.
Think about it..just think about it,
Just you in my sheets.

Now you're in my dreams
Without you I can't go to sleep
I feel your energy...while you laying down beside me,
Think about it...just think about it.
No other Girl can love me.

I'm kinda getting cloudy
Can you bring your candy rain?

The wind gently sways
As the trees softly chase...
The moon and stars gets bright after Dark,
My eyes wonder high as my heart stops to cry.
Keep moving belove just keep chasing the light.

Lift my hands
I'll dance with the leaves
The branches know who I am
As we move to the beat

...the beat of life

One more moment before I go,
I look to the clouds like a funny joke.

I come back to earth just to write this poem,
It's a wonderful day let's have this moment together before it starts raining
Cause that's what I look  to see that God tells the best jokes with me.....I'm just being honest.

Sometimes you just gotta laugh threw your situation cause when you get that it can't stop the other day from coming!!!

Thank  you God for another joke you telling

I'm stuck in a lady gaga song and never heard it.

He sits beside me and I never notice.

Nice eyes and man the chest and stomach on this guy....

Wait, am I checking him out?
Look away....shhh .....no ...stop it!

He's walking this way as I get a text from my girlfriend.

She says she's leaving me for another man.

Dame!

Suddenly he sits infront of me, for someone reason his smile takes me too a song I use to listen too.

Ever the same.... rob Thomas.

Oh crap he's talking....what I do?
What I say? I know he's gay....

But he's so peaceful and my heart is crushed right now....

Do I hold my tears or speak and let go??

This day your either caught up in Baal, Baphomet or Bethel.

Since I was a kid they was trying to trip me in a fairytale..
Dragons are Good and alittle magic won't ****.
So far from the truth but some say who's gunna make these scars go away... Well tell me where did the scars come from?
Cause we know evil is bad and good is the truth!
If your caught in a lie dosent that mean that God told you?
Certainly not!
It came from baphomets mouth, so why are listening to liars mouth?
Dragons are real and so are unicorns
But dragons destroy and it takes a sword and one man to overcome him..
Maybe it's me?
Maybe it's you?
I just wanted to show you Baal is what we create for fantasies and selfish ways.
Baphomet is the Devil who lies right in your face.
Bethel is a holy place that keeps truth as it's king and good as it's God.

Wake up!!! For one day we will be on one side or the other...

It's hard to tell the truth and love someone who dosent know Good, but it's easy to fall and give up for a lie and at the end never notice that lies were getting life from you.

Forgive me.

Is that best friend place still vacant?
I understand your connection, are we standing still or runnin?
Don't get me... Your question just flirts with me
And my answer is my past giggling.

You can't sob over spilled milk,
I guess I'm just in the process of cleaning things up... Forgive me

He goes to a place that is covered in pleases
Dripping from his head is your face and just course jesture and teasing..
I couldn't be more of a meaning, what I'm saying he grieves over stuff that's indicted.

Like watching **** my heart was torn i feel like that is my cigar to release what I have as I sit exploded and out of it..

But out of it I'm far from cause when I think of your love for me I would trade my life of pleases and pornographics

For your Love cause that's extravagant









Deliver me.

Are we friends or you're the girl from the block?
Tell me can you handle all my heart ye or nah..
Don't play with my love.
Girl you can trust.
Take it from a real one.
Is my Love Enough?

It's hard to have a Good time,
When your hands cold, soar throat
And Your nose is running away slow....
But these sick days though

I fight for a smile,
You fight for a girl
I shoot for truth
You shoot for property

All they talk about is labonimies
Let me get back to my post
For the God in me

You saw satan fall like lightning,
Is that the same place I fell ?....... Might be.
Too much of my greed
It was my choice to be chained
As I fall light years away.

But I'm carried by your grace.
I could've been satan but you made me light years away

Thank you...

So often I don't feel strong,
Feels like I've been Fighten so long..

So often I just feel wrong,
At night my heart become so cold....

Your the way the truth and the light
What's wrong with me Christ?

I'm so blatant but blatant is my life
All my dirt they say you can take this away and give me something better.....right?

As the sun peeks threw the clouds.
These thoughts get so loud.

Please don't let them in...
As I drown all my intentions.

Couldn't be a better image

You know I love you
No matter what you do...
And I
Hope you understand me
But were gunna see it threw
Cause I love you

When it got so complicated?
I don't know..I don't .....know
Never use to be this complicated
Maybe I should take it slow...

Lock myself in the music.
Hope my fears can't see this.
Man my mind so clueless!
When It comes to this I'm Dangerous...

...is it Bad that...
I lost the key,
I love this  place,
I eat my dreams.

I know the top is the bottom
And the bottom is the top.

To stop my legs from wondering,
I cut some old routs off my block.

Just to get threw the thundering,
I played with twinks in woodstock.

But now  is it Bad that this is why i keep the door locked?

If it was up to me
I would of never broke down
Before the tears roll down...

My love is waiting.

We laughed
We ate
Never seen the Hate that you made.

You cryed
I stayed
Never thought your bullet would come so close to face.

You are the only one to pass so easily threw my Armour, the man in the  mirror is the worst to be my parnter

I work myself up,
Then I'm in to deep.
I set myself up,
Then I fall so hard.
Oh God I'm so.....

..clumsy..

I believe we want what we don't need,
Speak but don't say
Have but don't share.....
A comic to a fictional book
Watch fish breath rather then dangle while the life of it is holding on by a hook.
What's Love got to with it?
Well...everything!
I'm tired of pointing the finger it's getting old
My sores and wounds can't be healed or sowed by blaming and leaving my words to be cold.
But love...my love SPEAK what you know.
Tell love your love that there beloved.
While you have TIME in Love.

And for the love of God cause God is Love don't dangle my feelings and watch me die THROW ME BACK IN THE WATER OR DINE.
Cause I hate to be lead away with words and your love is running out of time.

Minutes turn to hours

Hours into days

I think about the years

In this place.

The place I find you

Oh the joy in that day

Every hour brand new

Every minute I wait to hear you say...

"Hi"....

And the most greatest thing!

I haven't even met you babè..

Your heart is like a candle
Slowly I drip in your love.

Your smile is like a fragrance
These butterflies won't stop...

My hands won't stop shakin,
Your eyes make me melt.

Your hair looks amazing
I'm in amazement.

I truley adore you,
I lose myself in that.

When I ignore you thats when I think of you the most.

My friends say I'm in to deep...
Some nights I think im not but this night I learned that I can't breath...

Without you
Oh God I need you and it's crazy cause you chose me and I don't think you even needed me.

Hiding in the shadows calling my utmost.

Baby this is a battle for I have a saddle who wants me to *******.

Listen I tell you here cause I know everybody got issues.

Keep your tissues cause honestly my tears these days are mental.

Private talks away from the perfect view and you get my imprecations on Skype talking to a guy or ....you.

But you...what are you hiding? Yeah you...can we be talking or just be poetically cool?

The medicine injecting the knees in the room, what I mean yes I'm saying I pray like there's no tomorrow.

Walking really close to the highest in the clouds you start to really see how your life is written down.

Most of the people don't know or like or even have read this all the way down.

But ending with this note....if I ever played piano, IM MOVING MY FINGERS FROM THE LOWKEY AND LETTING MY WALK SING TO HIGHER GROUND.

Get it together Christian get it together!
He talks like a Shepard but walks like a leopard.

The fingers of panthers I live in the trees! Lusting is like a body builder can't stop looking even if I'm Hercules.

Cuts  in his body can I show you the scars I have though? I'm my only stunt double..

.....when I fall I get up without a paycheck to.

No one can take your place but one day somebody will need you.

Cause you need me as I need you.

Takes time with a wounded heart,
Cause he haven't healed.

Takes time with a broken hand,
Cause he likes to feel.

Takes time with a hurting man,
Cause he likes the pills and likes the meal.

..well I'm half the man I use to be
...well it's more then chance that's saving me.
..well I'm bad with steps when I walk for me.

Takes time with a healing man,
Well his hand is healed.

Takes time with a wounded heart,
Well he loves foreal.

Takes time with hurting man,
Well he holds the pill and leaves the thrill

Well I haven't been the man I use to be.

Take me to that place..to that secret place where I can be with you and you can make me like you.

Take me...
Take me.....far away
Oh what a place

Nights like these only come to the pathetic,
The stupid shameful persons.

Where you see lines in the sand that you drew washed over by new horizons.

And that horizons clash into the sea with the line that you drew,
Your not gunna do this ur not gunna do that.
But you did and it's done....
To be honest I'm fearful but if I can lose of what I have become?

What have I become...?

-ocean waves-

Will I make it to the end
Or will I fall and lose everything
I'm trying to be a better man...
But why is it so little change.

It's 4am and now I'm stuck
I don't wanna do what he wants me to but I still gave him what he want.

The man in the mirror is so hard to please , it's Sunday and I'm doing "abominable things".

Can we just slow down your rushing me, but if I didn't I wonder if you like moments with me..

Well I don't!
I hate how you go back to old things
Or when you try to fit in with the most stupidest scenes
You have grown into this self seeking broken person..

Will I make it to the end or will I fall and lose everything, I'm tryna be a better man but why is it so little change

If I was honest, I'm doubting myself
I'm doubting my thoughts
I'm doubting, I'm doubting if I can ever move on from me
Please God help me to move on from who I've been

His pants half on, his tie is crooked.
His hair is done, but his mind is racing.

His eyes are focus, but his hands just won't stop shakin...

Then he hears a voice down the hall
It gets quiet within his heart
It's like his cares just drop
As I heard you walk.

"What is man that you are mindful of him".He said " the son of man that you care for him?"

His tears are now soaking his shirt, he finally got his tie straight l...so I've heard.
He looks at the door as a knock bleeds threw his spark.
It's his father gently saying.."he's almost here..be ready for on that Day he's coming for a bride without spot or wrinkle"....as I look up in the sky waiting for that wedding day a smile starts to sprinkle.

I never knew how much I thought about you..How I work myself up just by thinking about you.

I traded a million words for just a glimps of you, nothing but a dream has been strangling my tooth.

It's like I can't speak...I can't speak but I'm tired of screaming at you!

Man these sheets....these sheets hold my weight and tears for you..

But the truth of all we been threw, I made up it's like I was running in place

....You know?

kinda strange to show affection for a person over-seas.

Now I'm walking  threw your waves   and this pain is getting deep.

When you lie and hold the bait I wouldn't know unless you speak.

But we don't !! You act like Skype is not for free or text is miles away!
Well kik ..okay ..okay....

I been losing sleep just to tell you about my faith.

After that it's me listening to another "oh okay."...

If I had it I would fly a plane or get on to a boat, But I fear it will be the same like I was joke

Go nd laugh but my bad my bubble just broke I'll be fine even when I need you the most.

I'll be fine I'll be fine
When I need you the most

A million miles away and there's thoughts about you here.

I lost my clothes on pictures and found I'm clothed with lustful tears...

Streams of a ****** has hit the air,
And now my demon runs over my ambition like lights with a deer.

Talk about stuck between the rock and your hard place..
Now I'm questioning the four play over the Internet, we both stay where no one wants to lay.

A million miles away!!!

And suddenly I notice this is only fantasy?! Your my typical "deity" ...wait let me explain

My train has stopped and now I'm off line and seeing your no where near my wonderings.

Your not God but I made you a God what God can tell me I'm perfect? I'm looking unto him for a Job and the things I prayed about some point in time that I felt bound by a....

Guy...who took my lust.

Wow moment of clarity, I'm doing the same with you Ricky


I can't do this no more as you slowly stop texting me and I get off line and just walk away like you never knew me...
..how bout I don't text back to the first message you send me.

I can't deny it
But I can be honest.

It's a riot
But how can you riot in silence.

It's my escape,
But my freedom & promise..do I give it up?

I can't...
I can't let this go.

I gave many years to you,
But this gives me forgiveness.

I don't i  can solve this,
But only you can help me out of my problem....

Fact is I messed up
Truth is I don't know why we run from truth when he's the only thing that help us.

Warriors cry only when death is sweet.

Dirt looks good only when trees and plants are planted.

Rain comes to fall...

Freedom from myself will be the sweetest rest I'll ever know.

But til then I will live

What are you..
What are you so afraid?

What are you....
Give but you cannot take Love.

Everything I do
Hate and I despise
Lust and the bucks plus the man that I was.

Sinking in my dirt equals this what I become.

Climbing back out like  man I messed up

Then I'm clean cause love forgives us,

A height that you can't just adjust
Took your whole life to see that God is must.

But now I'm in the sky and I'm scared to fail my love,
But


What are you..
What are you so afraid?

If I had to answer that question Im afraid  of love, but in the end I ain't scared to trust ....love

Is
Am
I?

Such wrong words but words can words express what I deserve?

What I heard is echoes of my own voice in a Hurd full of nerves that want to be released out of my words...

First I...well secondly....no no this will prolly be the third, where I'm fulling and filling in the feelings of a per-son.

Seeing you leave is like wind threw a hot day. Does that make sense? Cause you come and blow but I need sense cause this is not it.

Wait
Stop
Hold on! As I've become a puzzle piece to the forgotten

And I'm fine with it

Where should I begin?
Or should I say how is it gunna ends?
I say down 4 but why did it feel like one?
Me myself and I....I don't think I have best friends.
Broken by my own imperfection to hold a relationship.
So what's friendship?
Own his nineteenth birthday was like a car wreck.
As I hear pouring of water my dad is getting for work then.
I forgot to mention I'm turning twenty in 2months,
All that other random bable is not poetry at all.
My fault....

Turn the lights down,
Sorry he's gone.

Tell me  what is right,
When your the one that's wrong.

Listen I've tryed,
But my shoulder is cold.

Be honest I've cryed,
To what I have become.

If we talk about tonight,
Tomorrow will come.

So I stand I'll fight,
Forgive me my love.

Turns the lights off,
You can stay if you want

Turn the lights off,
Sorry I'm gone.

Staining at walls like are you gunna,
Close in on me?

These days feel more but there numbing me to the things that use to "get me"
But you don't get me I get me and that's the whole point
I stop playing hookey and started learning
That this is worse then only
For that word always makes excuse

But all that crap I said up there
Was to tell you that im leaving who I am.

I messed up
I get it I'm so stupid oh I messed up.
So foolish loving vapors that's not real love.

I try to make my self good
My good is Like a filthy rag

I'm guilty all this thinking got me caught up.
Wait a minute let me get it now I'm *******
I'm dripping from my sinnin forgive me love.
I need you more then what I say to clean this mess up
I'm the mess up.

I try to make my self good
My good is Like a filthy rag.

Remember me?
I was the awful I was the scary one.
Ooh Remeber me?
I was the broken I was the hopeless
You couldn't see
My heart was frozen but you could not tell.

Well now I see now I see I messed up,
Belove.

I know it's hard
The tears they flow
The pain it hurt
Nobody knows
You wanna quit
The winning towel
Just hold on it's the last hour.

My hands hold my coldest thoughts,
....My heart is sinking in the sand
Still I try to pick myself  up!
All the pieces fall again...

Iets just be honest, im coming
I'm coming , I'm coming
Undone my beloved friend.

I'm blowing threw the wind my friend,
Forgive me for the years I did.
I'm tryna be a better man!
But when I do I fall again

Can I be honest, I'm coming
I'm coming I'm coming
With Perfect hands

You'll  pick me up when I'm  in sin,
I'll   dust you off from all your dirt.
Back together in my perfect hands!
Forever be your beloved friend.

Don't wanna be on earth...this is just to low.
Taking chances that will hurt....the mask won't let them know.
But tonight will hold my last cry, my heart will fight for truth.

I am....that I am...I'm coming home....com..

Last words he said after arrows pierced his mind
His heart was ready to deny the blood that was flowing like a rush of water calming a fire.
My hands became weak of holding my sword and helmet oh such liars! Ambushed by my own creation that poison me while drinking my apple cider...
Companion of wires caught in the eye of my fighters. Guilty! Broken! Hearts...
He falls to his knees his eyes are losing sight.
With his getting he gets understanding,rises and looks at the North Star that's shinning and smiles as the cowards run off in the dark towers knowing one day those twin towers will fall oh I heard the whispers of knowledge! He wipes his face with this last moment as blood is dripping from his garmet..falling back slowly he screams...

My God...my God...I'm coming home...com

With a loud thump!

He falls and closes his eyes slowly as he hears the shaking of those dark "Created Gods"

There riddles to the future
It makes sense when your there...

Some go on with there day,
Some sit and stop and reflect on the dream
But I .....
I wanna know the source.
The source...
Tell me....tell me now!!! Is there a God I can't see or is it the after life communicating with me?

Both telling me something while thoughs go around what they saw
I been laying awake for a reason
I been hearing a call from something that's not there.
Well what about heaven
Well what's with these witnesses
Have I lost my intelligence
I believe I'm.....walking in somebodies dream again.
Do anybody here me!!!!
Can anybody recognize
Your dreams are real there in this life but camouflaged.

My eyes have seen wonders
Walk threw my room.

I wake up with the cruss in my eye
And a *****...I'm just telling the truth.

Born in sin and I've seen the demons behind it!

White man,  oral, I was sixteen....after that we had ice-cream the flavor...chocolate.

Born again and I've seen the angel infront of me!

Gay, bi, straight don't even wanna talk to me, cause I tryed to be in there little cliques, party's, lifestyles and just to find out!

...to freaking find out!

I'm stuck in a place where I'm waiting for eternity and I'm to high for grass and I'm to low for clouds.

I'm not just existing like the rest of men,
I'm transcending to a eternity REALM!!









And the greatest thing about is I love it

Words fall off the pages

Two months in the comfort covers

Pillows were softer then wet kiss

How you lick your lips is my religion

Hands Softer then butterfly wings and there not even cold

I walked into the room dripping in Gold

A wave of heaven in your touch as a you softly read me first.

The birds carried you off as I remembered what it was like to be with you my love.

Tears fall even now when my knees were weak like the room though
As I gaze at your tomb stone.

When it's real then it's real not fake,
If you love me then love me cause I love you bae.
Your the only thing that's making me real
2 makes a couple so a set for me and a set for you so are we foreal?
And when we disagree it's not a diss
So agree is somewhere in this big deal.
Maybe it was a small deal,
How I tryed to change the subject and you bot the lies I was telling you.
See *** leaks but love overflows ,
I'm in your dreams but I can't get you out my mind though...